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I stood on tiptoe and hugged him. I felt weightless in the darkness, and I could only lean on him.

His kiss landed on my neck, soft and loving, quite different from the way he had looked.

"You don't want your fiancée?" I couldn't help but ask him.

He didn't answer my question, but only bit my shoulder. I should at least be glad that I didn't have a husband right now, so I couldn't see the imprint that Zhou Jin had left on my body.

He picked me up and threw me on the bed. I lay there, feeling the soft quilt under me.

He ran his fingers across my stomach and pressed down on me before I could react.

"What are you thinking?" I asked again, I had a lot of questions in my mind, and although I didn't want to ask, just like that, I didn't want to. At this moment, I finally understood the fear that Zhou Jin had felt when I was with him before I was divorced.

He didn't say anything, and I heard his heavy breathing, and then it was inside me, and I gave a little grunt as I clutched at the sheet with sudden pain.

He heard my voice and seemed to freeze, but then he started to move.

I couldn't see anything, couldn't see the look on his face. He was silent, and I couldn't hear the emotion in his voice.

I couldn't help but want to untie my tie from my eyes, but he stopped me, and his slightly cold hand covered my face.

"Why don't you let me see you?" I put my hand on his, hoping it would warm him.

Zhou Jin didn't say anything. He just hugged me tightly, as if he wanted to melt me into his bones.

I held him, too, knowing that he wasn't trying to torture me, that he still needed me.

I stroked his hair and said softly, "Did anyone make you do that? Do you have any difficulties? "

He didn't speak. My fingers brushed his cheek, and I felt his tears.

I leaned over and kissed his tears, and he held me.

He was the one who was tormenting me, physically and mentally. But why did the person who was suffering in the end seem to be him?

After an unknown period of time, Zhou Jin crawled up from the bed.

My eyes were tied with a tie, and I could only listen carefully to his voice.

When I heard him close the door, I got up from the bed, took off my tie, and took the emergency pill out of my bag.

He didn't do anything about it, and I was worried about getting pregnant. I had been taking short-acting contraceptives before, and I hadn't bought them since the last one I'd prepared.

It's not that I don't want to give birth to Zhou Jin, but now is not the time. Although I like him, I'm not sure about his intentions.

I was very careful about having a baby, and because of my physical condition, it was more likely that I would have a child in exchange for a life.

Sorry, although I like Zhou Jin, but I don't like his to the point of abandoning my life for him, unless it's like before, where the two of us will die together.

I threw the emergency pill kit into the trash, straightened my clothes, and left the room.

I'm ashamed of myself for being so self-conscious now.

Outside, the sky was gradually brightening as breakfast booths were already ready. I bought some millet congee and shredded radish cake before sitting in front of them and leaving after eating. The seafood on the booths were so delicious that I couldn't help but take a few more bites.

"You like it?" the woman who was kneading dough asked me with a smile, and then she took another big chopstick from my plate.

I nodded. "Delicious."

"My husband did it." The female vendor pointed at the man who was blowing up the fried dough sticks and pancakes. The man raised his sweaty face and gave me a simple and honest smile.

"You're here so early?" I asked after a sip of porridge. It was only four-thirty.

"In order to earn more money, the child is going to take the college entrance exam this year, so the amount of money spent on university is not small." She smiled and continued, "My daughter is sensible and never wants expensive things. She wears old clothes every day and doesn't buy any clothes for many years, just picking up clothes that others don't want. When she goes to college next year, she can't be wronged anymore, otherwise others would look down on her." There was a hint of sadness in her voice.

She was not beautiful, and her face was yellow and dark. She wiped the sweat from her forehead with her hand and went on to greet the guests.

Looking at her busy appearance, I suddenly felt a little sad, tears almost fell into the bowl.

I got up and left, put the money on the table, and tried hard for myself.

I went home and soaked in the bathtub. I sat in the warm water and covered my face with my hands and thought about the breakfast stand.

I felt sorry for them. I knew I didn't have the right to feel sorry for them, but pity was more like fear, and I was afraid of what I would become.

I've been used to watching from a distance since I was a kid.

I got up from the water, wiped myself clean, and lay down on the bed.

In this darkness, I thought of Zhou Jin, his gentle kiss, and gradually I fell asleep.

I don't know how long it was before I was awakened by a cell phone ringing. I picked up the phone and saw an unfamiliar number on it.

"Hello?" I picked up the phone.

"Hello, there's a delivery for you."

"Express delivery?" I walked to the door, a little surprised, and saw a courier standing in the doorway, wearing a uniform and carrying a small suitcase.

I read all sorts of fake courier news, so I said, "Put the box in the door, thank you."

The courier glanced at the peephole and left the box by the door.

I waited a moment to make sure the courier was gone before I opened the door and carried the small box into the room. The name on the box was Zhou Jin.

"Zhou Jin?" I wondered what he would send me, and why he would not come by himself, if he was so close, and why I should see him.

I wanted to cling to him day in and day out.

I collected my emotions, tore the delivery slip off, and opened it with a paper knife.

When I got a clear look at the contents of the box, I couldn't help but laugh. I also understood why Zhou Jin didn't give it to me.

Because it's full of short-acting contraceptives and condoms.

He probably didn't come because he was shy. I naturally thought that I had completely forgotten how rude he was to me.

He loves me. I told myself that if he didn't love me why he came to see me when I was sick, why he cared about me.

Perhaps … He just didn't have any way to get past the hesitation in his heart.

I put his mail on the table and couldn't help laughing as I looked at it.

After another failure, I decided to bring my tools to find the Master Chen. I have only learned for three years as a novice, so naturally, I cannot be compared to the people who have been in this field for decades.

I need to finish my work in two months. I can't finish it myself.

