Chapter 1023

Letter to September:

my love, Hello, I dare to say these three words only when I die. I thank you for your gentle hand which pulled me out of the abyss of pain on that rainy night. I thank you for leaving a little trace on your lips on the day when I was chased.

In September, I have been to many places over the years. Standing in front of lavender in Provence, I still think of you. When I watch the two-color rainbow in Mount vitalia, I still think of you.

I like to start in September and come back in September. I've seen too many beautiful scenery, but they don't leave any trace in my heart. Maybe it's because my heart has already been lost in Los Angeles.

September, I hope you can see the beautiful scenery with me, but I know that it is impossible, September's life has already been involved with another person.

Do you ask me how I have been? I tell you, it's good, but in September, I want to tell you the truth, my life is not good, very bad, I often have nightmares at night, dream that I fell into the abyss, dream that endless despair entangled me.

I don't expect much from life. I always wear women's clothes I don't like. I suppress my nature and pain. I'm not happy in the Qin family. I saw my mother killed with my own eyes

September, I'm so sad

I've decided not to breathe for so many years. Now I don't want to die.

In September, I just had my 35th birthday. It's so fast. I thought I couldn't make it to 30years old. I want to thank you and Fu Yan for letting Guoguo accompany me for so long. If it wasn't for her, maybe I would have chosen this road.

In September, I'm sorry, depression is very painful. On the day when I tied you back to the villa, it was the first time we met. In fact, at that time, I wanted to die. But when I met you, I promised to protect you and marry you. Maybe you have already forgotten.

I didn't tell you face to face, I love you, so now I want to say, yes, I love you, I didn't love a person so much, my life is gray, but you are my sun, instantly lit up my gray life, but from the beginning I knew that September would not belong to me.

So I came close to you in the women's clothes I hate. On the night of wandering on the sea, I hope the tide can take us further away from Los Angeles and Fu Jin. I'm so dark and gloomy. I hope that I will be the only one in the world in September.

Sorry

When I met the person who wanted to spend the rest of my life together, I hoped that the rest of my life would come soon. In September, at that time, I was sure that when you and Fu Yan got married, I would find a place where no one would live and wait for death. But I was afraid that you would blame yourself and think that my death was due to you, so I put up with it.

In September, when you saw this letter, I was already dead, but not because of you. It was depression. I was an unfortunate person and was cursed from birth. Generally, my family hurt me too much, and my father didn't like me. I also killed my elder brother myself. I was a sinner and couldn't get redemption.

September, my love, you must not blame yourself, the day I was tied with a bomb, you have paid off all my emotions, you are willing to accompany me to die, your eyes are so firm, I know I love the right person.

When you said to die together, I was relieved, but I'm sorry, September, I deliberately tested you. I'm the king of killers. No one can kidnap me. I was kidnapped voluntarily. Your tears and hugs paid off everything I did for you.

In September, you are a good girl, but I hate my dark life and my killing life. I envy all the people in the world, but I don't envy myself.

I've been to a lot of places, but when I think about it at the end of my life, I still only remember Los Angeles.

In September, don't worry.

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Song Jiuyue trembled and started to light the mouse. There was a huge pain in her heart. At last, her whole body began to shake. She wanted to cry, but she couldn't make any sound.

Finally, she could only hold herself, pale, she had a dream last night, dream of red lotus standing in a large sunflower, dream of his wave.

Honglian, why, why do you have depression but refuse to tell anyone

She cried hoarse, finally wiped tears, opened the new micro blog, she read those stories one by one, and finally remembered the person she saw in the ice cream shop that day.

He said, song September, goodbye, originally means no goodbye in this life.

She opened her microblog, reprinted a series of comics, and added a line at the end.

He waved quietly and never came back.

There is no red lotus in this world. No one can understand his pain. If there is a river of forgetting Sichuan and a soup of Mengpo in hell, I hope he can live a good life.

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Qin Mo Zhan received a bunch of flowers from Song September. He put the flowers in front of the tombstone of Honglian. The tombstone is next to the sunflower. Behind him is a large sunflower. In the future, it should not be gray.Qin Mo Zhan closed his eyes and thought of the email he received. He pulled it lightly.

Elder brother, I haven't called you that for many years. I know that you have special feelings for me, but I hate the Qin family and the blood flowing on my body. When my father's whip blows on me one by one, and my mother closes her eyes in despair, I have no expectation of this world any more.

I don't hate your feelings, because every love is great, but I'm sorry, I can't respond to anything. I've been to many places over the years, and I tried to save myself, but finally found that no one can pass me.

Brother, I'm gone. Yueyue was found not long ago. Please take good care of it for me. It's accompanied me to come here these days.

I have recalled this life, the only thing that makes me feel sweet is song September. My death is not because of her. I hope you don't add resentment to her. I thank her for her appearance, which makes me feel sweet when I think about it.

The happiest thing for me is to meet song September. I also thank you, my brother, because you helped me a lot in the Qin family. Although you didn't tell me, I know all about it.

I hope my sunflower can light up my life after I go to hell.

After crossing the river of forgetting Sichuan and drinking Mengpo soup, I don't remember anything. Please don't be sad if you are alive. My death is just the rebirth of another world.

Good morning, brother.

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Qin Mozhan's eyes are sour, and Yueyue is lying beside him, sleeping soundly.

It's a dog and doesn't understand death.

The tombstone was illuminated by the light reflected by sunflower. It seems that the man never left. He just sleeps here. Maybe spring will wake up with all things.