Jian Songyi was late the morning after Bai Huai left.
In fact, the alarm clock rang, and he heard it too, but half-dreaming and half-awake, he forgot that Bai Huai had left, and he waited for Bai Huai to come and cheat him to get up.
It's just that he didn't wait, and fell asleep in a daze.
After falling asleep, he heard Bai Huai's voice.
"Children, get up."
"Baby, get up quickly."
"I will kiss you if I don't get up again."
"Hey, kiss you, will you wake up?"
Bai Huai's voice is gentle, his kisses are gentle, and his hugs are gentle.
He habitually wanted to roll over into Bai Huai's arms and rub.
Then it fell through.
The sense of weightlessness trying to find support and then suddenly fell into vain made him suddenly awakened from his dream.
Then I found that the sky was bright, and the spring sun fell on the ground, but it was cold and empty.
Bai Huai is not here.
Jian Songyi was stunned, then sat up, spread her legs apart, put her elbows on her knees, buried her face in her palms, rubbed vigorously until her entire face started to turn red, then got up, washed, and set off for school.
Everything went as usual. Before going out, remembering something, I went back to the kitchen to take milk and bread.
He promised Bai Huai to have breakfast and take care of himself.
When he got in the car, he was the only person in the back seat. When he was sitting next to a 1.8-meter alpha before, he was too crowded, but now he only felt empty.
Looking down at the not-so-hot breakfast in his hand, and don't know why, he took out his mobile phone and took a picture, and wanted to send it to Bai Huai.
Then I saw the dense unread messages pushed by WeChat delayed.
Creditor: [Children, get up. 】
Creditor: [Baby, get up quickly. 】
Creditor: [The video is not connected. 】
Creditor: [I can't kiss you if you don't get up, get up quickly, be good. 】
Creditor: [Forget it, you can sleep a little longer, remember to have breakfast, I ask Aunt Liu to cook porridge for you every morning, pack it, you can go to the door to get it. Aunt Liu will still deliver lunch and dinner. 】
Creditor: [My first class is over, Lazy Bao. 】
Jian Songyi thinks that Bai Huai can tell the truth.
The corners of his mouth rose involuntarily.
[How can you talk so much? I can't imagine you later in menopause. 】
At this point, Bai Huai should have already started the second class, and it is estimated that he will not return for a while. Just as Jian Songyi wanted to put down the phone, a message popped up on the screen.
Creditor: [Wake up? Have you had breakfast? Nancheng is going to cool down today, and it will be cold in the spring, so you should wear more. The hot water bottle puts you on the outermost layer of the schoolbag. When you study late at night, remember to change the hot water and cover it to prevent the root cause of frostbite. 】
Jian Songyi really wanted to cut out the WeChat chat records for everyone to see, the shit, cold and abstinent male god, is simply older than the old mother.
Disgusted.
Then obediently posted the breakfast photo: [This is what I eat. It's too late to see your news, and I will find Aunt Liu tomorrow. 】
After thinking about it, I sent another: [Aren’t you in class? Still playing mobile phone? Which little fairy are you chatting with? 】
Creditor: [Waiting for you little fairy to get up. I'm afraid you won't see me when you wake up, miss me. 】
Jian Songyi curled his lips: [You think it is beautiful, who the **** misses you]
Creditor: [Just don’t want to, but don’t worry about it. 】
Seeing the last WeChat message, Jane lowered his eyes relaxedly, unpacked the bread bag in silence, and started gnawing slowly.
Thinking about it, I just thought about it the first day.
I didn't see you in the morning, and I didn't feel like waking up.
But he can't say that he is super cool, and he can't be found by Bai Huai that he is so clingy, so dependent on him, otherwise this dog will definitely have to take an inch and he will be eaten to death.
But Jian Songyi is not a person who is good at lying, he can't hide anything.
He failed to deceive himself into not thinking about Bai Huai, nor was he able to hide his miss of Bai Huai.
Although he behaved the same as before Bai Huai's transfer, he still had a cold and stinking face every day, but he would also laugh a few words with his friends. Listening to the teacher's lectures, self-study, but still the first grade in every exam.
Nothing has changed.
However, Yang Yue and the others could see that Jian Song thought about Bai Huai.
He would wake up on time every day when the alarm clock went off, instead of staying in bed until it was dark as before.
