C145 crabapple flower

My name is Begonia, I used to be a brothel prostitute.

In my life, there was a little girl who loved herself and did not associate with the world.

But she, like me, is a poor soul.

I took her out of the pestilential countryside and we lived together. In my heart, she was the one I had to spend all my efforts to protect.

If she was not in this world, what was the point of me living?

Later, we wandered to the Beauty Pavilion, a golden place where, with just a few tricks, we could make a lot of money.

I know that Li Shang's thoughts of pretending to be ugly have never been revealed. For her to think of such a good way to protect herself is truly very good.

However, not long after he entered the Beauty Pavilion, there was a shameless guest who insisted on having a virgin.

In this place, only I and Li Shang can meet the requirements.

I knew about this news before Shang, so I took the initiative to find the bawd and agree to it.

If there's anything that needs to be done, then I, as her big sister, can take it all. She should just be a pure and flawless little flame girl.

That night was a very painful night. After being trampled on by a strong and muscular man, all I could do was to howl in pain. Those cold and sinister whips aren't something that anyone can withstand.

The next day, I was full of wounds and couldn't get up from the bed. Fortunately, Li Shang brought a bowl of porridge.

I was very touched and felt that everything I had done was worth it. If it was her who was being beaten, my heart might have been even more upset.

However, after finishing the porridge, an indescribable sadness welled up in my heart. "Liushang, do you blame me?" I asked softly.

She shook her head and replied, "I'm not surprised."

Actually, it may not be weird, but I am already unable to argue with you. In the end, it is me who violated 'morals' first.

I feel that if I let Li Shang continue to stay here, there will be a day when she will not be spared.

Therefore, I did my best to receive the guests. I put my life on the line just for the sake of earning enough money to help her and me redeem ourselves, to go out together and live a good life.

I don't have much time, the old procuress has always been eyeing Shang and I must work harder and harder so that I can snatch the guest away from Hua Kui. No matter what kind of person they are, as long as they can afford it, I will give myself up.

On the surface, I chatted and laughed with them, but in my heart, there was always a trace of humiliation and unwillingness.

I became what people call a lecherous child slut, I became the thorn in the eye of a married woman.

One day, the old procuress could no longer hold herself back. She came to talk to Shang, and I knew it was not a good thing.

Shang was timid, weak, and did not have the guts to refuse.

I could only buy her some time and offer to train her for a month.

Perhaps after a month, I will be able to earn enough money to give her freedom.

Li Shang's heart was not in a good mood. After being drenched in the rain, she was afraid that she would catch a cold, so she personally stewed some ginger soup for her.

She swallowed reluctantly. I know all about it.

The first time I received a guest, I was filled with absolute courage.

It's just that she doesn't have to suffer like that with me around.

"I thought you hadn't lost your heart. Unexpectedly, you still changed." she exclaimed.

After listening to these words, my heart melted in an instant. My heart? Did I lose my heart, or did my heart leave me? Could it be that I was willing to do all of this? I'm just trying to protect you, silly girl.

But how could I tell her that she didn't know anything at all, that she was clean and should have nothing to do with a dirty woman like me?

No matter how much her heart hurt, she had to pretend that she didn't care about anything.

I had to teach her myself, undress her, and make her happy in order to do the trick.

She was still very young, but she was also very smart. She was able to learn it easily, but it was actually due to her instincts. It was just like when a newborn baby could drink milk.

The next morning, when I opened my eyes, she was nowhere to be seen.

I know, she was' digesting 'last night, as for whether she can think it through … I don't know.

The old procuress came in to question me. I was so tired of this woman who had fallen into the eyes of money. It was all my fault that I was so ignorant that I ended up in this hell for a meal.

After the bawd left, I fell asleep with a restless heart.

Could it be that there was a shadow left in her heart? Blame me for being so hasty. Don't you understand how things are in the future? I started blaming myself.

Unexpectedly, Li Shang appeared.

"Come with me. You were the one who brought me out of the Devil's Cave before. Now, it's my turn."

She spoke very seriously, not like she was joking.

And me? I think far more than she does. Let alone whether or not we can escape, even if we manage to escape, what kind of life will we lead? In such a poor life, I really didn't want Li Shang to suffer with me.

Moreover, this place was like an iron wall. How could he get the chance to leave? If he failed to escape, he would be brought back. He would inevitably suffer a lot more.

If I wait a little longer, if I wait patiently, I will soon be able to earn some money to redeem myself.

Therefore, I endured the pain in my heart and said a few firm words.

Unexpectedly, her reaction was like a knife that stabbed at my already shattered heart.

I clearly remember what she said...

"Sneaking? Open and honorable? What was sneaking? What was fair and square? Do you know how many people outside call you a bitch? I called you a piece of trash! Is it fair and square that you confuse the husbands of others? How many married men have you slept in this bed? Isn't this also sneaking around! "

When I finished listening, I was in so much pain that I wanted to die.

So it turns out that in her heart, I'm already so unbearably ugly that I don't even have the qualifications to be a human anymore.

Is this my retribution? My nature is like a flower in water, my retribution to Qin Muchu.

God, why is that? Why do I have to hear these words coming out of her mouth?

I didn't care what others said, because I only cared about her. I didn't expect her to understand me, but it was all within expectations.

However, when she really said everything out in front of me, I realized that my heart was still in pain.

I pretended to be angry and chased her away because I was afraid that if I let her stay, I would be unable to stop myself from telling her everything.

After all, there were too many secrets in my heart that no one could share with me.

Shang was angered by me and I knew that at the same time that she hurt me, her heart had already been broken.

This was the fate of lowly people. If they couldn't obtain good results, they could only harm each other.

When I lay back on the bed, I realized that her bell was with me, the only token between us.

He remembered how happy the two girls were when he bought them.

Such a happy moment could only be recalled. Life had to be lived, money had to be earned.

He just didn't think that this silly girl would choose to live lightly.

Die? Death was actually a very simple matter.

I've also thought about it, but if I die, what about Li Shang? So I can't die, and I can't bear to die without Shang.

We must live on. There is still a long way to go …