To Lu Lijun's question, Jiang Yuyan simply nodded.
Lu Lijun continued, "That was the moment when I realized what I feel for you. I realized I didn't hate you but instead, I feel something else for you that I was trying to deny for so long. I realized, whatever I try, I can't be away from you and you are mine and belong to me only."
She only looked at him. That was the first intimate act between them. Though they did nothing, the way it happened was intimate in its own way.
"That closeness with you made me feel that I had the right to do that with you. I didn't feel I was doing anything wrong. My heart beat like crazy when we were that close. I wanted to hug you and do what my mind was leading me to unknowingly but I held myself back," he said his honest feelings and asked, "Didn't you feel anything at that moment like I felt? Didn't that closeness affect you?"
Jiang Yuyan didn't know what she should say.
"I want to know what you were thinking and feeling or I was the only one who felt that way," he repeated.
She inhaled to calm herself and said, "I remember it."
"And what did you feel?"
She looked into his eyes, "After so many years, it was the first time when my heart beat like that. I felt that closeness was not usual and what I felt was not normal even. I could not think anything because my mind had turned blank. I could not believe that you could affect me in that way and later I felt angry at myself," she answered.
"Angry?"
"Hmm," she nodded, "At that time I didn't consider you like this. You were just a family, like my younger brother."
"You married me in that temple ten years back. Even if you didn't have any such thoughts in mind for me, how can you still think of me as a younger brother?"
"That...It was not a legal marriage...You know... That..."
"But for me it was. I always considered that marriage valid," he interrupted.
She felt speechless and he said again, "Do you know what my memory of you looking like the prettiest woman in the world is?"
She looked at him questioningly and shook her head.
"When you were wearing that red traditional Chinese wedding dress during our wedding. I still remember how pretty my bride looked," he answered.
"You were just a kid then...."
"I was but I at least understood I was a groom and you were my bride. I also understood I was your husband and I needed to take care of you always," he replied.
"I don't know what to say," she mumbled, feeling embarrassed.
"At that time I just had the general idea of it while looking at how my father took care of my mother and how my elder brother cared for you," he smiled teasingly knowing why she was embarrassed, "Don't worry, my thoughts were pure as I was just a kid then."
"Was it necessary to say?" she looked away with a frown.
"Hmm," he nodded, "It was necessary so you won't feel guilty about messing with a kid. I was just as innocent as the kids of my age. I just took a literal meaning of our wedding and that was- I needed to protect my wife as her husband, That's it. The rest of the things about being married I understood as grew up just like other kids understand."
She pushed him away, "You are really so shameless."
He stepped back but that teasing smirk didn't leave his lips, "That shamelessness and boldness is what helped me get you. Don't you think so? Or who even dares come closer to you? Only I was allowed to do so, wasn't it?"
"You forced your way," she glared at him.
"Do you regret it?" he asked.
"I don't," she said and looked away trying to hide her blushing face, "You did well."
He held her chin and made her look at him, "Did I hear it wrong?"
"You ask too many questions," she said, trying to hide her true feelings. "Now go out and let me change.
"You can do that in front of me. I might help you select nice dresses," he countered.
"You won't listen, huh?" she gave him a displeased look.
"Fine. I am waiting outside. Come out once you are done and we can go for lunch."
She nodded.
"And.." he said again.
"What?" she asked.
He looked at the dress she was wearing, "Make sure to get this dress. I loved how sexy you are looking in it. I can barely hold myself back"
She frowned, "You can leave."
He turned to leave but then stopped again.
She looked at him to know what happened now.
He turned to look at her but this time he looked serious, "Yuyan."
"Hmm?"
"I wish to see you in that red wedding dress again," he said.
Hearing it, she only stared at him.
He smiled lightly and left not waiting for her answer.
'Want to see me in a wedding dress?'
Once he left and the door was shut, she let out the breath she was holding and patted her chest. He said nothing odd but she didn't know what she was feeling about it.
Getting a hold of her thoughts, Jiang Yuyan finished finalizing her clothes and everything she needed and stepped out of the trial room where she saw Lu Lijun standing by the glass wall of the shop, staring outside and talking on the cell phone.
The way he looked serious, she was sure he was talking about work. She observed how perfect he looked. That suit, the way he stood up with his one hand tucked in his pants pocket and the other one holding a cellphone. The top button of his shirt was undone and his tie was missing as he didn't like to wear it as well and always found the chance to remove it. In that regard, he took after Lu Feng.
His sharp features and the way he talked in English in that perfect British accent felt so impressive on him. At such a young age, when did he become so perfect?
Most importantly--
'No one would believe that this impressive young man was hell lewd and bold when he was with his woman.'