He would go to pick up a cup of hot water after every get out of class, instead of bottle by bottle of ice drink like before.
He would carefully pick out the coriander and celery that he accidentally put in the meal, and then eat obediently, instead of just not eating anything as before.
He will start to take notes seriously, sort out them bit by bit, and his handwriting becomes more and more neat, instead of skipping the steps as he likes before.
He did what Bai Huai used to do for him, and it seemed like this, he wouldn't feel that there was anything wrong with life after Bai Huai left.
It’s just that occasionally in the afternoon, when Yang Yue poked him to wake up for class, he would mutter a few words "Baihuai, don’t make trouble, I’m sleepy", and then inadvertently tore a hole in that whitewash Missing has nowhere to hide.
At this time, Yang Yue and the others were very careful, and then turned around and secretly sent a WeChat message to Bai Huai, asking him to call Song Ge at night.
So Jian Songyi didn't say anything, but Bai Huai already knew that his childish, willful and ignorant boyfriend had actually learned to take care of himself and missed himself very much.
Then countless guilt emerged in my heart.
In fact, if he could, he hoped that Jian Songyi could have been naive and self-willed, because his boyfriend was not competent enough.
But Jian Songyi felt it was okay.
This is not the first time.
The last time was three years, this time it was only three months.
Last time he didn't know why Bai Huai left, this time he gave him a good gift.
Last time he didn't know whether Bai Huai would return, this time he knew that Bai Huai would definitely return.
The last time he could only toss around helplessly in every sleepless night alone, looking at the empty window sill opposite, this time the opposite window sill left the pot of small cedar.
Last time he entered every carefully crafted miss, question, care, and input, then deleted, entered and deleted, and finally there was no trace. This time he could receive countless words of care and love every day.
The separation and longing last time were so hopeless, but this time, he has hope.
So he felt that it was actually not that difficult.
He has never dared to tell Bai Huai that in the year when Bai Huai was fourteen years old, because he was unaccustomed and missed, he had secretly drank alcohol, secretly red eyes, and secretly asked for the address, and secretly bought a ticket to Beicheng. .
But he returned directly at the airport.
Because he was not sure whether Bai Huai would like to see himself.
Probably in Bai Huai's heart, Jian Songyi fell in love with him at the age of seventeen, and Jian Songyi once thought so.
But when Bai Huai left for the second time, Jian Songyi realized that he might like Bai Huai no later than he likes himself.
Because he only understands now that the original unhappiness that is lingering comes from his attachment to the person he likes.
He is really slow.
Fortunately, they did not miss it after all.
Three months is not difficult.
Spring has come and gone, and the early summer has entered in a blink of an eye, and Nancheng is about to enter the rainy season. The air is full of sticky and humid heat, which makes it uncomfortable.
Yang Yue’s approval for transportation has been completed, but he did not pack his things and leave school. Instead, he moved the table next to Yu Ziguo and gave him precise guidance throughout the whole process. Yu Ziguo was also able to endure hardships, starting at 5 in the morning and going to bed at 12 in the evening. Shengdi pulled the grades to 20-30% before the grade.
And Yang Yue also started to lose weight. He gave all of his meat to Yu Ziguo for each meal, and then ran around the playground for an hour. After two or three months, he actually suffered 20 or 30 catties because he was tanned a little and looked very tan. A bit masculine, looks much more mature than the white and fat mushrooms during military training.
But Yu Ziguo was raised a little fatter.
Jian Songyi asked Yang Yue if he likes Yu Ziguo. Yang Yue just told him that the most ordinary students in schools like him and Yu Ziguo, in fact, many times, they want to guarantee their future before they dare to talk about more complicated things. thing.
But he also said that they will work hard.
No matter ordinary or outstanding, life always has hope.
Because of this enthusiasm, even Xu Jiaxing, who had no brains, began to study seriously, thinking that he would try to get to Beicheng anyway, or else he would be alone in the small group, which would be bad.
However, Lu Qifeng and Zhou Luo had a quarrel. Zhou Luo had been crying for a long time, but he had not ignored Lu Qifeng.
Jian Songyi knew about Zhou Luo's experience, so he always felt distressed for Zhou Luo. He felt that such a temperament-loving person could become so angry that it must be because Lu Qifeng did something inferior to that animal.
