Originally, I planned to have a chat with Huo Qingchuan alone after dinner. If the conversation is good, I will tell you the news about my pregnancy, which can be regarded as an end to the recent depressed relationship.
As for those bastard words he said, I'll forget them for the time being. I'll settle accounts with him after solving the immediate problems.
My father-in-law also came back, Huo Qingchuan also went home before dinner, everything is developing according to my imagination.
Even if I didn't eat much for a day, I still didn't feel very hungry. Looking at a table full of too much dinner, my stomach began to turn again.
Still can't help, I cover my mouth, flurried from the table to stand up, and then toward the nearest bathroom.
Still retching, but the taste is really hard. Finally stable state, I looked up at myself in the mirror, because of loss of appetite, face some ugly.
It's really frustrating. When I was pregnant with Yan Yan, it didn't seem so serious.
After washing the handle, I went back to the table.
My father-in-law and mother-in-law didn't look very good, probably because I was too impolite.
"Late," my mother-in-law put down her chopsticks and seemed to want to preach to me, "if you are not feeling well, go to see a doctor. Do you want us to eat when you are at the dinner table?"
"I'm sorry, mom and Dad," I said to them, "but I can't help it."
"Forget it, forget it," my mother-in-law stopped me from saying the next thing. She waved her hand to me, "I have no appetite for you. I'll go back to my room first."
After that, she put down her chopsticks and left the table.
I just made a little reaction because I was unhappy, and my mother-in-law was so dissatisfied, which made me a little sad.
But they didn't know that I was pregnant, which is understandable.
Only Huo Qingchuan and his son and our mother and son were left on the table. Neither of them liked to take the initiative to talk. The atmosphere was a little awkward for a moment.
What do you say here? Anyway, sooner or later, we all need to know that I am pregnant with the flesh and blood of the Huo family. There is no need to hide it like this. It's not that I've done anything wrong.
No, Huo Qingchuan and I are still in a state of cold war. It is not in line with my character to speak out when there are still unknown factors. It is better to solve the contradiction between Huo Qingchuan and me first to make this news happy.
I had a meal in front of me, and my eyes fell on Huo Qingchuan from time to time.
He still has no special expression, even when eating a calm face.
"It's too late." In the middle of the meal, my father-in-law suddenly opened his mouth and spoke to me unexpectedly. I immediately picked up my spirits and looked at him.
"Dad." I use one word to show that I am sitting upright and waiting for my father-in-law at any time.
My father-in-law was stunned by my reaction, and then he was relieved, "I don't think you eat much. Just now, there was a reaction. Is it physical discomfort?"
To tell you the truth, since I married into the Huo family, my father-in-law and I didn't really have a lot of communication. He is also an unfathomable person, so now I don't know how sincere he is in his ordinary expression when he asks me questions.
If you're not sure, you should answer in a way that is not disrespectful to others. I smile, "no, Dad. Maybe I ate a lot at noon, so I'm not hungry now." I said.
My father-in-law's eyes stayed on me for a few seconds, and then he nodded, "that's good. If you feel uncomfortable, go to see a doctor. Don't delay."
"Yes, Dad." I replied respectfully.
During the period, Huo Qingchuan has been concentrating on his food. It seems that what I communicated with his father has nothing to do with him.
After a while, Huo Qingchuan finished his meal, said "I'm full" to his father-in-law and got up. Instead of going back to the room as usual, he walked towards the study.
Rashly with the past seems to be a bit inappropriate, I don't want to be too weak in front of my father-in-law.
Just go back to your room and wait for him, I think.
Since I was determined to have a good talk with him, I didn't go to another room with Yan Yan. I went back to my room with Huo Qingchuan.
Obviously, I didn't sleep here for a few days. When I got into that comfortable big bed again, I really miss it.
I slowly lay down and let my body lay flat on the bed to the greatest extent, to feel and miss the unique breath of us on this bed.
I put my hands on my stomach, thinking about how to tell Huo Qingchuan that I have our second child.
Are you going to tell him I'm pregnant? No, it's too direct. It makes people feel unreal.
Sure enough, it's better to find out and solve the problems between us first, and then tell him the fact that I'm pregnant. To some extent, I'll get a sense of happiness that I haven't seen for a long time.
I lie on the bed. The cloth on the bed becomes warm because I haven't moved for a long time. Even if the temperature in the room is just right, the season is summer after all. If I always keep a posture, it's still hot.
