Chapter 901: My Heart Hurts
She placed his hand above her heart...
Lu Jinwen suddenly paused. An astute man like him was able to infer a lot from that one move.
His eyes glinted like hardened steel. “What do you mean? What do you exactly mean?”
His voice was harsh, his eyes narrowed in disbelief.
Lin Xuanji’s eyelashes fluttered, two drops of tears came out from the corners of her eyes before it trickled down and disappeared into her hair.
She spoke feebly, “Lu Jinwen, I should have... told you earlier, I should have told you a long time ago. Actually... My heart... hurts so much...”
Lu Jinwen froze as her words burned into his mind—- My heart hurts so much.
She said, her heart hurts so much.
Boom. He fell on one knee, pulling her tight into his embrace with one hand while the other was clutching onto her shoulder. His eyes turned bloodshot. “What are you talking about, I don’t understand you. I really don’t understand you.”
Lin Xuanji looked at him, lifting her hands to hug his neck before kissing him on the lips.
“Lu Jinwen, you must live on. I won’t let you die... even if it means giving up my own life, I will make sure to save you...”
As Lu Jinwen lowered his head, he nuzzled the tip of his nose against her face. He understood everything, he finally figured everything out.
—-Lu Jinwen, you must live on, I won’t let you die...
—-Even if it means giving up my own life, I will make sure to save you...
Yes, their fate was doomed.
Lu Jinwen understood it all, as though someone had stabbed his heart and twisted the knife around, till it was all bloody.
Pain.
The pain was indescribable, it was excruciating.
She had finally revealed the other half of the script that she had kept hidden away, it almost cost him his life.
They had both spent a few meaningless decades apart. The two who were in love with each other had to scheme against each other and wasted so much time.
So it was her!
He hadn’t known at all!
He nuzzled his head against her hair, tears flowing out of his eyes uncontrollably. “You didn’t say it before you jumped into the sea back then, why did you choose to reveal the truth today?”
“That’s because you didn’t know that I actually love you back then and would never tell me the truth, thinking that I wouldn’t hurt even a bit. However, the circumstances are different now. You actually know that I love you and by revealing the truth, you’re going to send me right into an abyss. Xuanji, you’re merely making use of my love for you, how much do you actually hate me?”
His tears ran over her skin, making her smile. “Lu Jinwen, I do hate you. I will never forgive you for the child that we’ve lost.”
“Ha.” Lu Jinwen let out a chuckle and let go of her. He looked at her with bloodshot eyes while placing his palm gently on her cheek, with a tender voice that he had never used, he uttered, “Xuanji, admit it, you still love me.”
“You can forgive me if I don’t love you but you can’t forgive me if I love you. You wanted to take revenge so badly... isn’t that also considered your love for me?”
He loved her but he hadn’t protected their child.
He loved her but their relationship ended up like that.
They shouldn’t have ended up like that!
She just couldn’t get over him and had experienced feelings of hatred, sadness, dejection, she had to go through all of that because of her love for him.