After Yin Shuai left, Ji Ze could hardly open his eyes. He went back to the bedroom, and in the living room, only Lin Ya and I were left.
Originally, it was very natural, but since Ding Ge said those words, I really didn't know how to get along with lin ya. Staying in the room with both of them, my mind was no longer relaxed.
I really don't like it!
I hate it!
Lin Ya frowned and asked me, "What's wrong with you?"
"It's okay."
Lin Ya sat down on the sofa and didn't mean to leave. She sighed sadly and said, "Why hasn't Ding Ge come here recently? I wonder how she's doing with her driving?"
I don't know either. There seems to be too much going on between us. The topic of learning to drive has already reached a very backward position.
This is not what I imagined.
It turned out that I thought this was the last time before Ding Ge and I got married. It would be full of happiness and sweetness, and it would be very precious. Even if she lived at home and didn't live with us, we would miss each other very much, instead of being so conflicted, as if there were mountains between us.
"She's fine anyway. It's okay to practice more."
Thinking of Ding Ge, his heart was no longer warm, but a sense of oppression.
"Well, I'm tired, girl, so I'll go to bed first."
I pressed my forehead, pretending to be tired, but I wasn't sleepy at all.
Lin Ya gave me a strange look, but she didn't think much about it. She thought I was tired from drinking, so she nodded and stood up.
After Lin Ya left, I went back to my bedroom to rest.
But the alcohol wasn't enough to numb my nerves. My mind was full of images, like a fast-moving movie.
I think we should go to Ding Ge tomorrow, find her, and talk to her in peace.
...
The next morning, Yin Shuai came to pick up ji ze.
I sat in my room and hesitated for a long time before sending ding ge a wechat message.
Let's meet tonight.
Not long after, Ding Ge replied.
See you at the Eleven bar tonight.
It was the Eleven bar again, and I had a headache. I immediately replied, "Can you change places?"
It's the same everywhere.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Even though ding ge was sending text messages, I could feel the coldness of her typing.
Although the atmosphere of the Eleven bar is quite good, but it is also xiao jing and xiao nan Xiaoyu's territory, I really don't want to see them.
However, I know Ding Ge's temper very well. She is so stubborn that I have to agree if I don't agree.
At night, I came to the Eleven bar alone again.
Can dinger and I have a good talk here?
I gritted my teeth and felt a chill in my palm. I clenched my fist again and took a few deep breaths before entering the Eleven bar.
In the bar, I didn't see Ding Ge, nor did I see Xiaojing and the others. Isn't Ding Ge here yet?
I called Ding Ge.
I said I was already at the bar.
Ding Ge said she would come out immediately.
Soon, Ding Ge came out. She was at the bar. When I saw ding ge standing in front of me, I almost couldn't recognize her. I stood there in shock, my eyes narrowed and I was speechless.
Ding Ge was no longer a wavy blonde. She had her braids tied up, but the braids were very high. The ends of her hair became like Xiaojing's. They were all different colors.
What shocked me most was the makeup on Ding Ge's face. Her makeup was very thick and thick, just like the clown girl in the movie. Her eyes were very heavy, and there were some bright spots at the corners of her eyes. Her lips seemed to be covered with bright lipstick. Under the blue light, her face had an indescribable charm.
This was not Ding Ge's style at all. She had never put on makeup like this before. It was so unlike her. If I hadn't been so familiar with that face, I wouldn't have believed it was Ding Ge.
"Why are you dressed like this?" I asked in disbelief, and at the same time, my heart was filled with mixed emotions.
"What's wrong? Is there a problem?" Ding Ge asked with his eyes wide open.
"It's not like you at all!"
Honestly, I don't know if it was Ding Ge who made me look like this on purpose. I always felt like she was punishing me and trying to make me angry.
"It's just a change of style." Ding Ge said lightly.
"Come with me." Ding Ge said to me again.
With that, she led me to a booth. It seemed that she was very familiar with this place. She and xiaojing should come here often.
Ding Ge sat down first, and I sat down opposite her.
I looked at Ding Ge and felt that she was so strange. To be honest, Ding Ge's makeup was not good, especially under the light. It was even more frightening. I really couldn't understand why she was like this.
Looking at her in this outfit made me feel very uncomfortable, and my heart was in a mess. I wanted to talk to her calmly, but now I couldn't calm down at all.
"Ding Ge, are you deliberately punishing me?" I couldn't help but ask.
"You think too much. Why should I punish you?" Ding Ge put his hands on the table and said faintly, "It's just trying something new. I know you're not used to it, and I'm not used to it myself."
"It's not good for you to do this." I said sadly.
Ding Ge leaned back, crossed his legs, and said unhappily, "Are you here to quarrel with me, Xing Yun? Are you here to tell me this?"
After a pause, Ding Ge added, "This is me. I used to be me. I'm still me now. If you really can't accept it, just tell me."
The corner of my mouth was bitter, and I looked in the other direction of the bar, but my heart felt like a needle was pricked.
I don't understand. What happened to Ding Ge?
"Have you thought about what I told you?" Ding Ge asked me again, her tone a little cold.
Listening to her, even in a fully heated bar, I felt cold all over.
I looked at Ding Ge and her eyes, but under the blue light, I couldn't see her beautiful eyes clearly.
"Do you remember what made me think it through?" I asked, heartbroken.
"Of course I remember." Ding Ge looked straight at me and said without thinking, "You and the girl will never see each other again."
"Ding Ge, are you really going to make this decision?"
Ding Ge turned his head away.