I turned over to the direction where Huo Qingchuan had been lying.
Although there is no solid figure of that person beside my pillow, I have a fantasy in my mind that soon we will be able to embrace and sleep together again.
I even extended my hand and gently stroked the position where Huo Qingchuan had been lying before, and felt something from the cool bedding.
I'm ready, just waiting for the man to come back.
Clock tick tick tick every minute of the word, so that the whole room appears more quiet.
After dinner, I went back to my room and waited. Now it's three months ago, but Huo Qingchuan still hasn't come back.
Because I didn't turn on the light, the light in the room was a little dim. I got up, groped and turned on the bedside lamp.
By the way, I touched my mobile phone to see the time. It's more than ten o'clock in the night.
He didn't come back so late. What fascinating books did he find in his study?
I'm a little sleepy, but I can't sleep because of the things in my heart. So I made a decision, perhaps, the study is also a good place to talk.
So think, I drag on slippers, gently open the door and gently close, and then take the same gentle steps toward the first floor study.
The door was not tightly closed, and a little light could be seen from the corner of the stairs.
The golden light was particularly warm in the overall dark environment, which attracted me to go there.
The plush slippers rub against the high-grade carpet and make no noise. Even I don't know the sound of walking.
I got close to the light and heard someone talking inside.
The speaker is Huo Qingchuan. That's right. His tone is very low and gentle, just like the tone he used to speak to me.
"Well, well, I'm going to bed. It's getting late." The long lost man's full of human voice is very clear in the quiet night, and has no difficulty in getting into my ears.
He's the only one inside. Who is he calling.
"You go to bed early, too. There's an important meeting to prepare for tomorrow." The light in the study is no longer so warm, but some dazzling, as the man more gentle exhort.
Who says a soft knife can't hurt people? The softer his attitude is, the more painful my heart is.
No one is a fool. Only a fool can think that he is talking to an ordinary colleague.
Time so late, tone so soft, can let Huo Qingchuan such a phone that end, in the end is where beauty?
Chi Wan, who is that man? Don't you really know?
I know, but I don't want to admit it.
Seeing the man's back through the crack in the door, he moved the phone away from his ear, stared at the screen for a while, and then put down the book.
He got up, stretched, and was ready to turn.
I don't care about anger and heartbreak. I walk a few steps away from where I am. I don't want him to find me here. It's like I'm eavesdropping on his phone. This will make him look down on me more and more.
It's just that the more anxious people are, the more emergencies they have. Without taking a few steps, one of the inconvenient slippers fell off because of friction with the carpet.
Just enough, I can only stop, and then bounce in the past to wear shoes.
At this time, Huo Qingchuan came out with the door of his study and saw me.
The woman was trying to put on her own shoes, which seemed funny in his eyes. He came to me.
I've been preparing the draft all night. After hearing his soft words with women, I'm burned. Now I'm not in any mood to face this person.
"What are you doing here?" It was Huo Qingchuan who spoke first. His tone was quite different from that just now. He seemed to be questioning.
I put on my shoes, stood up straight, and compared with Huo Qingchuan's attitude before and after, I couldn't help feeling heartache, but I won't show it. I'm also a strong person in my heart.
"Can't I be here?" I quickly adjust my state and look at him with the most common expression“ I've lived here for a long time, and I don't need to report to you where I do anything. " I said.
Huo Qingchuan looked at me coldly. Of course, I didn't know what he was thinking. He just stood in front of me quietly and said nothing to my prickly response.
The air is frozen and the mood is dull.
It's also a good time. Just when we need a little chance to break the current embarrassment, Huo Qingchuan's mobile phone rings, indicating that the signal light that news comes in starts flashing.
He didn't look at the phone, his eyes were still on me.
Someone sent him a message so late. I think it's also the woman who just called.
"You're texting, aren't you reading?" I sneered to remind him.
Huo Qingchuan walked by me, as if he didn't listen to my sarcasm. "You're free. You don't have to tell me what you want to do."
Then he went up the stairs and left me alone in the dark living room.
I vaguely heard the sound of closing the door, and then the world was really quiet.
See, people can't expect miracles. The greater the hope, the greater the disappointment. It's true. Things may not go the way you want them to, but they always go against your expectations.
I want to cry, but also some want to laugh, which play of this life in the end will force people to live so embarrassed?