Volume 7.5, Chapter 4: The Stormy Double Date Part 4
After finishing our meals, it was just before 5 o'clock when we were done gallivanting about Keyaki Mall. A double date that had lasted almost 5 hours was also nearing its end. Looking back in hindsight, it might have been a day that could be described as being unexpectedly interesting. It's just, including Karuizawa into it causes various problems so I'd like to decline next time.
"So what'll we do?".
I asked to check whether or not we'll disband. It could be that we might be going somewhere in addition, I included such a possibility in my field of vision but......
"Then should we......go back, Yousuke-kun?".
Karuizawa, who had been happily bullying me thoroughly up until just now, suddenly declared we go our separate ways. From here on out we'll only be a disturbance, suddenly she showed such a consideration.
It seems from this point onwards, to leave just the two of us alone with each other, there should be something she's aiming for. I could see Satou and Karuizawa sending signals to each other through eye contact. It's not hard to expand on that on my own with my imagination.
In any case, as if to agree with her, Hirata nods.
"It's getting late. Shall we go back, Karuizawa-san? Playing with you today was fun, Ayanokouji-kun. See you later too, Satou-san".
I spent the whole day today with Hirata, and indeed, his actions befit those of a saint or a sage. Hirata, who could interact well with all sorts of people. For someone unfamiliar with double dates, all the merits have come from none other than this man.
"Both of you, thanks for today".
It seems without taking any detours, Hirata and Karuizawa will be returning straight to the dorms. The two of them walk off quickly.
Satou saw them off warmly.
"So, what'll we do now?".
"Ummm, well. Shall we take a detour before going back?".
Satou proposed as such. Since I had no particular reason to decline, I gave my consent.
"That's right......then, shall we go back from there?".
Having decided to take a little detour, we settled to head back with a delay. Satou, who had been talking at a machine gun pace up until a while ago, had become rather quiet now.
"Sorry, for having it turn into a double date".
"I was surprised at first".
"Those two really are amazing, huh? Their aura as a couple is completely different".
At all times, Karuizawa is moving to make sure Hirata, who is playing the role of her boyfriend, stands out conspicuously. That was conveyed to Satou too, and naturally, it also makes Karuizawa's existence seem larger.
"I really admire them~".
"Certainly".
Even though we were walking at a close distance, our hands never touched. The boldness she had shown when we were with Karuizawa and Hirata, not a single fragment of it could be seen now. By no means was it awkward but the atmosphere had changed into something out of the ordinary.
"Thank you for inviting me out today. I had fun".
I said that to break the silence but Satou's face remained uneasy.
"Hey Ayanokouji-kun.......you didn't have fun today, did you?".
I heard such a thing.
"No such thing".
I denied it because I honestly enjoyed it, but for some reason it didn't seem to have been conveyed to Satou.
"But........".
"Why did you think something like that?".
Since I did not understand the reasoning, I tried asking.
"I mean, today Ayanokouji-kun didn't even laugh once........".
"I didn't laugh, huh?".
Before I could give her an explanation regarding that, Satou continued speaking.
"I thought I would be able to see a smile from you at least once, but".
It seems Satou, even when she was together with me, was worried about such a thing.
In regards to the contents of the double date, I truly have no complaints though. As I pondered over how to explain that to her, Satou opened her mouth heavily.
"After all, does the fact that I said let's bully Horikita-san a while ago......have something to do with this?".
She had anxious eyes. And a face that seemed like it was about to cry.
"Speaking of which, something like that did happen, huh?".
Soon after our enrollment, Horikita became isolated and she had a strong tendency to mock her classmates. That sort of thing was obvious and could not be helped, but Satou too, did not hold any goodwill towards Horikita and that is also a fact.
As a matter of fact, she had proposed once in our group chat to bully Horikita. I had knocked down that proposal but it seems the person in question herself has remembered that.
"I don't care about that. Or more like, up until now, I had almost forgotten that happened".
"......really?".
"In the first place, it couldn't be helped even if Horikita were to be alienated at that point. And besides, just by having that as the topic of discussion on a chat where the person in question isn't even there, it's not like you took any actual actions. I won't judge someone based on something stupid like that".
Gossip is something every human voices universally. As long as one doesn't voice that in front of the person in question or take action in actuality, it won't become a significant problem. However, 'even if one gets gossiped about in return you can't complain about that', as long as you understand that aspect that is.