"Hello, is Master Chen home?" I knocked on Master Chen's door.

The door was immediately opened. Master Chen's wife smiled and said, "At home."

"That's good." I nodded and followed Master Chen's wife in.

When I went in, I saw Master Chen sitting on the table with his glasses on, reading a newspaper. On the table was a transparent cup with red dates, medlar and the like.

"Old Chen, Xia Ying is here." Master Chen's wife called out.

Master Chen looked up at us and suddenly revealed an embarrassed expression.

"Xia Ying has something to talk to you about, I'll go get some sour plum soup." Master Chen's wife left after saying that.

"Master Chen, have you been well?" I went across to him and asked, putting down my bag.

Master Chen was a little embarrassed. He slightly lowered his head and revealed an embarrassed expression.

I didn't think he was going to say it, or even press him to make it difficult for both of us.

But Master Chen hesitated for a while before opening his mouth and saying, "After their family dug us up, we saw that there were already a lot of people there. They did not give us any important work, and despised us for being old, and despised us for not doing well, and wanted us to do odd jobs."

When I heard Master Chen's words, I thought to myself, Yan Siqi had her back against her father. Her father doted on her so much, that he might even dig out some famous craftsmen.

"Master Chen, why don't you come back?" I said, "Yan Siqi probably can't care about you anymore, since Ye He didn't enter the finals, I don't think she can do anything to Yan Siqi, and probably won't be able to harm you guys."

When Master Chen heard my words, he seemed to be a little moved, but after thinking for a bit, he said, "Wait a moment."

I nodded and stopped pressing him.

I took out the blueprints and tools from my bag and spread them out on the table, saying, "I'm going to make a fan. The overall frame is made of platinum, rectangular, with a border that looks like two intertwined flower branches. It needs to be inlaid with gems, and the handle is made up of two intertwined flower branches. The surface of the fan is hollow, and inside the fan is a complete platinum flower inlaid with diamonds. In the bottom left corner of the fan, I will decorate it with a seabird, which can be taken down and used as a brooch.

My entire design is complicated and troublesome. As I explained, I saw that Master Chen's brows were knitted tighter and tighter. After he finished listening to what I said, he sighed and said, "This is very complicated. It's very difficult."

"I know." I rubbed my fingers over the seabirds on the design. It took me three days and three nights to get the seabirds and the fan together.

"You should switch to another one. The time is too short, and the failure rate is too high as well." Master Chen picked up the magnifying glass and studied it for a long time before speaking.

"I know." I looked at Master Chen and said resolutely, "But since I want to compete, I'll take out the best."

Master Chen looked at me and finally nodded his head. He started to study the design and asked, "Why do you need to decorate with seabirds? Isn't it better to use butterflies? The other ornaments on your fan are all flowers. "

I looked at the seabird and smiled. "That has a special meaning. I want him to see it."

The Master Chen and I sat opposite each other at the workbench. We had been working all day and the sky outside had turned from day to night.

"I can't take it anymore." Master Chen took off his glasses and rubbed his eyes, "We can't finish it all. We have to inlay more than 2000 diamonds. This is an impossible task."

It was too difficult. I thought.

"I'll contact the person from the original store." The Master Chen said as he picked up his phone, planning to call them.

I thought for a moment and said, "Master Chen, let me do it. I told them on the phone that I was looking for them, not you, so that they wouldn't know it was for me when they come."

Master Chen looked at me and sighed. "Okay."

I walked out of the studio with a big bag on my back. Master Chen patted my shoulder but didn't say anything.

When I got home, I dropped my bag on the floor and started to call the craftsmen at the old shop. Even if I didn't want to find them, I couldn't find a more suitable person for a while.

"Hello Master Ye, I am Xia Ying." I tried to speak politely to them. "I have a job here. Are you free?"

"Aiya, I want to go as well." "But I just entered the hospital a few days ago, my health is not good, so I can't do anything for now."

"Thank you." I calmly hung up the phone.

After that I made a few more calls, but they didn't say they were busy, they just said they were busy.

I sat on the sofa, surrounded by despair.

He might as well change it to a simple one. I lowered my head to look at my design. After thinking for a long time, I still couldn't bear to part with it. There were still two months left, and I would not give up until the last day.

Suddenly, my phone rang, and I saw that the person on the phone's screen was Master Chen.

I curiously picked up the call, "Master Chen, what's wrong?"

"Xia Ying, have you offended someone?" Her tone sounded a little anxious, as if she was really worried that I had provoked someone.

"What's wrong?" I asked the Master Chen.

"After you left, a man came to our house. He was pretty good-looking and had a smile on his face the whole time. It's just that he looked a bit creepy." The Master Chen said with lingering fear, "He asked me what you were doing here."

"I know." I nodded.

Master Chen gave a few more instructions before hanging up the phone.

A good-looking man who was always smiling went to Master Chen and asked about my situation.

I already had a bold guess.

"It's Zhou Jin, right?" I couldn't help but blurt out, and the thought excited me.

I took a cigarette from the pack on the table and went out on the balcony to smoke. The smoke blew away in the wind.

At that moment, the door suddenly knocks. I put out my cigarette and walk to the door. "Who is it?"

But there was no response from outside the door.

I looked through the peephole. There was no one outside, and the corridor was empty.

I waited another hour, made sure there was no one outside the door, and opened it to look.

At the door, I found a small cardboard box with a note pasted on it. There were only two words on it — Zhou Jin.

I looked again in the corridor, but there was no one there.

I expected Zhou Jin to be at the door. Then, when I was out of sight, he hugged me tightly and kissed me heavily on the lips.

But as it turned out, I was overthinking it.

With a light sigh, I carried the box into my room and sat on the floor to start unpacking it.

What could be in the box? I thought as I tore it apart.