Mo Zi Xi understood what Xu Yang meant. He was indirectly telling her that even if the Xu family did not agree to let them be together, he had the ability to make them happy.
However, she really did not want a relationship that was not blessed by her family. She saw that her sister and brother-in-law had been through thick and thin and each of their eyes made others love them. She also wanted to be like her parents-in-law.
If she couldn't find it, then she would rather not. It would be good to live a lifetime like this.
To say that she was weak was fine, she just wanted to keep hiding her head and act like a tortoise.
He wanted Mo Zi Xi to answer immediately, but he didn't want to hear her merciless rejection. He couldn't help but remind him, "Zixi, don't be in such a hurry to answer my questions, I can give you time to think things through before you answer me."
"Big brother Xu, what do you like about me?" Mo Zi Xi let out a light sigh, the emotions on her chest were heavy. The past her was so arrogantly arrogant, she looked down on everyone. She never thought that there was such a person in this world who would keep putting her in his heart.
Zixi, don't talk about yourself like that. You were kind in the past, but now you are trying your best to improve. No matter if it is before or now, you have your own specks of light on you.
"I'm not that great, Big Bro Xu. In the past, I've been deluded by my own obsession, harming my family members who truly cared about me time and time again, and I've also made a mess of my life. Right now, I'm just a small sales representative."
"No, Zixi, that isn't the real you. The real you are just like you are now, and actually before you even came to the company, I had already seen you in Mo Clan. At that time, you were recovering, and when I saw you fall on the ground by yourself, I gritted my teeth and stood up. Sure enough, not only did you stand up, you also came to work at the company. It's just that you were very different from when I first saw you. "
Talking about the past, Mo Zi Xi revealed a relieved smile, "Did you think that I was quite annoying at that time?"
"No, I was just thinking, what made you become like this, you are clearly not such a person, why do you have to live like a hedgehog, only then did I hear the chairman accidentally mention your childhood experience, I understand that you have a lack of love from a young age, you yearn for your father's attention too much, all you did was to make your father look at you differently."
This was the first time Xu Yang had said something so long. Mo Zixi had always felt that this man was a bit shy at times. She just hadn't expected him, someone who had never known her well, to understand her heart so well.
The corner of her mouth curled up. She felt very satisfied. So there was someone paying attention to her before she knew it. How fortunate was she to have such a person?
"Thank you, Big Brother Xu."
Xu Yang scratched his head, his expression a little unnatural. "Zixi, what's there to thank me for? I'm just saying what's on my mind."
As Mo Zi Xi looked at the gentle and calm man in front of her, she couldn't help but think that this kind of man would definitely be a good man after marriage. If the person she met back then was him and not Ding Rui, then she would definitely have had a very good marriage.
However, things like feelings could not be determined, and there were too many variables in the future. She really couldn't be sure if she could give such a person happiness.
Given her current condition, if she were to be with Xu Yang, she would be unable to give him any feelings and could only treat him as a close relative.
Mo Zi Xi knew that these words would hurt, but she felt that this was the only way to completely dispel his thoughts.
She took a deep breath and said resolutely, "Big brother Xu, I know what you mean, but I won't fall in love with you. I can't give you what you want."
Xu Yang's body stiffened, he did not seem to expect Mo Zi Xi to be so direct, and was unable to react for a long time.
Mo Zi Xi saw the injuries in his eyes, but she couldn't take them back now that she had said them out loud. She could only continue to speak, "Big Brother Xu, this is the biggest problem between the two of us. You are a good person, I really can't disturb you."
This was the first time Mo Zi Xi had refused the pursuit of a man, and no matter how she tossed it over and over, the only thing she could say was this kind of vulgar reason.
You're fine, but I don't love you.
This is definitely the best weapon, not my family, not my appearance, but my lack of love for you, that's all.
Xu Yang felt his head sink, "Zixi, I was hoping to get married to you so that I could request a relationship with you. Marriage is not a relationship, I believe it takes a long time for emotions to develop between the two of us, we have never gotten along together before, how do you know that you won't fall in love with me, don't make such a hasty decision, okay? Give me some time to examine me. "
Mo Zi Xi shook his head resolutely, "No, Big Brother Xu, I am a man who thinks that death is the right thing to do. My father always said that I would not hit the south wall and not turn back, but after hitting my head so hard that blood flowed from my head, I will be the one who tries to avoid the wall."
"Zixi, I'm not a wall that will bleed from your head. You don't have to run from me."
"Big brother Xu, can you not force me?"
Xu Yang looked at the frail and weak woman in front of him, and felt his throat tighten, unable to say more words. He truly liked this woman from the bottom of his heart, but his actions seemed to have given her a lot of pressure.
For a moment, the two of them did not speak, and the atmosphere became awkward.
Mo Zi Xi's lips moved, she did not know what to say.
After a while, Xu Yang was the first to break the silence, "I'm sorry, Zi Xi, I shouldn't have forced you."
Mo Zi Xi shook his head, "Big brother Xu, it's fine."
"Zi Xi, is it because of Ding Rui? Because you still love him? "That's why you can't accept me."
Mo Zi Xi shook her head, this was something she was now very sure of, "Big brother Xu, no, he's only my ex-husband now, I won't let myself step into the same river twice."
Xu Yang's gaze dimmed once again, "Then what do you plan to do next?"
"I want to let nature take its course. If one day I meet someone who I love and who loves me, I might try to take that step forward." She would not easily try again when she did not meet that person.
"Zixi, is it really impossible? Can I really not accompany you to give You An a normal environment to grow up in? "
"Big brother Xu, you're as warm as big brother. We'll be friends for the rest of our lives." As for You An, she wouldn't allow such a thing to happen just for her growth. If something were to happen to their master's feelings, it would directly affect You An, and she definitely wouldn't hope for such a thing to happen.