Chapter 32

Now I'm chatting with him. Shunian feels like chatting with his psychologist Wang Yue. Talk to him, he timely to her some correct guidance, give her encouragement, let her mood slowly calm down.

But it seems a little different.

Shunian has seen it on the Internet and often goes to see a psychologist.

Because I have no reservation for the psychologist, I feel that only he can understand himself. When I stay with him, I will feel very relaxed, and then I will ferment a special emotion.

It's not the kind of feeling between doctors and patients, it's more inclined to be between men and women, which will make people feel confused.

Shunian never felt like this in Wang Yue, but at this moment, she felt as if she had found it in Xie Ruhe. It's an emotion that makes her mind blank and doesn't know how to react.

It's the emotion that she felt for the first time after living so long.

Shunian asked hesitantly, "I'm looking for you "I don't know."

Xie Ruhe raised his hand and hesitated to stop for two seconds. Then he continued to lift it up, touched her head like comfort, and firmly repeated: "well, you can find me."

You used to light up my world.

Now that you have fallen into the abyss, even if I am in danger, I am willing to spare no effort to save you from it.

I'd like to give you my light and give it back to you with both hands.

Xie Ruhe didn't let shunian send him. He asked Fang Wencheng to help him down. He stood at the end of the stairs and said goodbye to her: "let's set off fireworks next time."

Shunian nodded slightly: "OK, goodbye."

She looked at their backs, lowered her eyes and brought in the bucket at the door.

Shunian squatted down against the door, holding his legs in his hands, a little absent-minded. I don't know what I'm thinking. For a long time, she suddenly stood up and went back to the room barefoot.

I soon remembered that it was too late now, so I lightened the noise all at once.

She took a quick bath in the bathroom with her clothes in her arms, and her head seemed to be stirred by the paste with pink bubbles. There was no longer that kind of fear.

I just feel that I am filled with everything else, and my heart is full and full.

When shunian covers his face, the hot water slides down from his head. It cleanly washes away all the negative emotions and washes away his thoughts in an instant.

She thought of Xie Ruhe again.

Short hair, black peach eyes, dense and long eyelashes, like crow feathers, straight nose, lips like petals. When you speak seriously, you will keep your eyes closed, as if you are discharging electricity, and your lips will also bend slightly.

He is thin and tall, and his temperament is noble and outstanding.

It's a little nice.

Isn't it a little good-looking.

Shunian put on his clothes and went back to the room while wiping his head with a towel. Because just after the bath, the water drops down the end of the hair, the face is white, and the two sides are stained with light powder.

She sniffed and whispered, "good looking."

The soft sound melted into the air in the quiet room.

The book reads the instant to return to God, after realizing oneself said what, suddenly throw the towel in the hand aside. She raised her head in silence and hammered her forehead hard.

Does she have a strong desire for Xie Ruhe

"Don't think about it." The tone of the book read stuffy, and then stressed like repeated, "don't think."

Shunian doesn't want to make himself think, so he just wants to find something to do. She picked up the script on the bedside table, marked her lines with a fluorescent pen and read it: "how could this man exude such a deadly attraction..."

“……” Shunian pursed his lips, turned a page and continued to mark, "Sisi, I like a friend of mine. What should I do?"

"Shunian".... "

She put on her cap, fell back, buried her face in the pillow, and pushed her feet against the air. After a long time, reading stopped, a little at a loss.

Shunian picked up his mobile phone, checked "what to do if you like your good friend" on the Internet, and saw a row of negative answers. She immediately stepped back and recalled the picture.

She pauses and hesitates to change the word "good friend" to "psychiatrist.".

Most of the answers are due to empathy, finding support when vulnerable, relying on their own psychiatrist, or misunderstanding this emotion as love.

Shunian digested these words.

She breathed, did not continue to read these contents, conveniently opened wechat. Then I found that Xie Ruhe had sent her several wechat messages -

"I'll come to you now."

"What's the matter with you?"

"I'm at your door."

Shunian licked his lips. He didn't know what to return.

Notice that there is a red dot in the address book. The book opens subconsciously. It's a friend application. She looked at the information, and the person on the picture was Xu Zeyuan. She remarked, "shunian, I'm Xu Zeyuan. I want to talk to you."Her eyes stopped for a second and went straight back. Then he replied to Xie Ruhe: "be careful on the way."

It has been more than a month since I last saw Xu Zeyuan.

I almost forgot about him. She thinks that he is now well-known, and he should have a lot of things to do every day, so he should not contact her again.

But he came to her again.

Shunian didn't quite understand him.

