Chapter 1319 I Don't Want Kids

Chapter 1319 I Don’t Want Kids　　Seeing Jiang Yuyan not answering him, Lu Lijun continued calmly, “You don’t have to worry about it. I don’t want kids. I just want you by my side. When you are with me, I need nothing.”

Jiang Yuyan opened her closed eyes and turned to look at him, “Who told you that is the reason? The reason is simple: what you feel for me, I don’t feel the same for you and I never can. For me, you are Lu Qiang’s brother and my family but not in the way you want me to be.”

”Is it because I am younger than you and you don’t feel I can take care of you. You said yes to Alex, just because he is older and you think he is a good choice for you? You never gave me a chance to…..”

”I am mature enough to know which man is perfect for me to spend the rest of my life with,” Jiang Yuyan countered to interrupt him, “I never agreed for any man suggested by our families but I agreed for Alex. Isn’t it enough to understand that I have finally found someone I like?”

These words hurt him but he reminded himself to be calm and asked while looking into her eyes, “Is that really what you want?”

Her eyes wavered for a moment as instead of opposing her he asked her calmly like he was ready to give up. “Yes, it is what I want?” she replied, acting confident outside but inside her heart was breaking in pieces with the way he was looking at her. 

”Hmm,” this was what he replied and Jiang Yuyan’s eyes looked at him questioningly. What should she be supposed to understand from his ‘hmm’?

”You need to get proper treatment. You should stop working and focus on your health more. I know you don’t want our family to know it but as I know it already, I want to be by your side and take care of you till you get better,” he said. 

”I am fine. You don’t need to be worried about it,” she countered. 

”That’s up to me to decide. Though for you I am nobody, for me you are what I always say and you can’t stop me from taking care of you,” he added. 

”Lu Lijun…”

”I won’t listen to you. Your health is the priority. I will shift here soon and we will start your proper treatment soon. I will talk to the doctors,” he interrupted her. 

”I don’t want to…”

”I know but I want to…”

She sighed, “You should focus on working and become the next president. Because I won’t be there as I will leave for the USA after the engagement.”

Lu Lijun was still calm, “We will talk about that later. Until you get better completely, you are not going anywhere.”

”Are you trying to control my life?” she asked, looking back at him coldly.

”I am just doing what I should,” he replied calmly and went to her. He held her hand and brought her to the bed, “Be calm and rest. I’ll take care of everything,” he instructed. 

”I am calm. And I don’t need to rest,” she said, not willing to rest. 

Lu Lijun lifted her in his arms, “Lu Lijun, put me down.”

Lu Lijun put her on the bed and covered her in the quilt, “Rest.”

She tried to sit up but he sat next to her on the edge of the bed and patted her head, “Listen to me, Yuyan. All I want is to take care of you and you should get better.”

His caring gaze, his gentle words and soft patting made her not move at all and only look at him. Was he that same Lu Lijun? His gaze…it reminded her of Lu Qiang the way he always used to be so gentle and caring to her. 

’Lu Qiang..why is it not you?’ she asked in her mind. 

Seeing how she stared at him like in a daze, he asked, “What are you thinking, Yuyan?”

She averted her sight from him and turned her face to look the other way. “I just want you to leave me alone.”

”Hmm,” I’ll leave. By the evening, I will return with my stuff,” he said and stood up. 

Jiang Yuyan didn’t say a word as she knew if she said don’t come, he will not listen to her.

”Take care till I return,” he instructed and walked towards the door and she looked at his retreating back. For a moment she felt like he was leaving her and she felt uneasy. She remembered the words said by An Tian and wondered why she was so anxious about him leaving her.

Before closing the door, he looked at her with a calm and pleasant expression on his face, “See you,” and closed the door. 

Jiang Yuyan could feel her heart was not stable since the moment he came to see her and she was avoiding looking at him. She sat in the bed and kept her hand on her chest, ‘Why? Why is it like this?’ she remembered how she felt her pain was lessening when he held her in his arms the previous night. She felt comfort and wanted him to keep holding her, and wanted him to be with her. The next morning when she woke up and didn’t see him next to her, she was somehow disappointed. Could it be different if she saw him next to her the moment she woke up?

She cursed herself. “What? What am I thinking? Why am I thinking about him? This is not good.”

Jiang Yuyan received her cell phone and dialled her parent’s number. Her mother received the call. 

”Yuyan, where are you? We are so worried for you,” Mo Ruolan asked the moment she received the call.

”I am fine, mother. I just wanted to be alone for some time,” she replied. 

”I can understand. Lu Lijun is still immature. Don’t let him affect you…..”

”Mother,” Jiang Yuyan interrupted her mother calmly. 

”Yes, dear?”

”I want father and you to talk to the Choi family and decide on mine and Alex’s engagement,” Jiang Yuyan replied. 

”W-What? I mean are you sure?” It shocked Mo Ruolan. Not like she didn’t want her daughter to get engaged but she didn’t want her to be in a hurry.

”Yes, Mother. And after that I will leave for USA with him,” she replied.

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