Chapter 92 - Finally, The Truth

Ajie got startled when he realized someone was sleeping in his arm. He could not see the face since the quilt was pulled over the head. He quickly tugged down the cover and his heartbeat thumped faster.He raised his head and looked into her face which was buried into his chest. In that very moment, his heartbeat stopped and the world seemed to stop rotating on its axis.

He saw the angelic face and her slender arms hugging tightly into his waist and chest. He looked around and his attention was caught by the neatly folded trench coat and two smaller pieces of clothes in the bedside table which he clearly remembered being worn by her. Dear heavens, it was really her, the sleepmate he had longed so much to be with again!

He got so overjoyed that he pulled her closer to himself for a long while. He felt tickled in his joy and he wanted to laugh out loudly and twirl her around. He lifted her arm out from his waist but the more she snuggled closer to him, as if afraid to be parted away. In his excitement, he pushed her away from him with force then he quickly rolled over to kiss her hungrily. She struggled to free herself when she got out of breath and he reluctantly released her. The moment he drew few inches away from her face and looked into her eyes, her beautiful smile which held a power to ease out his pain and grief , met his own. He just felt her heart leapt out from his chest!

"Adrian! " Tears flowed instantly in the corners of her eyes as she encircled her arms around his neck, returning his kiss as intensely as he did.

While he allowed her to kiss him hardly, his thoughts went back to the time when Zheena requested to accept her in her social media account. How she easily gained his trust and became his chatmate. How fondly she talked about his daughter and never about flirting with him.

He also recalled his confession about his plan for marriage annulment and his plan to remarry with Jane. His heart then broke to realize how much those facts must had hurt her. That's perhaps why she hyperventilated when she heard the conversation he had with Cherry. That's perhaps why she wailed bitterly when he repeated the same confession to her. And that's why she covered herself because she must have misinterpreted his sweet words yesterday with her friend.

Her body frame , when he first saw her behind her desk, was already familiar. He was even almost tempted to pull her hijab and her face veil away to confirm his speculation. When he held her in his arms in that moment when he took her out of her office, he was drawn to her familiar scent. The way she clung to his chest and neck when he lifted her towards her room and the way she snuggled into his embrace, brought back those memories Allie had held him in the past. If not for her new name, he wouldn't have been able to hold back his curiousity. Everything about her, especially the warmth of her gaze, spoke about his wife.

His regrets and guilt for hurting her was pressing on him hardly and he didn't realized that his tears were already streaming down his face. Allie licked it away and hugged him again tightly.

"I miss you so much, Adrian. " He heard her murmur into his ears and the more he felt his heart was pricked. He knew very well, that if she was given the choice, she wouldn't have left their child. He witnessed her sorrows when Chloe was in those critical moments and she was even stubborn when he suggested to feed her with milk formula. His intention was only to lessen her stress in coping up with her other activities and at the same time, her breastfeeding schedules which she had to catch up in time.

He could only imagine how her heart had been shattered the moment she left her. How her heart had been crushed when he told her about Chloe's deficiency and her need of a mother image.

With an equally heavy heart, he kissed her gently again hoping that in this way, he could kiss her pain away and she could feel how sorry he was.

" Allie, I miss you so much more. "

He whispered as saying it loudly would break away the barrier of the barrels of tears he was trying so hard to hold back.

"Kiss me, Adrian, and take me now before you celebrate your freedom. I want to have my best memories of you before you will marry Jane."

"Allie... " He wanted to protest but she sealed his lips savagely and in desperation as she rolled his back imto the bed.

Without leaving his lips, he pulled over his shirt, only stopping when she had to pull it out from his head. With tears choking down his throat because of the pain of what she said, he allowed her freely in roaming her mouth and lips all over his body. However, he did not feel that in what she did, there was sexual passion but instead, there was despair and goodbye.

When he couldn't take it anymore, he pushed her down on the bed and he cried hard. "I promised to love only you, Allie, and I swore to remain true to it. However, you also know that this decision was reached because our daughter needs a mother. " He spoke in between his sobs.

"Please wait for me. I will come back as soon as my way is clear. Believe me, I'm working it out. "He heard her beg and the more his heart was squeezed in pity.

When he was not able to reply right away because of sobbing, she hugged him again tightly. "I love you so much, Jie, and it is always you. "

He sobbed harder and he hugged her back. "I'm sorry for making you think I don't love you anymore. It's also always you, my dear. " He tried to assure her, hoping she would be comforted.

After a long while of just hugging each other, he broke their silence. "Can I take you again without thinking that you will lose me?"

His heart sank back when he saw her trusting smile and when she held both of his hands and pull it towards the tie of her robe. She held his nape with both of her hands, kissing him as he tugged out the ribbon tie which locked her night wrap. His hands then began to wander passionately on that very familiar routes which his mouth and hands had missed for more than five long years. He traced her inch by inch, familiarizing the contour of her naked self again. When he finally entered into her depths, she screamed in pain and pushed him away.

"Why? " He asked as he saw her wincing in pain.

"Have you forgotten? It's almost six years already. "

He laughed softly when he understood and did it more gently this time. He took her again and again the whole time until his shaking knees and thighs refused.