Chapter 178 - : Are You Gay?

The crowd cheered loudly when the host announced the Gold Grand Exemplar for the Joust subcategory. It's Prince Fraser.

Csille smile bitterly. She's happy that he won, but she couldn't help but feel sadness and bitterness inside of her. 

The conversation she had with Prince Fraser yesterday didn't end well. She thought after all the words she said, Prince Fraser would walk up to her to talk about it. However, she waited the whole night for nothing.

Do you really want me out of your life, Fraser? All I am asking is for you to understand me. I can change only if you bother to understand me. However, it looks like you never plan to understand me at all.

Csille takes a deep breath and claps her hands.. Everyone is happy with the result, except for Csille. She tried to cover the sadness in her eyes, but she couldn't contain it. Her tears started to roll on her face. She immediately excused herself and found a quiet place to cry. She hides in a corridor that to leads to a dead end.

However, she hadn't even started crying when someone called her name. Csille immediately wipes her tears and looks back. She sees Sir Farren standing a few meters away from her. 

What does this guy want from me? Is he happy now? Prince Fraser hates me now. Or does he expect me to say thank you to him because he tried to defend me in front of Prince Fraser? 

I also want to know why Princess Paislee looks for Csille. I tried to remember if I ever wrote a scene like this. As far as I know, I never write anything about Princess Paislee and Csille's conversation. 

In my novel, Princess Paislee doesn't want to associate herself with Csille. She thinks Csille is too immature, and she doesn't want to interact with unnecessary people. For her, Csille is nothing. That's how I write her. But it doesn't mean that Princess Paislee hates her. She just prefers not to interact with her.

"Please forgive me, Lady Csille, for my intrusion. However, I just want to have a conversation with you." 

Csille raises her eyebrows at him. "What do you want to talk about? Is it about what happened yesterday? Are you happy now, huh? Prince Fraser hates me and would probably start to distance himself from me. You finally succeeded in getting in between us." Csille claps her hand and scoff.

Princess Paislee sigh and shakes her head. "Lady Csille, I never plan to get in between you in the first place, so how can I be happy with what is happening?" She sigh. "I notice that after I became close with Prince Fraser, you started to change your attitude towards me. I just want to know why."

Csille chuckled. This guy has the nerve to ask me why? WHYYY?! If not because of him, Prince Fraser won't change how he treats me, but ever since he comes into the picture, I was set aside by Prince Fraser.

"You want to know why? Then I will tell you why." Csille glares at Princess Paislee. "Because of you, Prince Fraser hates me. The moment you meet Prince Fraser, you stick with him like a dog tailing its owner. I was okay with it at first, but what did you do, huh? You take Prince Fraser's time away from me. The moment you came into our lives, I was set aside. He is always with you, but he never bothers talking to me. And you got the guts to ask me why I changed?"

Woah, can you calm down there, Csille? You sound like Prince Fraser right now. 

Princess Paislee sighed. "But I am only doing my responsibility, Lady Csille. I am the personal knight of Prince Fraser. It's my responsibility to be with him always. I never intend to get in between you or to take away Prince Fraser's time. I am only doing my job as his personal knight, and have you forgotten? You're the one who hired me to guard him, right?"

"You never intended to take my fiancé's time? If that's the case, why does Prince Fraser loves to spend more time with you than with me? Tell me, Sir Farren. Are you gay?"

Princess Paislee got choked because of Csille's words. If I had my body, I would probably laugh out loud. Princess Paislee gay? That's definitely hilarious,

Princess Paislee looks around. Trying to see if there is someone around. She sighed in relief when she didn't find anyone. "Lady Csille, I am not homosexual. Is it the reason why you're always against me? Because you thought I like Prince Fraser, and I am taking him away from you?"

Csille just stared at Princess Paislee and didn't admit anything. Princess Paislee sighed. "You can rest assured that I won't get in between you. I actually love someone else already, and I will only love that person for all my life." 

Wait, what? She already love someone else? But it doesn't make sense. Princess Paislee will only love Prince Fraser her whole life. But it still takes five years before it happens. So, who is she talking about? 

Csille nods her head in satisfaction. "Remember your words, Sir Farren. You're not allowed to fall in love with Prince Fraser. Only I can be with him." Csille immediately left after saying those words.

She feels much better after knowing that Sir Farren is in love with someone else.

However, if the real Csille is satisfied with what happened, I was left with a lot of questions in my mind. Who is Princess Paislee referring to? Prince Fraser? Or did she just lied?

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"And now, the matches for this year's Grand Exemplary Competition is over. Congratulations to all the Grand Exemplar for this year. We will have the announcement and the pinning of the Exemplars the day after tomorrow. So rest well and enjoy the rest of your stay in the Saiven Kingdom."