"Really?".
"Yeah, really".
"But, you didn't have fun did you? You didn't laugh".
"The reason I didn't laugh was........how should I put it, I'm bad at laughing is why".
I followed up on that part I denied earlier. How much of this is conveyed to Satou, I honestly don't know. In all likelihood, she probably interpreted it as me saying this to console her. Truthfully, there are many ways to follow up on this. In regards to Karuizawa's questions during the day too, I'm confident I could have answered in a better way. However, I intentionally chose not to do so.
"She's not a partner I need to go that far for".
It was because I had made that judgement.
In that sense, the 'Did you not find it fun?' question from Satou would not necessarily be wrong either. I did find it fun as far as playing around goes, but it is certain that it was not the way Satou had been hoping for. It'll only be troublesome even if she likes me any further than this, I made such a decision.
"The reason I wasn't laughing, are you not convinced?".
"No........that's not the case but".
A heavy silence fell upon us. Today, the whole day, not to overestimate myself but from Satou, I had received a considerably amount of goodwill. However, if at all possible, I'd like her to give up on that goodwill here.
That was why I acted like a man who could not keep a conversation going, and continued to act out a subtle behaviour. However, turning her back on me once, Satou brought something out of her bag and hid that something behind her.
"Umm, hey----".
And then she turns back to me. Looking as though she had firmed her resolve, Satou caught me with her strong gaze.
It seems like my wish won't be granted after all.
"Umm.....hey......p-please go out with me! Ayanokouji-kun!!!".
Fuu~, a gust of wind blew.
The first ever genuine confession I had received in my life.
In the meantime, I'm going to ignore the person hiding in the bushes beyond my gaze.
Idly considering this at length here would only cause Satou to suffer. I immediately choose my words and deliver my judgement.
"I'm sorry, Satou. I cannot answer your expectations".
"!!!".
Towards Satou who had plucked up her courage and confessed, I answered with honesty like that. No, it's not like I hated Satou. It's not like I had any problems with her personality or looks either.
"I-I see. As I thought, it's impossible, huh?".
Showing me an expression that I'm not quite sure is a bitter smile, Satou desperately tried to keep up appearances so as to not let her smile crumble. Throughout the date, Satou should have slightly felt it too.
The fact that I appeared to not hold any sort of strong interest towards Satou.
"I-If you wouldn't mind, for future reference......could you please tell me your reason, I wonder? Is it because you have someone else you like?".
"That's not the case. It's just, at this stage I can't go out with you. It's genuinely a problem with my own feelings".
In a situation where one is not in love with their partner, to choose to go out with them nevertheless would be insulting.
That is my reason on the front.
It is a respectable reason I should be confronting Satou with.
"It doesn't matter if it's Satou, or the one who unrelatedly came up in the conversation before, Horikita, or whether it's Kushida, the answer to all of them is the same. Even though I don't like you, going out with you regardless is something I cannot do".
Of course, even if it's Airi, who is probably thinking that internally as well, I would have given the same answer. It's only a matter of whether or not she decides to directly confront me with her feelings.
"It may be a pathetic story but I've never even once seriously fallen in love with a member of the opposite sex yet. That is why, it's not a matter of dumping you or anything, it just means I haven't matured enough to be capable of romance yet".
"......I see".
I cannot do anything else but have her accept that fact.
"I may have rushed it too much. That's right, with just one date, you still won't know anything about your partner".
Even as she furrowed, as though attempting to convince herself Satou nodded over and over.
The confession, and the reply to it too, both of them must have required a tremendous amount of courage.
"I may have missed an opportunity".
I have just rejected the girl who eagerly told me of her feelings. Even I think this was a stupid choice. I want to find myself a girlfriend and live an average school life. I properly have those feelings in me.
If Satou would be my partner, there should be no complaints. Even now, telling her I've changed my mind please go out with me is still the correct judgement. But even so, my mouth has been sealed shut and would no longer open. The phone in my pocket vibrates. I don't know who it is, but it was an incoming call. Of course, I cannot answer it in this situation and so I ignored it.
During that time, Satou had been trying to return the wrapped box she held in her hands back into her bag.
Then, Satou raised her head and said this.
