I don't know what kind of mood I was in when I came back to Huo's house. I was in a state of confusion. I was constantly worried and confused.
When I stood outside Huo's house with my suitcase for more than half a year, I thought it was so strange. It didn't seem to be my place.
I stood outside for a long time, noon sun mercilessly baked me, dazzling hot, dizzy.
My throat was dry and my mind was confused. I just felt dizzy and dizzy. Then my eyes turned dark and I lost consciousness.
When I felt the light again, I slowly opened my eyes.
Above my head was my daughter's worried face. My consciousness recovered slowly. I heard her shouting something.
Hearing gradually clear, I heard a few footsteps, and then saw Huo Qingchuan some worried face.
"Are you awake?" Huo Qingchuan put his hand on my forehead. His hand was very hot, which made me feel uncomfortable.
What made me even more unacceptable was what he had done. I turned my head and wanted him to take his hand off my skin.
"Mom, mom," Yanyan called to me, "what's the matter with you?"
Daughter's voice with a cry, I think I scared her.
I gently smile, want to comfort her, but can only make a low and hoarse voice, "good, mom is OK."
"The young granny was just overworked and fainted from heatstroke due to exposure to the hot sun." Huo family's personal doctor said to Huo Qingchuan, "it's OK to have a rest."
"Well, I see. Please give her some medicine." Huo Qingchuan said sitting beside me.
Maybe it's because my thinking is not clear. I always feel that my husband, who is sitting beside me and caring about me, is full of hypocrisy.
I don't look him in the eye. My tired nerves make me close my eyes. I'm always out of sight and out of mind.
Recently, great work pressure and psychological pressure let me sleep again, sleeping very deep. It's like falling into an unconscious abyss in my dream. I just feel that my body is sinking uncontrollably.
Hazy from the dark came laughter, I listen carefully, can only vaguely recognize the source of laughter, is a man, a woman, and a child.
Their voices are very familiar.
I want to dig out the darkness to pursue that burst of laughter, but no matter how hard I try, my body just keeps sinking to the bottom.
Wake up again, and the darkness around you is like a dream.
I moved my body to make sure I wasn't in a dream, then I coughed a few times.
There was a rustle around, and someone was there.
"Pa Ta" a, bedside lamp on, a time can not adapt to the light, I instinctively closed my eyes.
"Are you awake?" The man's voice came, a little lazy.
It's Huo Qingchuan. This is our bedroom.
I still couldn't let go of what I knew during the day. I moved and wanted to get out of bed because my throat was very dry.
"What are you doing?" Huo Qingchuan grabbed one of my arms in the back and asked me in a tone of no hurry.
I was so tired that I didn't even bother to question.
"I want to drink water." I am powerless to say his purpose, voice with a little hoarse.
Huo Qingchuan just let go of my arm, and then walked out of bed and said to me, "sit down, I'll pick you up."
The gentleness of my long lost husband didn't move me much. In my opinion, his hospitality is just guilt for his mistakes.
I sat on the bed, waiting quietly, I heard the clear sound of the cup collision, and the gurgling sound of water flowing into the cup.
Then the footsteps came to me, and a hand with a cup appeared in front of me.
I reached for the glass and drank it almost in one breath.
"Any more?" Huo Qingchuan asked me.
The more he is like this, the more I feel aggrieved.
Without answering, I put the cup on the cupboard at the head of the bed and lay down again.
Huo Qingchuan stood in front of me for a while and lay on the bed. Our bed is really big, even if two adults stand on one side, there is a lot of space in the middle.
I turned my back to him, and my head was full of the smiling faces of the three people in the picture, which made my head ache even more.
After a while, Huo Qingchuan said, "don't you come back before noon? Why did you come back so late? "
He didn't care about how I fainted, whether my body was comfortable or not. What he cared about was how I didn't come back as scheduled, and whether he was dissatisfied with my behavior again?
I blinked slowly and didn't answer his question.
With the young master's temper, I think he will be dissatisfied with my attitude. After all, he has always had problems with me these days. But now his opinion is not important. Why should I bow to such a husband?
