Jiang Yuyan was surprised as she didn't expect him to have a pack of condoms in his bag.
"Does he think he can impregnate me? Doesn't he believe the fact that I can not conceive?" she thought but then different thoughts covered her mind.
To date, she didn't feel bad about her situation of not being able to conceive as she had never thought she would ever love someone again. But now things have changed and she could only hope if it was not the case.
'Will I keep him devoid of that happiness of having a child?' sadness appeared on her face.
Just then she heard footsteps on the staircase and immediately put that box back in the bag and put that shirt over it as it was before. She walked away and went to stand by the window while looking outside as if nothing had happened.
Lu Lijun entered the bedroom and looked at Jiang Yuyan who was standing with her back facing him.
"What are you looking at?" he asked, going back to his bag.
"Sea," she replied, sounding normal though her mind was not calm.
Lu Lijun didn't disturb her and continued to put his stuff in the wardrobe. He picked up the box of condoms and went to the bedside table and put it inside the drawer.
Jiang Yuyan could sense his movements but not even once did she look at him. She knew what he had put in the drawer of the bedside table. She inhaled deeply and only tried to calm herself.
Lu Lijun put his empty bag on the side and went to her, "Do you want me to arrange your clothes?" He stood behind her as he back-hugged her.
"I will do it tomorrow. It's past midnight and only a few hours are left. We should sleep," she suggested.
Lu Lijun agreed as they needed to have a nice sleep so from the next day both could have a nice time together. The two went to the bed after changing into night pajamas. Though Lu Lijun didn't show it on his face, he was sure something was going on in Jiang Yuyan's mind.
She quietly lay in bed and Lu Lijun accompanied her in that king-size bed. As he covered the both of them with the soft white blanket, he moved closer to her and pulled her in his arms.
Jiang Yuyan rested her head on his shoulder and hugged him.
While caressing her back as he looked at the ceiling in that dimly lit room, he asked, "What are you thinking about?"
Jiang Yuyan stayed quiet and heard him again, "I would like us to share everything so I will know you better. From now on, I don't want anything hidden between us. We are not here to have distance between us but to get closer than ever."
She sighed lightly and replied, "I feel like I might keep you away from what you deserve. Because of me, you might be devoid of things." She didn't directly mention having a baby.
"There is nothing that I can not have with you being with me. I wonder what exactly you are talking about?"
She cleared her throat, "I know you have talked about it before and you said it doesn't matter but I could not help but think about it."
Lu Lijun was not an idiot to not understand it now, "Are you thinking about a baby?"
She nodded, "My answer is the same as before. So, stop thinking about it. All I need is you."
She nodded and he asked again, "What made you think about that suddenly?"
"Just..like that…." she replied hesitantly.
He lowered his head to look at her, "Just like that….what exactly?"
"I..saw a box…in your bag…and…" she didn't know how to say it.
"Box of condoms?" he asked.
Her face turned red, "Yes…I was thinking…I can't conceive so there is no need…but was wondering if you still think I can…."
Lu Lijun understood her concern. "Let me explain it to you then."
She looked at him and waited to hear him.
"Once brother Yang and I were talking and he suddenly raised this topic to me. When he asked about my opinion, my answer was the same that I had given to you as well. Then later he himself told that the gynaecologist who visits you is his colleague and he keeps getting updates about you from her."
"I knew it," Jiang Yuyan frowned, "No one is trustable."
"Calm down and listen to me," he said, "Brother Yang worries for you and you know it better than anyone else."
"I know."
Lu Lijun continued, "He discussed with the doctor and she said it's not totally impossible in your case but it's you who have lost all the hopes and your body acting that way. Not having periods for months and so on."
"So can I?" she asked, with a little hope.
"Yes there is a chance and you need to undergo some normal treatments and medications. But if you don't want to, no one is going to force you. You know I am fine with just having you with me."
"I will think about it," she said.
He patted her head, "So as the doctor said there are chances and recently your body had shown positive changes even without any treatment which I take as changes caused by me, I didn't want to take chance if it happens."
"Caused by you?" she narrowed her eyes at him.
He nodded, "Didn't you hear, love can change anything and the way I love you, no one can love anyone in this world.
"So proud of yourself, Narcissist!" she slapped lightly on his chest.
He smiled, "Anyways, I don't mind if you get pregnant now but first I want to have enough time for both of us. I want to make up for all those lost years. I don't want it to be sudden as well when your body might not be ready for the new changes. If you want, we can think about it properly and you can first undergo treatment. But yeah, no pressure. It's totally your decision."
She moved her head up to look at him who looked back at her. She said nothing and simply stared.
"I know I am handsome," he chuckled.
Always a Narcissist!" she smiled and said, "I didn't know you were so thoughtful and will think about all these things. I don't know what to say."
"You don't need to say anything. For now, sleep or I might start the baby-making process right away if you keep looking at me. I want you to rest because you won't be getting any later."
She nodded with a smile, "Fine! Good night!"
Lu Lijun hugged her tightly, "Good night!" and then mumbled, "Trust me it's so difficult to not do anything when you are this close."
"Sleep!" Jiang Yuyan warned but there was a smile on her lips as she closed her eyes while burying her face in his chest.