"Thank you for today, Ayanokouji-kun".
It was an expression that already knew that my reply and its contents would not change.
Even if in this moment, Satou tells me she likes me, there's no guarantee that this would still be the case tomorrow.
From now on, I don't know whether or not she'll continue to like me or whether she will find a new love for herself. However the fact that Satou was the one who confessed to me for the first time in my life, is something I will never forget for the rest of my life.
"Is it.......ok if I invite you out to play again?".
Probably these are the farewell words that Satou gave it her best to squeeze out of her.
"Of course, I also do enjoy playing together with Satou, I also think I'd like to invite you out sometime too".
That is, beyond the shadow of a doubt, my real feelings.
"Ok".
A small nod came back in response.
I don't know to what extent I've conveyed this to Satou but the time of confession has now passed. Even though the heavy atmosphere had remained behind, our daily lives rapidly returned to us.
The cold winter wind blows, and pierces through our freezing bodies.
"It's getting cold. Shall we go back?".
Regardless of whether we wish for this or not, time is passing us by. We cannot afford to stand around here forever, just the two of us.
As I started to move, Satou remained in her spot without moving.
"Satou?".
As I thought that was strange and looked back, in Satou's eyes, large teardrops had been building up.
Before they could fall, she used her hands to wipe them away, and Satou laughed once.
"Sorry. I think I'll run back!".
Saying that, Satou stamped her feet on the snow, and leaving me behind, ran back towards the dorms. I could not call out to that back, all I could do was quietly see her off.
"I don't even need to think about it, huh".
There's no need for her to worry about being rejected by a person like me, looking at it from her perspective, it was something that occurred after she had plucked forth all of her courage.
As long as that feeling is not properly conveyed, she cannot naturally walk beside me and go back, huh? So that we don't run into each other later at the dorm, I saw her off until I could no longer see her back.
If the matter with the student council and the matter with my father did not exist, perhaps my answer might have been different. For a genuine 1st year schoolboy, I would have probably taken the hand of the girl who had given me her affections.
'If', was the premise of this thought. If this confession had taken place before the relay at the sports festival, I felt I would have accepted Satou. However, ironically, it was at that very relay that Satou had fallen for me. I objectively understand that my thought process is different from what's normal. I always act while prioritizing the prevention of calamities for myself.
"Now........".
Before I go back, I should probably clean up the remaining problem.
Thinking that, just as I was about to call out towards the bushes. Beneath me, my phone once again rang. On the screen of the phone were the characters 'Unidentified Caller'.
I did think for a moment about ignoring it but I don't feel like this is simply a prank call.
I pushed the 'Call' button and pressed it to my ears. Even though I had wanted to at least determine the way the caller whose gender I don't even know would answer, even though I waited for a few seconds, the silence continued.
"Hello".
I tried calling out from my side once.
However, no reply came.
That is why I immediately decided to make my decision.
"I'm cutting the call".
"Can I trust you?".
Those were the words that came back from the broken silence.
They were words that didn't make any sense.
"This is rather sudden. I don't quite understand what exactly is this trust you're asking of me".
I returned the question while seeking an explanation.
"The anti-Nagumo campaign that Horikita-senpai speaks of. I was asking if you would become a cooperator".
It seems the older Horikita has told 'that' 2nd year student about me. To go out of their way to call me with an unidentified number, how cautious.
But the fact that they called me, probably means they intend on meeting me afterwards.
Even if they hide their phone number, they're letting me hear their voice. If not, it would be very strange.
"Just in case I want to ask. What's your name?".
Even though the older Horikita had told them my number, it seems he didn't tell them my identity.
Well, they did let me hear their voice and they know my number too anyways. If they were to investigate it further, it wouldn't be too difficult for them to trace it back to me.
"I don't think I'm obliged to answer".
Even though they understood too, I declined.
"I suppose that's fine. I remember that voice. I more or less have a rough idea now".
So they have an idea, huh. Since it's like that, I too feel like I generally have a mark on them. There are not many 2nd years who are also familiar with my voice.
"This may be a sudden thing to say but I want to meet you right now".
As expected, they cut in with that.
However, there's no need for me to tell them I had already expected that I suppose.
"That is also indeed a sudden thing. Is it fine for you to not be more cautious?".
It's almost dusk, soon the sun will set.
