Chapter 78

Episode 78

The discomfort I felt grew more and more as time passed.

monster.

A monster has entered the mountains.

A monster ruined my trip to the north.

If you encounter a monster, run away...

This is what everyone we met told us during the two days we headed to the center of the mountain range.

Don’t go.

If you go, you will die.

Some of them only looked at our appearance and ignored us, but most of them were very afraid of the existence of ‘monsters’.

My discomfort grew as I saw the fear etched into my mind.

Who on earth is this monster that makes us so afraid?

The more I heard about monsters, the more impatient I seemed to become.

I was worried about what would happen if that being touched Reid.

They say that if people who come to the North are afraid, they are at least Sword Expert level or higher.

What could be the reason why such a talented person came to the North?

Of course, it’s to make money.

Otherwise, there would be no reason to come to this place where there is little food and the environment is harsh.

At least that’s what I thought.

‘There is no reason to come unless you have a purpose for something else like me.’

That’s true, but why do I feel so uncomfortable?

My chest felt tight, as if there was food in my stomach.

Beatrice asked me with concern, as if my thoughts were showing on my face.

“Lord Redmill, are you okay?”

“uh?”

“Because your face is dark.”

When I looked around at those words, the entire group, including her, was looking at me.

Their faces were reddened by the bonfire.

“Nothing.”

“If you have any concerns, please tell me. “Even if I can’t solve it, I can listen to it.”

“I’m ready to listen at any time.”

“Are you worried?”

“....”

I smiled at the sight of the group helping me one by one.

And then he opened his mouth towards them.

“I was just wondering who the monster was.”

“A monster?”

“uh. “The monster they talked about keeps getting caught...”

Beatrice closed her mouth at my words.

Mahol said from next to me, his eyes shining.

“Whoever that monster is, I will solve it if you ask me to.”

Mahol’s words were quite reassuring.

What I’m saying is that I will deal with anyone.

This is what I wanted from him.

But even amidst that reassurance, this uneasy feeling did not go away.

As soon as I kept my mouth shut, the atmosphere became heavier in an instant.

“I think the atmosphere has become too dark. “How about we talk about something other than this?”

Beatrice joined in on Raina’s words, which she brought up after deciding that the atmosphere was too dark.

“That’s a good idea. Miss Raina. Nothing has happened yet. “It’s not too late to worry about that.”

“that’s right.”

Ellis nodded as if that was correct.

“Even though we’ve been together for quite a while, I think there’s a lot we don’t know about each other. Since this has come to an end, why not say what you want to say? “It’s good to feel good about your past and to lament how you’ve lived so far and what hardships you’ve experienced.”

It was an unexpected suggestion.

“Beatrice and Raymond were there.”

“Uh... if it’s Raymond.”

“yes. “It is probably the man you were talking about.”

When she nodded, Mahol and Raina’s expressions became strange.

What happened at that time was kept completely secret, so only those who knew and those who did not know did not know.

“He sacrificed himself to protect his younger brothers. And... the results were disastrous.”

When Jerion said she had become a vegetable, she gritted her teeth.

“I don’t blame his actions. “Knowing his character, he will repeat the same behavior whenever the situation arises.”

“....”

“I know that saving people’s lives is a noble thing. But what if the person who survived the sacrifice became a fool? “What meaning does that sacrifice have?”

“...So you were resentful?”

At my words, she looked at me and lowered her head.

“I felt resentful.”

Does saying that I felt resentful mean that I don’t feel resentful now?

“At first, I tried to understand. Okay, I thought it was just a little difficult because of the shock. “I thought it would have been because it would have been difficult to think about it if I hadn’t said I would go into the hunting ground.”

“It wasn’t. A year passed and I started to resent the fact that things had gotten worse than before. Did he sacrifice himself to save that guy? “Why could he only do that?”

“I was full of such resentment. Then suddenly a thought occurred to me. His own younger brother was also there. “The moment I realized that it wasn’t Raymond’s fault alone, I felt ashamed of myself for blaming others.”

“It’s no one’s fault. The situation at that time was just not good. Raymond, who was fussing about wanting to go to the hunting ground, and I, who couldn’t stop him, knew that it wasn’t his fault for sacrificing himself, but I still resented him... I needed someone to blame. “I felt like I could endure it that way.”

“And Raymond was there. “I thought it was his fault because he lived like a fool despite his sacrifices.”

“How is it now?”

“Right now... I’m not sure. I met Raymond recently. But... a lot has changed. To the point where I doubt if this is the Raymond I know. Far from being incompetent, he was talented. It just took me a long time to figure it out. And it was a bit shocking to see the talent start to shine.”

“so.”

“I couldn’t blame him anymore. How can you be resentful? “He eventually changed himself and got away with it.”

“I guess you’re not like that?”

“yes. I still remember what happened back then. “If I close my eyes, I can picture him sacrificing himself to protect his younger brother.”

Before she knew it, she was immersed in it.

If others heard it, they couldn’t even tell the difference to the point where they would wonder if she was Beatrice.

“I was embarrassed at first because the person I wanted to blame was gone, and then I started to resent myself for still standing still.”

“....”

“I wanted to change. Because I can’t stay in that position forever. Because it has to change. So...”

“So that’s why you came to the North.”

“...yes. “I thought that if I deal with monsters and live in the North, I might be able to change myself.”

“Good job.”

“...?”

“Good job. It took time, but it was something that was meant to change in the end. Trying to change isn’t easy. It’s difficult. Still, it’s a good thing you’re trying to do something.”

“Ah...”

Clear tears flowed from her eyes.

“uh. “Why am I suddenly like this?”

She lifted her hand and rubbed her eyes.

I could see that he was embarrassed that he had suddenly started crying.

She couldn’t hide her tears for a while.

It was as if everything that had been building up had exploded all at once.

We watched her for a while.

After she calmed down somewhat, we went to bed.

The feeling of discomfort towards the monster has disappeared, but now an feeling of discomfort has arisen on the other side.

I couldn’t say that I liked it because I indirectly heard Beatrice’s personal thoughts.

Rather, I only had more worries about what to do with her.

The sight of her blaming herself was shocking in many ways.

I thought they were simply blaming Raymond, but that wasn’t the case.

‘It’s hard to live a real life.’

Dealing with people is also very difficult.

After a night where I couldn’t sleep properly, morning came.

“Oh shit.”

Another difficulty faced me.