Chapter 23 - It Was Jealousy

>Maya

Yohan suddenly put his hand on his mouth as his expressions changed. He was trying to hide something, I could tell from his expressions.

Dark blood dripped down his chin and the situation felt oddly familiar.

Suddenly my head started to hurt.

“I-” He tried speaking again as he looked at me. It looked like he was having trouble doing so but more than that there was something else that made me nervous.

His eyes.

From green color they began to change to yellow and at the same time started glowing.

“Why are your eyes glowing?” I didn’t even think about the question, it just came out of my mouth and all of a sudden Yohan panicked.

He backtracked, turned and ran away. I saw him lose his balance for a split second, like he couldn’t see properly where he was running off too.

For some reason I felt like going after him but my headache didn’t let me. There was a sudden buzz in my brain that made me halt all of myself and for some reason I was getting more and more anxious by the second.

I looked down at the drops of blood.

Blood…

At that moment I realized what I had done. I slapped him. My heart became heavy at the thought. I can’t believe I harmed him physically but I don’t think I hit him hard enough to injure him. Did it?

Oh God...

I clenched my hand when somebody talked to me, “Wow. Was that how strong your relation was?” I turned my face to look at Roxy, “Can’t believe all it took was two lines from me to get you so insecure you ran away without hearing him out.” She scoffed at me, “This is why humans are untrustworthy. All you think about is yourself.”

There it was again.

Humans…

She used the word like she wasn’t one. Come to think of it. She’s not the only one. Ruda, Yohan and Quincy. All of them have used it like that.

I brought my fist next to my chest and held it with my other hand.

It felt so odd.

“I-” I actually had no words to say. What was I going to say to her? It’s your fault? Because you interrupted our dinner? “I-”

“You don’t have any words to justify yourself, do you?” She mocked me, “Of course you don’t. You assumed things on your own and you didn’t even listen to him even when he came to explain.”

Her words stung but she was right. I bit my lower lip. I did feel insecure. I looked down in shame.

I got jealous because she seemed so much more suited to be by his side.

“I called him a liar…” I spoke in a low voice.

“Oh yea you did and you even told him you hated him too. You were such a little bitch you didn’t even try to understand the situation. How much would that have hurt him. I can’t believe a guy like Yohan wants a bitch like you. Why don’t you just back off? You’ve already rejected him.”

As she said the words I shot my head up.

“No.” I glared at her.

She scoffed at me again, “No. You don’t deserve him. An insecure pussy like you.”

“You sure have some hateful words for me. It was you who ruined it.” I wondered why I was defending myself after doing all that?

She laughed, “That’s what kids do. Give others the blame. I may have interfered but the fault was entirely yours. YOU didn’t communicate. YOU acted like you were the victim. YOU assumed things and didn’t even bother to ask him about it and ran away. Then YOU called him a liar and even hit him.” She folded her arms while I started feeling a little pain in my chest, “And Yohan didn’t even raise his voice at you. He still wanted to explain despite your behavior. Do you still think you deserve him?”

As much as I hate her words. They were all true. So true that I began to see how much of a horrible person I was.

“I didn’t reject him.” I sniffled as I held back my tears. I don’t deserve to cry , “I like him.” I finally understood, I know what I did was wrong but I got jealous, felt insecure and wanted to avoid him because I had actually started to like him. I got scared all of the sudden and didn’t want to face the situation because I was afraid of it being the truth. “I really do…”

I looked at Roxy in the face, just then I felt something trickle down my philtrum.

I wiped it with my hand casually but when I looked down I noticed it was blood. I looked back up and saw Roxy just as surprised as me.

“Does it hurt somewhere in your body?” She asked.

“A little.”

She sighed, “I guess you both have bonded a bit…” She walked closer to me, “I don’t know the details and I don’t know how much you know but considering how he ran away in that situation I guess you’re not there yet.”

Not there yet? In that situation? Come to think of it again. It seemed like he was holding back something and I saw some blood too.

“Why?” I spoke, “Is something wrong with him?” I didn’t want to ask Roxy but she was my only choice at the moment.

“Has he told you something?” She talked rather normally with me.

“He said he has a disease and his cure is a person. Although that doesn’t make any sense.”

“I see. That’s how he told you.” Roxy placed her hand on her chin while the other was folded below as she stared off in a distance.

It’s here again.

That feeling.

Like there’s something missing. Something I don’t know.

“It can’t be true, right?”

“Oh it’s true alright.” She looked at me, “And we need to find him fast or his situation might get worse.”

“How?” I wanted to ask her about it more in detail but I feel that just like Yohan and Ruda, she won’t tell me either.

“I think I might know where he is.” She looked straight ahead, “You can run right?” She took off her heels and I immediately copied her action and took off my wedges.

“Yes!!” The pain I was feeling began to subside.

“Let’s go then!”