"There's no problem on my end. If you have the desire to, that is. Can you meet up immediately?".
I glanced at the bushes.
"Yeah. You're in luck too".
"Luck, you say?".
"Honestly if it's not right now I was about to refuse".
On the other side of the phone, the other person is probably feeling a sense of mystery. If it's right now it's fine, they're probably contemplating the meaning of the words I had just said.
Such things, even if they contemplate there's no way they'd reach an understanding. I told them via my mouth of my current location.
"Beside the school building near it, in a place where it's hard for others to see us, I want to meet you there in 10 minutes".
Such a short reply came back.
"Sorry but I have some business to take care of right now. Is 20 minutes fine?".
"......fine".
The call ended. It won't take longer than 5 minutes to reach the designated meeting spot but I had postponed it.
For now, in the 15 minutes I have in between I should finish the business I still have left.
Underneath the winter sky, there's someone waiting for me while freezing away.
"If you keep on hiding there, you'll catch a cold".
I called out to the person hiding behind the trees and the bushes.
However, no reply was forthcoming.
"I have something to do afterwards. Is it ok if I leave you behind?".
I called out again.
When I did, perhaps she had a half-hearted idea, but without showing herself, only her voice reached me.
".......since when did you notice?".
"From the very beginning, you heard Satou was going to confess here right, Karuizawa?".
"N-not really, just a bit".
Even as she tried to deceive me subtly, Karuizawa stood up.
Since she had been hiding in the bushes, some snow had accumulated on her shoulder.
"It's cold".
"What happened to Hirata?".
"I don't know. He probably went back?".
After answering disinterestedly like that, she came out of the dirt and brushed off the dirt and snow on her body. Perhaps it's because she had been lurking the entire time so as to not make a sound, her nose was also red.
"It was cold, wasn't it?".
"Just a bit".
Karuizawa acts tough in a situation where there was no need to act tough. For Karuizawa, there seems to be something she's more worried about than her own freezing self.
"Speaking of which, why did you turn down Satou-san's confession?".
"What do you mean? You said so yourself, going out with someone you don't even like is the lowest".
"That's true but........one needs to eat the meal set before them is what they say right?".
What is that? Even though she's attempting to use knowledge she'd heard before, she's got it all wrong.
"It's 'rejecting the advances of a woman is a man's shame', isn't it?".
A meal set before one, is used to describe a meal that is ready to be eaten at a moment's notice. And not grasping that for oneself is a man's shame, so that's it's used to describe love affairs.
Of course in Karuizawa's case, she's not saying this with a sexual meaning, she probably means it's strange for me to not go out when the opportunity to do so presented itself.
"For better or for worse, Satou is a normal girl. She would naturally want a normal romance. But, looking at it objectively, do you really think I'm capable of such a normal romance?".
"That is......slightly difficult to imagine".
It is only because it is Karuizawa, who understands me better than anyone else, that she is able to understand this too.
I, too, long for a normal romance. Being confessed to by a cute girl and leading a bittersweet school life was something I had thought about more than once or twice. However, as expected, it really won't end up being the same romantic pattern that Satou had envisioned. Even if I forced myself into going out with her here, I would only be wasting her time in vain. If she becomes disillusioned with me later, the school life that's been lost won't ever come back.
"Hey, you~. It's not really my place to say but you might have been a bit too mean".
"Mean?".
"Indeed, Kiyotaka's different from the normal boys. And besides, the 'you' that others see normally is just a lie, right?".
"Lie, or rather, it is a fact that I'm not showing them everything".
"That's why you're correct in thinking when you show them your true self, there are girls who would be disillusioned with you. But you know, once you've fallen in love, there are also times when you no longer care about such things. It's just my onesided prediction, but, I think Satou-san would have accepted Kiyotaka".
"So that's what you mean?".
"That is what I mean. Well, since you've rejected her already, it's all over though. Even though I had just released the Arrow of Cupid. To think it's going to coming back shortly".
"The Arrow of Cupid?".
"Don't mind it. It's no longer relevant anymore".
She grinned and laughed like a little devil.
"Girls get over their feelings quickly so Satou-san will probably fall in love with another boy, right?".
"That is something that can't be helped. Isn't that right?".
"Some~how I can also hear some regret too though".
"Please leave it be. That's my choice".
