Blue North Chen always can't help but think of some time with Feng Sujin before.
At that time, he didn't think there was anything, but now he only thinks that it was the happiest time he cherished most.
Although watching the video of Jun Mohan's proposal to Feng Sujin, his mood is somewhat complicated, but it can only arouse his regret and guilt.
At that time, he did not propose to Feng Sujin.
Even when they got married later, he put off the marriage for a long time, let alone got the license.
There are many things to prepare for the wedding. He arranges people to do them.
Although blue Beichen has pain and regret, he knows clearly that he can't be colder than Jun mo.
Jun Mohan does those things for Feng Sujin, and he can't compare them with each other.
Jun Mohan, who is in love with someone, is really in love with him.
Feng Sujin should be happy to be loved by him.
LAN Beichen watched the video several times. He told him to die after watching it, but after watching it again and again, he still couldn't die for Feng Sujin.
He sat for a while, then made a list on the paper, "get these things ready carefully."
He knew that Jun Mohan and Feng Sujin would have a wedding ceremony, even if he didn't have the courage to go, but he still had to prepare the gift.
Some subordinate looked at the items on the list and was shocked. He didn't know why blueboy had to prepare so many valuable items.
But as a subordinate, he only has the right to listen to orders.
For LAN Beichen, he doesn't think there is anything more valuable for Feng Sujin.
On weekdays, if he sends Sujin things, she will definitely not accept them.
But on her wedding day, he sent it, and she would take it.
At the thought that Feng Sujin is going to marry someone else and be the most beautiful bride at the wedding, LAN Beichen's heart aches badly.
The pain was accompanied by remorse.
At the beginning, she almost married him. It's really close.
They are all going to have a ceremony at the wedding. It's his own death. He left without her.
Every time I think of that day, LAN Beichen can't face it, can't face herself, can't face the past.
He didn't even understand why he was so cruel and stupid.
Maybe it's just because Liu Shiya, an atmosphere created by Liu Shiya, is hanging his heart, making him think that he loves, making him have a stubborn feeling to be treasured.
It was the illusion of feeling that made him ignore the people around him all the time.
In the past, Jun Mohan said that his EQ was low, and now he realized that he was really stupid and lost the treasure to pick up sesame seeds.
Emotionally, he also had to admire Jun Mohan. He was a very powerful man in his heart. He knew what he wanted.
From the beginning, he cherished fengsujin.
Jun Mohan is not without temptation, nor without other women, but he is always in the heart of Feng Sujin, not seduced, not bewitched, and dedicated to Feng Sujin.
By contrast, he is still too far away from the blue North Star.
Thinking about it, blue Beichen can't help coughing a few times with his heart covered. He feels that the breath of his heart is a little hard.
He knows he can't think any more, and it will be more painful to think about it.
LAN Beichen watched the video again, as if murmuring to the people in the video: "Feng Sujin, I hope you will always be happy."
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