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And the surprise is that the things inside are the office that Zheng junnan was used to.

Su Jingya was stunned at the door and thought for a long time.

Finally, she walked in slowly.

Walk slowly around the office.

From bookshelves to desks to reception rooms.

According to Zheng junnan's habits, some management and history books are displayed on the bookshelf, and the photos of her and Zheng junnan are also displayed on the desk, while the construction of the living room is still clean and simple.

I don't know why. At that moment, seeing the office that didn't seem to move for a while, Su Jingya felt very sad and uncomfortable.

She squatted slowly in the middle of the office, crying out.

Things are still the same, but people But it's gone.

How she hoped, just had a very long and terrible nightmare.

When she wakes up, Zheng junnan will accompany her, call her Xiaoya in a warm voice, smile kindly to her, buy delicious food for her, take care of her wardrobe in person, and tell her that girls should be dressed as beautiful as princesses.

But more than that: she's tired, hurt, frustrated, and has a safe haven for her to stop.

All of a sudden, she was really thinking, sitting on the floor again and sleeping on Zheng junnan's legs.

He would touch her back with his hand gently all the time. He would not talk or quarrel with her. He would just tell her with a subtle action that there were still people around her.

Su Jingya covers her face and chokes with pain.

With tears in her eyes, she saw the chair pulled open in front of Zheng junnan's desk.

I don't know if it's eyesight or hallucination. She clearly saw Zheng junnan sitting there smiling at her.

Su Jingya is stunned, and then she climbs quickly, like an abandoned kitten and dog. Finally, she waits for the owner to come back and claim her. Then she obediently lies beside the owner for comfort.

Su Jingya pastes her white face on the dusty chair, as if sleeping on Zheng junnan * and closes her eyes contentedly.

She whispered, "Dad, Xiaoya, I know it's wrong. Later Listen to you, will you? "

"Dad, you talk to me..."

"Dad, hold me again..."

"Dad, I want the beef noodles you cooked for me..."

Before going to grave for Zheng junnan, Su Jingya went back to her apartment, calmly washed her head and bath, and then slowly and meticulously put on a make-up and a beautiful hairstyle.

She opened the closet. It was full of beautiful and expensive dresses that Zheng junnan bought for her. They were all kinds of dazzling.

It's just that I was locked in the cupboard for a long time, but the room was not occupied for a long time, and the clothes inside gave off a light pungent and moldy taste.

Su Jingya doesn't dislike it. She carefully selects a light blue dress and puts it on slowly.

On the way to the cemetery, she went to the florist and bought two flowers: a bunch of red roses and a bunch of lilies.

Two years did not go to see Zheng junnan and AI Meng. For a while, Su Jingya was nervous, but more of it was: self accusation.

On the Qingming Festival every year, there are people coming to the grave, but Zheng junnan and AI Meng are lying there alone. No one goes to see them. How lonely and miserable they are.

They I must be very cold.

Su Jingya struggled for a long time 200 meters away from the tombstone. At last, she appeared with a beautiful skirt, flowers and a basket of Zheng junnan's and AI Meng's favorite snacks.

But two years later, Su Jingya was surprised to find that the graves of Zheng junnan and AI Meng were overgrown with weeds, which was very embarrassing.

At that moment, Su Jingya stabbed her in the heart and blamed herself so hard that she hated to die.

Before she died, as a daughter, she did not respect them well; after she died, she was more unfilial, even the grave was not swept.

Su Jingya tries her best to control her sad mood and slowly moves forward. Finally, she kneels down in front of the graves of Zheng junnan and AI Meng.

Put out delicious snacks and flowers at the same time.

She whispered to them, "Dad, this is your favorite mung bean cake and pineapple cake. Mom, I heard from dad that you like blueberry cake best. I'll make it for you next time. It's too late today."

After a long distribution of snacks, Su Jingya put up with her patience, and suddenly smiled playfully. She said to Zheng junnan, "Dad, there must be no roses in the kingdom of heaven. Mom must hate you so much that she can't send her roses. Today I've brought you a bunch. You give it to my mother. She will be very happy. "

Instead, she said to aimen, "Mom, this is Lily. My daughter sent it to you. I hope you and dad are in heaven It's a good time to live together for a hundred years and never separate. "

Su Jingya put lily on the tombstone and knelt there. For a while, she didn't know what to say, but her brain was blank and she looked at two cold tombstones and endured and tasted the bitterness of her heart.

Do not cry, do not shed tears, but Through the dim street light, she saw the picture pasted on Zheng junnan's tombstone. She smiled amiably and tenderly, just like he usually smiled at her.It's just that after two years of ups and downs, the photos have gone up and become white.

Su Jingya reached out and rubbed with her fingers, saying: "big cat. Can't mom laugh at you when she sees you like this? "

Then he said: "Dad, I'm sorry, my daughter is unfilial. I haven't come to see you for two years. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

The photo can't be wiped clean. Su Jingya simply pulls her skirt and carefully wipes it.

It took a long time to clean the picture.

Seeing the new photos, Su Jingya shows a simple and satisfied smile.

Autumn night, gradually cool.

Su Jingya is sweating.

She helped Zheng junnan and AI Meng repair the tomb with bare hands.

The withered and yellow but sharp weeds cut her hands and arms, but she ignored them, still grabbed the weeds and pulled them out. First rough pull once, and then, began to pull small carefully.

Zheng junnan used to be a person with a head and a face, but the graveyard was in such a mess.

I don't know what he and his mother look like when they are laughed at or rejected by others.

So Su Jingya is very clean.

After finishing, it was late at night.

Su Jingya's hands were cut in blood and flesh by weeds, some of which were ugly.

However, she felt no pain at all.

The night is very long.

Su Jingya didn't know what to do. She just sat there, leaning on Zheng junnan's tombstone, as if she were resting on his * until dawn.

At first, she didn't say a word. At last, she murmured to herself, "Dad, is every daughter the same?"?! Since childhood, I have been rebellious and disobeyed my parents. I always feel that what my parents say and do is wrong and I want to harm myself. What I believe in is absolutely right. "