I did say that, but, there seemed to have been some unconvincing aspects of it left behind in Karuizawa.
"It's too late already but couldn't you have tried going out with her as a test? No?".
That point is correct.
Even if there happened to be a problem at the very end landing point, there was more than enough possibility that things could have gone well. Even if I myself right now don't like Satou as a member of the opposite sex, if I considered her precious to me, I might have come around to liking her.
"Besides, if it's you, you must have realized Satou-san's feelings, right? Inviting you out on a date on Christmas, this is something normal friends would absolutely never do. Giving her your OK for that, didn't you have it in your head that you'd go out with her?".
"As a result of having had the date, I realized I'm not compatible with Satou, can't you interpret it that way?".
"That........might be the case. But from what I could see today, things went well. You seemed to be enjoying yourself too".
"If I have to be honest with you, it's not like I didn't think about going out with Satou at all".
"S-See? As I thought".
"By going out with Satou, I might have been able to experience various things".
Perhaps she felt uncomfortable with those words of mine, but she showed me a slightly angry expression.
"What do you mean, various?".
"It's the destination that lovers would end up arriving at. That's what it means".
I tried to tell her as mildly as I could. Naturally, Karuizawa also understands the meaning of it.
"Huh!? You, you were intending on going out with her for such a scummy reason!?".
"Haven't you ever thought about wanting to do it?".
"I-I don't know! It's also a completely unknown world for me too!".
"Then, haven't you ever thought about jumping out into that unknown world?".
"That is------that is, I mean, ultimately doesn't it depend on your companion?".
".......well, I don't imagine just anyone would do".
I tried imagining it but of course, one would want a companion that's as good as possible.
"Right!?".
"But I had no complaints in particular if it was Satou".
"Muu.....t-then why did you reject Satou-san's confession? You could have experienced that unknown world you spoke of!".
"Don't torture me so angrily".
"I'm not angry!".
If you ask 100 people, 100 people would answer that right now, Karuizawa is angry.
Of course, I don't even have to think about why she's angry.
"If I had chosen to go out with Satou.......would you have been beside me right now?".
"Ehh?".
"That is the main reason why I did not choose Satou".
Not having comprehended it, Karuizawa thinks about the meaning behind those words. Indeed, during that confession choosing to go out with Satou would have led greatly to an enjoyable school life for me. I would've made a lover, and I would have shared happy moments and difficult moments together with her. And I would have deepened my relationship with her. Students all around the world should have imagined such a sweet future at least once.
However, this is only if me going out with Satou would not impact Karuizawa's mental state at all. To choose your special partner, is in other words, to make a choice. If I chose Satou here, it would have become extremely difficult for me to make use of Karuizawa in the future. That is no mere prediction, as a matter of fact, just like this Karuizawa is drawing closer to me. If I had chosen Satou, Karuizawa would have become more wary of me.
The incident on the rooftop was certainly a massive turning point for Karuizawa. The trust Karuizawa has in me soared, and it's no longer an exaggeration to say that she will never betray me from now on. Ryuuen or Sakayanagi, or even if an existence like Nagumo were to draw close to her, Karuizawa won't crumble anymore. However, the only exception to that would be a case like this one.
'A replacement for me'. An existence like that. Perhaps I'm no longer needed, such anxieties would be born in her. As a result, she'd claim she could do things she couldn't do, she'd become fearful and the fear that the things she could do would no longer be possible would also be born. At such a time, it would suitable to say that Karuizawa's charm would drop by half. I had misgivings about that.
Of course, if Satou had possessed such outstanding talent that she could've been a replacement for Karuizawa, it would have been a different matter. Setting Satou as my main, and using Karuizawa as my sub. That option would have been available. But thanks to our contact today, I have this conviction once again.
Satou cannot possibly replace Karuizawa.
In regards to fundamental thinking and mental aspects, I can safely say she is far from reaching Karuizawa. Miraculously enough, that fact was strongly exposed on the very first date.
Disguising the double date they had set up as a coincidence, and compared to Karuizawa who is still calmly continuing to hide that fact, on a great many occasions Satou had been restless, and in contrast, there were times when she was also too calm. And the decisive blow occurred when Nagumo and I confronted each other. Karuizawa took action immediately while Satou was divided on it and unable to even join in.