When he first entered school, shunian's first impression of him was actually very poor. I feel that he is lazy, careless and playful. He always appears beside her inexplicably and says some inexplicable words.

Later, I told her that I liked her very much when I saw her for the first time.

But always with other girls to maintain a near attitude, ambiguous like everywhere merciful, rain and dew. Shunian doesn't like him very much, and always thinks that he is not a serious person.

She always talked straight and straight, and she didn't know how to use euphemism when she refused. Xu Zeyuan was hit hard and stopped for a while.

It will be some time before I see Xu Zeyuan again.

That day, shunian came out of the library. It was raining heavily outside. She was trying to leave with an umbrella, but she heard him calling her, telling her that he didn't bring an umbrella.

Shunian hesitated and decided to send him back.

Along the way, Xu Zeyuan didn't speak much. Shunian has nothing to say. She plans to lend him her umbrella. The girls' dormitory is not far away. She just runs back.

But the next moment, Xu Zeyuan immediately tilted the umbrella and put it all on her head.

His body was exposed to the rain again, washed away by the rain.

Let her think of the original Xie Ruhe.

Also think of the original what do not want to be clear, just rely on some details to draw conclusions on their own, a bit judge people by their appearance, all of a sudden to put a bad label on good people themselves.

Shunian felt that he had made this mistake again in Xu Zeyuan.

She had a depressing reflection for a while.

After that, shunian changed his attitude towards Xu Zeyuan, no longer resisting him as before, and gradually became friends with him. Through getting along with each other, she found that she had misunderstood him before.

He is actually a big boy who likes to play.

For other girls will grasp the appropriate degree, in serious things will also take seriously.

In the second semester of his sophomore year, Xu Zeyuan confessed to her again.

Shunian doesn't know whether he likes him or not, but the feeling of staying with him is not disgusting and comfortable. She thought about it for a long time and finally agreed.

A boy insisted on chasing her for nearly two years.

There will always be times when the heart is soft.

Shunian didn't know whether her decision was right or not, but at that time, she really took the relationship seriously. She always thought that after falling in love, their relationship would not change much.

But she forgot that there would be intimate behavior between lovers.

If you don't adapt to reading, you will feel embarrassed. Because of this, she took the initiative to talk with Xu Zeyuan once.

Xu Zeyuan indicated that he did not mind and was willing to go step by step.

In less than half a year, Xu Zeyuan broke up with her.

This sudden breakup, for shunian at that time, was just another salt sprinkled on the torn wound. For her, it was almost numb.

This short love also told her a fact.

Xu Zeyuan didn't like her as much as he had shown before. Otherwise, she would not choose to retreat when she fell to the bottom.

So when he comes to find himself, he can't figure out the reason.

But the appearance of this person, also let her just to Xie Ruhe out of a little spark restrain.

Shunian looked at Xie Ruhe's reply, and he was stunned.

Xie Ruhe: "OK, go to bed early."

She didn't reply.

Whether it's a misunderstanding or a fact, it's not what she should think about now. She should not harm anyone until she is well. Besides, it was Xie Ruhe.

She's her best friend.

On the way back.

Xie Ruhe didn't look as gentle as he was in front of shunian. There was a faint depression between his eyebrows and eyes. He looked at the scene of running backward outside the window. He exudes a very intolerable emotion.

Fang Wencheng drove in silence and did not dare to speak.

After a while, Xie Ruhe said in a low voice, "go and check what happened to shunian before."

Before waiting for Fang Wen to answer, Xie Ruhe suddenly remembers the conversation he just had with shunian.

"What's the matter with you today?"

"Can I not say it?"

It's something she doesn't want others to know.

I don't want him to know.

Xie Ruhe's masseter muscles are tight and his facial features are straight. The appearance is buried in the dark, and it seems to be very sad because of the light and shadow outside the window.Fang Wencheng nodded and said, "OK."

Xie Ruhe closed his eyes, his voice was dumb and frustrated: "forget it."

Fang Wencheng nodded again and didn't ask more: "good."

Calm down in the car.

After a while, Fang Wencheng hesitated and mentioned something: "young master, your grandfather called and said that your father is seriously ill. I hope you can come and see him."

“……” Xie Ruhe's eyelids moved, as if he hadn't heard this character for a long time, and suddenly raised his eyes. He hooked the corner of his lips, peach blossom eyes slightly Yang: "my father?"

Fang Wencheng said, "yes."

Xie Ruhe put away his smile in an instant. His voice was as cold as an ice skate. He was sharp and merciless. He could easily split people's skin and flesh, which was extremely thin and cool.

"He's not dead yet."