"If I agree to your request, then can you agree to my request?"
"What request?"
"Cut off contact with xiaojing, Xiao nan and Xiaoyu!" I gritted my teeth and said.
Ding Ge stared at me in a daze, her eyes flashing with lightning, and I could feel the anger that gushed out of her. After a while, she shook her head and replied decisively, "I can't do it!"
"Why not?" I suppressed my anger and said as calmly as I could, "If I can never see a girl I've known for many years, why can't you cut them off? How long have you known each other, Ding Ge? Not even a month?"
I really want to know how deep Ding Ge's relationship with them is.
However, after hearing what I said, Ding Ge asked, "How many times did you fall in love with me?"
I froze, not knowing how to answer.
The answer, of course, was clear enough. From the first time I saw Ding Ge, I fell in love with her. She was dressed in white like snow and not stained with dust. She stood quietly under the tree, like a beautiful painting. Her black hair was gently fluttering in the wind like a waterfall.
But at this moment, Ding Ge, like another person, or Ding Ge's other personality, was completely different from the first time she saw her.
Can people really change so completely?
Or rather, Ding Ge, who was as meek as a deer, had a wild and rebellious heart in his heart.
However, if I answer like this, it seems that I have jumped into Ding Ge's trap.
I replied feebly, "This is different."
"Why is it different? Love has nothing to do with time, Xing Yun."
I don't know how to refute Ding Ge.
After a while, Ding Ge asked again, "Besides, why did you ask me to break up with xiaojing? I don't think you should interfere with my freedom to make friends."
"Because they are pushing us further and further away from each other. Without them, we would be the same as before, without any conflicts. But now, they seem to exist just to sabotage our relationship."
"You're wrong, Xing Yun. If there's nothing wrong with our relationship, no one can break it." Ding Ge retorted again.
I opened my mouth, but I didn't know how to refute Ding Ge at all. Ding Ge's reaction was so fast that she could always catch my words quickly, but to refute her, I had to think hard!
I held my head in pain and gasped for air. I didn't expect that the conversation would only get worse if we just sat down with Ding Ge and fought like this.
So, I wanted to slow down. I asked her, "I went to our new house. You bought all those things."
Ding Ge nodded gently and glanced aside.
I suddenly didn't know what to say.
The two of them were silent. I just felt like every cell in my body was carrying something. My heart was heavy and depressed.
"Ding Ge, I really don't want to be like this. I'm in pain." My nose is sore and I'm very sad.
I really want to hold Ding Ge in my arms. Even if they don't say a word, their hearts are sweet and warm.
"Neither do I."
Ding Ge bit his lip and replied.
"Then can we stop arguing?"
"I didn't want to argue with you."
"Then you can come back with me, okay?" I looked at Ding Ge nervously.
However, Ding Ge still shook his head resolutely.
My heart was throbbing again. I asked her in puzzlement, "Why, why must I choose between you and the girl? Weren't we fine before?"
"You haven't told me the answer yet?"
Can you tell me why? Why?" I asked excitedly again.
Ding Ge turned to look at the bustling crowd in the bar. Although it was clear, the crowd was also very noisy at this time, and men and women showed ambiguous eyes under the light.
"Did you see them?" Ding Ge asked.
I frowned and didn't understand what Ding Ge was trying to say.
Ding Ge's eyes were still on the men and women, and her voice was a little sad. She said slowly, "This bar is a Eleven bar, hoping that those single men and women can make friends here. But who knows which one of these people is single and which one is not single? And how many of these people are truly friends, and how many of them want an irresponsible affair?"
Marriage is like a glass of water. It's very plain. We can't live without water, but we drink water all day. Who doesn't want to drink coke and sprite? Marriage will eventually be flat, and the pursuit of excitement may never be extinguished. So, I think marriage is especially unreliable, not to mention the existence of a bomb seed around me."
Ding Ge's words became more and more incomprehensible to me.
She continued, "In the past, I didn't really care about you and the girl. We were able to get along very well. Even if you were closer to the girl than most people, I wouldn't feel anything. But after we get married, I think you will be as close as you used to be, after all, the relationship between you is so good. But after we get married, Xing Yun, our relationship will definitely become as flat as any couple, and the best thing is to never get it. By then, the girl will be more and more attractive to you, and you have so much time to get along with each other, I really can't imagine, one day, will you..."
Ding Ge's words made my hair stand on end. I wondered why she thought so.
I also disagree with her words.
Ding Ge and I, we love each other so much. Even if it's not easy to get married and spend the rest of our lives together, I will definitely work hard to run our marriage. I think Ding Ge will take good care of our family with me.
But now, she's just imagining what Lin Ya and I are like. She seems to have nothing but worry and fear about our future, no yearning and expectation.
I asked Ding Ge, "Don't you believe me?"
"It's not that I don't believe you, Xing Yun." Ding Ge said, "I don't believe in human nature!"
Human nature?
It's too deep. Can it be so deep?
"People will make mistakes, let alone have a girl who is very likely to make you make mistakes stay by your side. Lin Ya is so beautiful, ten men and nine hearts. You can control it now. Can you control it in the future?"
"We've known each other for so many years. Is there any connection between us?"
"All right, Xing Yun. I don't want to say that much." Ding Ge seemed to be tired. After a while, she pressed her forehead and said, "Do you agree or not?"
I really don't understand why Ding Ge doesn't trust me so much. Why is she so sensitive to lin ya all of a sudden?
I asked reluctantly, "Ding Ge, even if I agree, what about you, you and the girl? What about you two?"