In case of an emergency, that aspect of hers could make a huge difference. From now on, there are 3 problems I will be unable to avoid. The problem with the student council can ultimately be ignored but I cannot do the same against Sakayanagi and my father.
If those two go on a rampage, my position would easily make a complete change once or twice over proportionately. Until I can eliminate that threat completely, I need to make Karuizawa work smoothly for me. Besides, I'm also worried about the movements of Chabashira and Chairman Sakayanagi. I doubt the teachers' side would do something careless like that but now that I can see the background, they are also targets of my surveillance now.
In that sense too, the existence known as Karuizawa Kei is indispensable to me. Even the Chairman, who is seen as being overwhelmingly powerful by the students, can be socially destroyed through the use of Karuizawa as a honey trap. Well, whether it suits her or not is another matter... Karuizawa probably won't be able to deal with sexual matters anyway yeah. In any case, Karuizawa is highly versatile.
"I've been thinking it might be like that vaguely but Kiyotaka only sees people as tools, right?".
"That's not my intention".
I answered with that but that could not possibly reach Karuizawa, who I've used many times over and over as a tool until now.
"Hey---, this is a simple question but have you ever come to love someone before?".
"Up until now, never".
I do think that I'd like to love someone. It's just that sort of opportunity won't occur by pure chance.
-----Or.
It's just in my heart, there was no such thing as an 'awakening of love' in the first place. Boys and girls, I do understand the biological difference between them but everything beyond that is pitch black for me.
In the White Room, that was a matter of common sense.
".....ultimately......".
"What?".
"No, nothing".
Ultimately, even after leaving the White Room, perhaps I'm still stuck in the White Room. We never fail to make preparations to defend ourselves at all times in there. Even though in a proper student's life, such things are unnecessary.
Enjoying the date honestly and going out with Satou, that should have been an obvious future too. But I cannot draw such a future on a canvas. In response to the traps from various different opponents, I have been moving to secure various insurances for that off chance.
No matter what happens to someone else, as long as in the end, you win, that's fine.......this sort of fundamental mindset is something I won't be able to throw away until the day I die.
As I started walking, Karuizawa started walking too with a delay. Never lining up beside me, yet still keeping a distance where we could hold a conversation. Even if someone were to see us, it was at a miraculous distance where we could dress it up as a coincidence.
"Ahh. Even though I put in effort the whole day for Satou-san's sake, it turned out to be useless---".
It was a behavior that makes it hard to believe that just a few days ago, she was put through something horrible on that rooftop.
"Even though something like that happened just a while ago, you sure got back up on your feet, Karuizawa".
".....I haven't been flashily bullied like that in many years".
"Should I say the experience was different? Indeed, ever since I reached elementary school, was it?"
Long-term bullying. She was finally released from that. To have become this nimble, enjoying high school life like this could be said to be a natural gift.
However, Karuizawa made a slightly mysterious face as she listened to me talk now.
But perhaps she was able to understand immediately, she became convinced as she opened her mouth.
"Ahh....I see. It's like that right? Sorry, Kiyotaka, I may have lied a bit".
Fuu, as though she were convinced about something, Karuizawa nodded.
"Lie?".
"That thing I told Yousuke-kun about having been bullied for 9 years. That was a lie. You know, rather than just say I was only bullied during middle school, telling him I was bullied ever since elementary school makes it easier for me to get him to save me, I thought that. Even though the environment changed, the bullying continued, if he were to learn about that, perhaps he might think the same thing might happen at high school too, right?".
Lightly laughing, she stuck out her tongue.
So that's how it is. A lie so that she could properly make use of Hirata. To think that far when using someone, it showed Karuizawa's determination.
"More like........for having incited Manabe and the others. Are you not going to apologize again?".
"Now that you put it that way, that's right. Thanks to the date, I had thoroughly forgotten all about that".
"Also, that. Even though you told me you won't be contacting me anymore, you contacted me and relied on me. That too, I feel like you haven't followed up enough on that?".
"I withdraw the thing I said about not contacting you anymore. The obstacles have been removed, after all. If it's ok with you, please let me apologize next time".
"It doesn't feel like your heart is in it at all, though. I won't be expecting anything beforehand so apologize now"
"Now? How?".
"I've told you quite a lot of things, so let me hear something in return too Kiyotaka".
