Chapter 24 - Confessions

I had never run so much and so fast in my life and I’m not gonna lie. I was at my limit by the time the forest came into view yet Roxy was perfectly fine. How can she be this fine?

I wanted to tell her to stop but it already felt like she was matching her pace with mine so I didn’t say anything but in the end I had to suffer the consequences of that.

At the road in front of the forest I ended up tripping and skidding against the rough surface. It scraped my elbows and knees a little but it hurt like hell.

“Owww,” I tried getting back up again when a hand offered me help. I looked up and saw Roxy standing there with her hand extending out for me to take.

“We’re almost there. His scent is strong here.” She said and I blinked at her weirdly.

“His scent is strong here?” I took her hand, “What are you, a dog?”

“...” She just turned her face away after I stood up and walked into the forest.

What the? Isn’t she going to say anything back? Weird.

I sighed and walked after her. Although my knees hurt I ignored the pain because there was someone I had to reach no matter what.

We walked into the forest and way far from the entrance Roxy stopped by a tree.

“There he is.” she said and I followed her gaze.

The whole forest had thick trees but there was one that was exceptionally big, lush and broad. It stood out by looking so majestic that even if Roxy didn’t point it out I would still look at it and find Yohan.

He was quietly sitting by the tree, leaning against the wood while staring at the sky. He looked defeated.

The moment I saw him I felt relieved and sorry. I wondered whether I deserved him or not.

I acted like an idiot and didn’t even consider his feelings. Actually I haven’t been considering his feelings at all.

From the start. All I did was doubt him. His words didn’t make sense but at the same time neither did his condition. There is something about him that just doesn’t have a proper answer but he did promise to tell me things.

“Aren’t you going?” I looked at Roxy who asked me the question.

I bit my lower lip while still trying to catch my breath. All the running had made my lungs burn.

If nothing else. I should at least apologize.

I nodded and walked ahead while she stood in her place.

The leaves crunched under my feet, the sound of which was heard by Yohan and he turned his head towards me.

Surprise was clear on his face and for a moment he wasn’t sure what to do but I felt like he was going to avoid me again and I didn’t want that.

“Yohan!” I called out to him and started running but at the same time my knees gave out, I was out of stamina and I had injured myself too so I ended up falling down and hurting myself even more.

Ow…

That hurt a lot.

I gathered my energy and lifted up my face only to find Yohan right in front of me. He was worried but still wary of me.

“Are you okay?” He crouched down in front of me but still kept his distance.

I didn’t like his wariness and even though I was tired I made up my mind and took a leap at him. Before he could back away I wrapped my arms around him, “I’m so sorry.” I apologized, “I’m really really sorry.” I hugged him tight, “I didn’t mean any of what I said.” I was holding him so tight that even I knew he could hear my heart beat.

For a few moments there was silence. The leaves rustled as the wind blew, it felt refreshing after that painstaking run.

Then I felt Yohan’s arm wrap around me.

“You mean that?” He asked softly.

“Yes.” I broke away and looked at him, “I said all that without thinking.” I felt tears build up in my eyes, “That was wrong of me. I’m really sorry I hurt you.”

He smiled, “It’s okay.” His words made me feel even more bad. He didn’t even ask me why I said all that. Why I hit him or anything! He was being gentle with me like usual and I felt even more horrible.

I really didn’t deserve him. How can someone be like that?

“Why aren’t you asking me anything? I even hit you.”

He averted his gaze and I felt like someone stabbed me in the chest, “It doesn’t matter.” He said but I knew he actually didn’t want to know because he didn’t fully believe me.

I’ve lost his trust...

The thoughts made my heart hurt even more and tears started flowing down my cheeks even though I was trying my best to hold them back.

“Hey!” He touched my face, “What’s wrong?” He got worried again. Why? Why is he like this? Someone who cares so much he’s overlooking horrible behaviour, “Do the injuries hurt?” He looked at my scraped skin, “It does look painful-”

“Don’t you hate me?”

He froze for a moment then looked back at me.

“What makes you think that?” He wiped my tears with his thumbs gently.

“I don’t know.” My breathing was still ragged but it had calmed down a lot and my voice was going back to normal, “But I don’t want you to hate me.” I held his shirt over his shoulders while he looked at me in disbelief. He gave himself to his thoughts and then asked.

“You don’t want me to hate you. Why?”

“Because I’ve started liking you.” I confessed. His eyes went wide in surprise and he was at a loss of words. “I felt insecure.” I slumped down on his chest as I further confessed, “I hated the fact that you went with your ex when the time belonged to the two of us.”

My heartbeat began to pound because of my confession.

I just told him I liked him but now I have no idea what to do.

“Maya-” Yohan put his hand on my head, “Do you really mean that?”

“...” He should be able to tell by how my heart is beating like crazy but I guess he wanted it out of my mouth, “I do...:” I said softly.

The next moment he hugged me tight. Tight enough that I could feel his heartbeat too.

“Then you won’t reject me will you?”

“Reject you?” I asked while my head was on his shoulder.

“If I confess something today. Will you accept that?” He asked and I felt strange. Was he talking about a flaw? Something he did?

I don’t know what it was but I wasn’t really that worried, maybe because it was about him.

I tried moving back but he didn’t let me and kept me in that position, “Yohan what is it?”

“Will you accept it?” He asked again, “It’s something you might find very strange.”

“I will.” I answered.

I mean how strange can it be?

“You won’t run away?”

Run away? What kind of confession was he going to give me to ask that?

“No.” His grip loosened and I broke the hug to look at him, “I won’t run away.” I smiled at him

He smiled back but I could sense the unsurety in his eyes, “Okay then.” He stood up along with me and stepped back. “What if I tell you. I’m not human.”

“...” I blinked at him in confusion then raised my brows at him, “Are you trying to play some prank on me?”

He snickered, “No.” He sighed lightly, “I’ll show you.”

I stood in my place as he went further back and began to strip down, “Ahhh…” I turned my head around, “What are you doing?”

“Showing you.”

“Getting naked is gonna show me what?”

I know I turned my head around but I was still sneaking glances and man! He really did strip all the way. When he was done I looked the other way pretending to be innocent and acted like I didn’t see that alpha body type.

“Look at me.”

????

What sort of a porn show?!?!

I was bewildered by his statement and panicked internally but then I noticed something strange and looked at him.

It wasn’t him anymore. It seemed like he was turning into someone else. I turned all of myself to look at him as fur grew on his body and the anatomy changed.

In a matter of split seconds the Yohan I knew was gone and there stood a wolf in front of me.

A beautiful wolf with green eyes and soft white clean fur.

Something began to buzz in my head and it suddenly started to hurt.

“This is my other form.” The voice clearly belonged to Yohan, “It’s what I am.” He was so big that his eye level was the same as mine.

My head began to throb as strange memories began to surface.

Memories of my parents death.

I could see flashes of them being killed.

Murdered by wolves.

Wolves who could turn into humans.

Yohan stepped closer and I stepped back in fear. There was something wrong. I was remembering stuff I didn’t know I had, “You- You’re a-?” My head began to hurt even more and it started becoming unbearable.

“I’m a werewolf.”

That was it. Those words.. Just as he said them something inside me snapped.