The crowd cheers loudly. They are all happy that the competition is over and now they can rest and have fun. All the matches exhausted almost every representative, and now it's all finished. All they want to do is to have fun.

Rufus shouts too. "Purplany, it's over! It's finally over. We can have some fun." He enthusiastically shakes Csille's hand. He looks like a child who was just informed that he would visit an amusement park for the first time.

Csille forces a smile. All she wants to do right now is to rest. She competed for the whole day, and she was exhausted. Her body is craving the comfort of the bed.

"I think it's a good idea. We should treat ourselves too. After all, it's no joke to compete in the Grand Exemplary Competition." Leander seconded. "What do you think, your highness, Prince Fraser?"

Csille avoids Prince Fraser's gaze and looks at the people talking to each other happily. 

"It's actually a good idea. When do you plan to do this?"

"How about tonight? We can have a small party tonight. After all, we are now Gold Exemplars." Rufus immediately answer.

Csille sighed and stood up from her seat. "Enjoy your night then. I'm taking a break tonight or even tomorrow, so don't come bothering me." She said in a cold voice before she left without even saying goodbye to anyone.

I want to clap my hand at Csille right now. She sounds so cool just with the way she just said those words. 

However, instead of going home. Csille ends up in a lodging house far away from the Vrawyth residence. She rented the whole house.

Csille sighed and stared outside the window of the lodging house she had just rented. It's a good thing I didn't spend too much money, or else this real Csille will end up nowhere.

Csille sigh. She remembers all those hurtful words Prince Fraser threw on her face the last time she talked with him.

Prince Fraser scoff and shakes his head. "She doesn't mean to do that? Then what? Did she just tripped towards you, and she just coincidentally had a water jug with her?" He then stares at Csille. "I thought after the conversation I had with you, you'll start to contemplate with your behavior, but I guess I was wrong. You didn't learn anything at all."

Csilles smile sadly. Tears started to form in her eyes. She just let it fall and looked at the closed bottle of alcohol in her hands. 

She then laughs. "I never learn? Am I the only one who didn't learn anything? Fraser, if only you learn how to understand me, then I would won't do any of those things. But you never bother. Am I really nothing to you? That you would rather choose a knight instead of me? I am your fiancée, but why does it feels like I am not?"

Csille opens the bottle of the alcohol and drinks on it. Straight from the bottle.

If I can only stop her. She's a minor. How can she drink like that? I know she's heartbroken, and all but alcohol won't help. She needs to change her attitude if she wants Prince Fraser to understand her.

In just half an hour, the real Csille finished drinking the whole bottle while crying her heart out. She keeps sobbing and cursing. 

I don't know if it's because of the alcohol she drank, but I also end up feeling light headed, and when I woke up, the sun is already risen outside. 

I tried to stretch my hand, and my eyes immediately widened when I felt it moves on my will. 

"Eh? I can control my body again?"

I immediately sit up, but I suddenly feel dizzy. It's all the real Csille's fault. If she didn't drunk until she drop, I wouldn't experience a hangover. 

I groan and put my hand on my head. I have a massive headache. Great! What a great start to my day.

I get up and walk outside the room and walk down the kitchen. My mouth immediately waters when I notice that there's food prepared at the dining table. My stomach growled, and I immediately digs in. The housekeeper probably left this for me. 

After taking my fill, I immediately went back to my room and found a paper and a pen to write the things that had happened the days I couldn't control my body.

There's a lot of things I don't understand. First is when Princess Paislee avoided Csille's schemes. She is supposed to get injured, and because of it, Prince Fraser would be mad at Csille. But how come she avoided it? Is it because of my warning before? 

I sigh and cross out the first one. Maybe it was because of my warning. However, what about the time when Prince Fraser got injured in fencing? It's not what I have written, but it still happened. And the conversation that occurred between Prince Fraser and Csille that night. Why did it happen? It doesn't make sense at all.

I sigh and look at the paper. I have written all the things that happened that don't follow the storyline. I frowned when I realized there were a lot of things that happened that I hadn't written. If this continues, I'm afraid this world will end. 

"I need to do something now, or else it will be too late. But what can I do? I don't have the notebook with me. If I only have it, maybe I can do something to prevent these from happening."

I look outside the window and sigh. After this, Csille will be barely mentioned in the story. The story will be focusing now on the progress in the relationship between Prince Fraser and Princess Paislee. 

Maybe I should use this time to make the two leads fall in love with each other. Although my heart is saying no to the idea but I have no other choice. If I want to return to the real world, I need to ensure that Prince Fraser and Princess Paislee end up together.

I sigh and slump my head on the table. I need to help them fall for each other. But how am I supposed to do that? Prince Fraser is mad at me right now. How can I matchmake them if I can't even get close to Prince Fraser? 

I groan in frustration. Why am I the only one who is facing all the problems here? I'm the Villainess and not the female lead!