"About what?".
"Today in the afternoon, President Nagumo called out to you, didn't he? What's up with that?".
For Karuizawa, she may have been as worried about this as she was about the matter with Satou.
To think what she requested for an apology would be about the student council.
"You have it tough too. I don't know for what reason you ran seriously in the relay at the sports festival but I feel like more and more people are catching onto the truth".
"I'll put an end to that too. Fortunately, compared to how we started out, the unity of the class has grown stronger. Even if I don't do something, there should be no problems now".
"That's true but, that sort of thinking isn't like you. If we're talking about unity, Class B is far superior to us. I don't think we can beat them in that regard though?".
Saying that, Karuizawa continued.
"Leaving aside the strengthening of unity, it's just you want to get away from all this right?".
"As expected, you've answered correctly".
Class D is still under development. It would lose to both Class A and Class B. However, I have no intention at all of babysitting them until they can win.
"But during the sports festival, just because you stood out a bit, you attracted that much attention? Isn't it unnatural?".
It seems she wishes to say it's strange for me to have attracted the attention of Nagumo Miyabi just because I happened to be fast. If it's Karuizawa, even if I explained to her right now, there would be no problem.
No, on the contrary, I should speak to her about this. It was something I had wanted to cut in with so it saves me time and effort.
"What about the fact that Horikita from our class and the former student council president are siblings?".
"Some~how I think I've grasped it. Isn't it like that? I'm just on that sort of level though. Speaking of which during the relay, the student council president.....no, it's hard to understand unless I add former.....and you started at the same time right? Kiyotaka's an acquaintance, right?".
"Yeah. Through my connection with his sister. And I've been drawing various sorts of attention from the brother's side".
"So that means he knows your real face under that mask you're hiding behind?".
"Behind the mask, huh? What he knows is only the surface. In this school, there is no other person who knows me as deeply as you do".
"....hmmm. It doesn't really make me feel happy or anything though".
That was how Karuizawa answered, but it didn't seem to me as though she was as dissatisfied as she said. To know the secrets of others, is a heavy case for the person in question too but it's not uncommon for people to think of themselves as being special too. Looking at it from Karuizawa's perspective, the fact that she knows both the secret she herself holds and my secret would be stuck in her heart.
"The title of former student council president can be useful in various ways, after all. I'm slightly indebted to him too in the rooftop matter".
When I had sent Karuizawa down from the rooftop ahead of me, she should have met the former student council president who was standing by.
"Speaking of which.......yeah, I met him back then".
"In a similar way, I'm being pushed by the other party too to return the favor".
"So does that have something to do with the fact that you're drawing attention from President Nagumo?".
"The older Horikita and Nagumo have a confrontational relationship with each other. If I have to put it mildly, a rivalry. The fact that the older Horikita had been talking to me is probably something Nagumo didn't like. It seemed like he was raring for a fight during the relay too".
"Some~how this is complicated. So it means you barged in between those two's fight?".
Now with this, the reason why Nagumo's been getting involved with me should have been conveyed to her.
But the real question is from now on.
"Because of that too, I was asked by the older Horikita to lend him a hand. It seems like he wants to drag Nagumo down from the throne of student council president".
".....could it be, he entrusted that role to Kiyotaka?".
"Isn't it troublesome?".
"But, you're about the only one who could do something against that amazing student council president".
"So you think I can do something?".
"If you can't do it, then no one else is capable of stopping him too right?".
Before I had realized, her evaluation of me had gone up quite a bit.
No matter how humbly I try to say it, Karuizawa won't even buy it one bit.
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"By the way, since it's already part of the conversation's flow I'll say it but I'm going to be meeting a 2nd year now".
"A 2nd year? Who?".
"I wonder. The identity is still a mystery. The other side too, was unable to confirm that it's me. It's just, the only thing that's confirmed is that they're a student from amongst the 2nd years who doesn't think too highly of Nagumo".
"Heh.......am I getting in your way?".
"If you want to be present, I don't particularly mind if you're there too. What'll you do?".
I'll at least try and confirm whether or not she'll be tagging along.
".....I'll come".
After hesitating for a bit, Karuizawa answered as such. Hearing that word from her, I switched off my phone. Then, the two of us moved towards the school building that was told over the phone.