Chapter 234 - You Can Leave Me If You Are Not Comfortable.

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Esther realized she had low control over herself when she was with him. She couldn't help but moan, when his rough fingers rubbing her stomach smoothly through the thin layer of her nightgown, while his lips rubbing her neck and his hot breath fanning her skin making her feel irresistible. She couldn't help but moan loudly. Not able to bear the feather-like touches she turned around and hugged him tightly, surprising him. 

"I want you…." These three words left her soft and cherry lips. 

Esther felt like she was floating in the winds. She doesn't know what happened to her, but she felt she wanted him for that second. She wants to get marked by him and become his woman. Esther just knew that she was ready for him, she was ready to be marked by him. She was ready to become his woman. And just like how she was ready for him wholeheartedly, she said to him what she has in her mind. "I want you," she said. 

She did that, but again what if he doesn't want her. What if he doesn't like her? She was touched by that disgusting man. Would he take her? But he loved her. Again… every man's dream was to become his wife's first man in love life and sexual life. But he was not her first love or first man in sexual life. She nibbled her lower lip between her teeth. She could feel anxiety feeling all over her body. Can there be anything to redeem the things she did? Could she satisfy him? Or will he be satisfied with her? Can he ignore her shortcomings? Can Cyrus be comfortable with the fact that he wasn't her first? Esther has many questions in her mind. She felt her world was crumbling down when she realized he was silent from the moment she said those words. Poor Esther didn't know the effect she had on him. She was on the verge of crying. A lone tear escaped from her left eye. When she broke out a small sob she felt like someone lifting her in the air making her yelp in surprise. 

Cyrus felt like he was going to have a heart attack soon. This woman never fails to surprise him. She was like chilled beer he found in the hot summer desert. 

The beast inside him was screaming for him to take her and mark her as his. But his rational thoughts and her condition made him tie the beast with the strong unbreakable chains. But her actions managed to provoke the beast inside him. She tickled him with her like a feather making him unable to control. He thought there would be an end to it, but again, she managed to provoke the beast inside him who was tied with iron chains. But again… now she did something more than provoking him. That was breaking the chains of the beast. She unleashed the chains of the beast. Esther made him go crazy with just three words. Does she know the consequences of her words? But her shy posture, blushing face, and red ears told him otherwise. She was just a cute little innocent rabbit who was ready to be gobbled up by the big bad wolf. 

His wife was a strong one, but now she was the most vulnerable one. This woman doesn't know her every small action was a provocation to him. As a man, he couldn't control himself. Maybe he should take her. A small smile formed on his face. He lifted his shy woman in his arms in the bridal style, surprising her. Cyrus noticed she was crying. He didn't understand why she was crying? She was the one who asked him to do that. Did her mother ask her to sleep with him no matter what? Or does she feel pressured by him and said yes t0 him due to that? Many thoughts were running in their brains. Yet both don't know that they both were having misunderstandings against each other. Their love for each other was eternal but their thoughts were filled with stupidity. Or maybe this was why they say the people in love are stupid. 

Cyrus slowly walked forward and laid her on the bed. He settled himself beside her. "Esther…" he called out gently, he used the softest voice he could to call her. 

He was worried that she was missing Arthur. Cyrus felt a lump forming in his throat. Why was she making him an emotional mess like this? Cyrus just can't understand this woman who was surprising him all the while. 

"Esther… If you don'…." Before Cyrus could say further Esther sat up straight and hugged him tightly. And started sobbing in his arms. 

"What happened?" he asked as he patted her back. His touch was soothing her, it made her feel at ease. 

"If you are not comfortable with me doing that it's ok, I can understand. I know you are not my first man. But you don't have to be uncomfortable with me," Esther said, sobbing hard. 

Cyrus stilled in his position. A smile crept on his face. Cyrus never thought his wife was mulling over things in a different way. She was thinking of him. His heart swelled with joy. She was his woman duh… For real, he never thought that she would be crying because of her insecurities. He needs to break them. He opened his mouth to say something but his words were cut off by her as she continued. 

"I know…  I am tainted by him. But for once I want to be selfish. I also want to be loved and cherished by you. After being divorced I never thought… I could find someone who could love me and pamper me. I always thought acting like a hedgehog would drive you away. But as days passed… I didn't notice that I fell for you. The thought of you being in another woman's arms made my blood boil." She said,