Lu Qifeng didn't answer him, but he didn't refute, only that he was a fool.
That kind of self-blame and dejection made Jian Songyi's fatherly love overflowing, telling him, it doesn't matter, who had never been a fool when he fell in love early.
Even a person as smart and calm as Bai Huai can do something stupid like running to Beicheng because of inferiority, and then turning back to toss for a few months just to chase himself, let alone other people.
But this is probably a teenager.
All love and hate are so impulsive and pure. Everyone is working awkwardly for the beauty they want, and this awkwardness and hard work makes those mistakes become better.
In the evening, Jian Songyi drove a video with Bai Huai about the topic, while talking about these trivial things.
Because the question was a bit difficult, I didn't notice that Bai Huai didn't tease him from time to time as usual.
Until I finished writing the last question, I looked at the tablet computer on the stand in front of me and stretched out: "Tsk, I am faster than you today, I am still better."
On the screen, Bai Huai put down his pen and raised his lips: "You are an omega, you should be faster than me, otherwise it will be discordant."
"Grass! Bai Huai! Can you not be so obscene! I'm going to sleep!" Jian Songyi's ears are red again, and she is about to turn off the video.
In the usual way, Bai Huai would quickly coax him to be too greasy and crooked for a while, tune up, and cheat a few screen kisses before giving up, but today Bai Huai just smiled slightly: "Well, go to bed early, good night."
Jian Songyi found out that something was wrong, and looked at Bai Huai suspiciously, "Did you date another little fairy tonight?"
"Is Queen Xiong counted?"
"..."
Bai Huai chuckled: "It's just that I feel a little uncomfortable today. I want to go to bed earlier. If you want to, I will talk with you again."
Across the screen, many things can’t be seen. Jian Songyi can only find that Bai Huai’s expression does seem to be a little uncomfortable, and hastily said: “I’m not bothering you anymore. You should take a good rest. If tomorrow is still uncomfortable, Just go to the hospital."
"Good." Bai Huai smiled softly as usual, "Listen to my boyfriend."
There is no big problem.
But after the video was hung up, Jian Songyi kept a string in her heart, trembling in her heart, disturbing people's heart.
After waking up the next day, the first thing is to turn on the phone.
However, he did not receive news from Bai Huai as usual.
Jian Songyi made a video call and did not answer.
When making a call, the other party's mobile phone cannot be connected temporarily.
Jian Songyi turned out Zhu Gong's WeChat without hesitation, and a video call came over.
"Hey, Zhu Gong, are you at school? Can you find Bai Huai for me?"
"I'm still on my way to school. But why did you suddenly ask me to find Bai Huai for you, you can't reach him?"
"Yeah. I can't get through, so when you get to school, can you find him for me first? It's troublesome."
"No problem, I have about ten minutes to arrive, and I will reply back to you."
"Well, thank you."
Those ten minutes were extremely long.
Jian Songyi changed his clothes, packed his documents, and booked a ticket to Beicheng.
Be ready to find Bai Huai at any time.
Then he stared at the phone screen in a daze, and his fingertips trembled slightly.
In fact, it was just an ordinary morning.
Bai Huai may just be uncomfortable and sleep a little longer, maybe he just forgot to charge his phone at night, maybe he just forgot to bring his phone when he went to school in the morning.
But it was a very ordinary time without reply.
But I am used to opening my eyes every morning to be the Jian Songyi of Baihuai WeChat. I am used to seeing Baihuai’s Jian Songyi when I look back anytime and anywhere. I am used to Jian Songyi who is taken care of by Baihuai every time, because of this. Once a short time can not be regarded as a loss of connection, I feel nervous and uneasy to the extreme.
Distance is such a terrible thing, any abnormality can make people frighten.
He was worried about whether Bai Huai was sick and there was no one to take care of him. A person was in a coma with a fever at home. He was worried whether Bai Huai had encountered something sad and had no one to accompany him. He closed himself at home. He worried a lot.
For every kind of worry, he hated why he was not with Bai Huai, so that he could take care of him, coax him, and accompany him.
Rather than being unable to do anything like this.
Because I couldn't do anything, the ten minutes seemed extremely long.
Finally, Zhu Gong sent a message.
"I asked for you. Bai Huai was sick and asked for leave. He didn't come to school today."
Jian Songyi got up with his bag "噌" on his back.