I didn't answer his question, and Huo Qingchuan didn't say anything. I felt the bed move a few times, and he lay down.
Put out the bedside lamp, the quiet room is only the two of us breathing one after another.
Upset, anxious, restless.
I once again deep sleep in the past, supplement enough sleep, I opened the quilt, went to the sofa, sat down, began to enjoy this light and nutritious breakfast.
Just after dinner, the door was pushed open from the outside. Huo Qingchuan came back in his sports clothes. It's not hard to guess from his clothes that he should have gone to morning exercise.
"What about the spirit?" He came up to me and asked me softly, just as before.
What's going on? Don't you always refuse to talk to me? From yesterday till now, no matter what my attitude is, he is not angry. Instead, he has been taking the initiative to talk to me. Is he really ashamed.
I stood up, "as you can see, good."
He won't mind if I don't say anything. He's not satisfied when I answer his question.
"What's your attitude?" Huo Qingchuan's tone reveals his mood. The young master who has always been arrogant is treated like this. He must be upset.
But I will only be more resentful than him.
"What's wrong with my attitude?" I looked him in the eye. "Shouldn't I answer your question?"
"Of course you have to answer my question," Huo Qingchuan said with a face of speechless pride, "but it should not be this attitude."
His subtext seems to say that before you flattered me in every way, now you should be more grateful for my care.
"What attitude do you want me to have?" I asked him, "kneel down and thank you for your hypocritical care?"
Huo Qingchuan was obviously angry with me, his face became very black.
I don't want to talk to him any more, passing by his side, ready to leave this place where people can't breathe well.
"You stop!" Huo Qingchuan grabbed my hand. It was strong and my wrist hurt.
With a little effort, he could drag me back to where I was and force me to face him.
"You'd better make it clear what hypocritical care is!" His voice is not big, but full of frightening pressure.
Now he doesn't realize that there is something wrong with him. No, in his world, everything he does is right. Even if common sense says he is wrong, he will try to prove it. In fact, common sense is wrong.
My husband is such a self willed and arrogant man.
If you don't tell him clearly, he won't let me go. The strength of his hand is gradually increasing, and my flesh and bone are pinched by him.
But I won't cry, I don't want to lose in this competition.
"Well," I let my arm be held by him and looked up into his deep eyes, "I ask you, where did you go in the afternoon on the day you brought Yanyan back?"
Huo Qingchuan's eyes moved for a while, and then immediately recovered as usual, "went to the playground."
"With whom?" I asked.
He didn't answer me immediately. I can tell from his expression and eyes that he has understood what I want to say. That's fine. I don't have to bother to go on. I'll see how he explains it.
His answers have become less important. What matters is his attitude.
"You already know that. Why ask me again?" Huo Qingchuan let go of my hand and said with a sneer.
What on earth made him ask me so boldly?
I can't believe looking at him, want to see something from his easy expression, but finally failed.
"Why go with her? Or, why don't you tell me? " I calmed down my frenzy again because of surprise, and still looked forward to an answer from him.
In the end is how much cherish this relationship, will again and again break the bottom line to seek a palliative.
Huo Qingchuan squinted at me and seemed to be thinking about something. He gave me the answer. "It happened that she was in our house. When she heard that she was going to take Yanyan out to play, she offered to go together. We had nothing to do with each other. Why did she tell you specifically?"
Is that all? Is the fact as easy and simple as he said?
I thought of the picture and took a deep breath. "Can you show me your mobile phone?"
Huo Qingchuan didn't know my sudden request, so he hesitated and handed me his mobile phone.
His password is Yan Yan's birthday, I am familiar with the unlock screen lock, point into his album.
The first picture is really sad that I want to laugh.
As like as two peas, as like as two peas, three people as like as two peas.
I held up my cell phone, turned the screen to Huo Qingchuan and laughed at him.
"This picture, don't you want to explain something?"
Huo Qingchuan was stunned for a moment. His eyes drifted between the photo and me. Then he took the mobile phone from my hand, pressed it a few times and put it back in his pocket.