Chapter 80

This time, Xie Ruhe heard the words of shunian clearly, and the original trace of sleepiness was intended to disappear at this moment. His lips opened, and some of his fluffy hair curled up, like a few dull hairs.

Without waiting for him to make any response, the reading seemed to be difficult to follow, and it seemed to slip in along the gap between Xie Ruhe and the doorframe.

The temperature of the air conditioner in this room is very low, like two worlds outside. Xie Ruhe doesn't have the habit of turning on the light when he sleeps. It's cold and dark inside.

Shunian walks to Xie Ruhe's bedside with the light from outside, and climbs up in silence.

Xie Ruhe is still standing by the door.

Late at night, she came suddenly.

Xie Ruhe had no idea how to react. He felt that he was dreaming. His brain was blank. The first thought that comes out of my mind is that I'm afraid of the dark when I study.

The next moment, Xie Ruhe reached out and turned on the light switch.

The light is yellowish white, bright like sunlight.

Shunian wore a beige Nightgown of cotton and hemp, the length of which was over the knee. She was afraid of going out, and deliberately pulled the skirt. She climbed to the wall and covered herself with a quilt.

Xie Ruhe quietly closed the door and locked it.

The room is not big, the narrow space seems to enlarge the atmosphere at the moment, and also clear some small, imperceptible movements.

Door lock "Ding" a sound, the wind outside gently beat to the sound of the window, two people exhaled breath.

Later, Xie Ruhe went to the bedside table, picked up the remote control, and raised the temperature of the air conditioner. "Do you feel cold?" he asked in a low voice

Shunian gave a vague hum.

The room fell into endless silence again.

After lowering the temperature, Xie Ruhe still stood in the same place and did not lie on the bed. He looked down at the remote control in his hand and didn't know what he was thinking.

Half of shunian's face was buried in the quilt, looking in his direction secretly.

I can only see his side face, which is soft dyed by the light, wearing casual and clean clothes. There's nothing like him in the dream.

If there is parallel space-time.

If the parallel time and space in the book read like a dream as the choice.

Now, Xie Ruhe in the parallel space-time.

Are you still looking for traces of Zeng Yuanxue, or have you left the world quietly in that house with despair and destruction.

I always feel that death is the greatest liberation for myself, including others.

I feel that I can't go on, so I choose to die, and then I have no consciousness. Whether she is happy or not, or whether he is sad or not, it has nothing to do with her.

I don't know what will happen later.

Do not know, in fact, the living people, the pain is not less than the dead people.

Shunian's nose was sour. He pulled off the quilt and asked in a low voice, "why don't you sleep?"

Xie Ruhe licked his lips, raised his hand and scratched his head in a low voice.

"Sleep."

After a few seconds, Xie Ruhe slowly went to bed.

He looked at the pillow he was leaning against, remembered the situation before, hesitated and consciously put the pillow on his side between them.

"Xie Ruhe." Shunian didn't pay much attention to his actions, and suddenly said, "I just had a dream."

Aware of her emotions, Xie Ruhe didn't ask her what she had dreamt, but comforted her: "all dreams are false."

"When I wake up, I know it's fake." Shunian stares at the ceiling. "In the past, he always had some bad dreams. When he wakes up, he knows it's false, but somehow he starts to be afraid. He's afraid that these things will come true one day in the future."

"No," Xie Ruhe said seriously

"But after I woke up this time, I only felt, fortunately, it was a dream, fortunately, it was a fake, fortunately I can stop this from happening. " Shunian sniffed, "it's the first time I've felt this way."

Smell speech, Xie Ruhe looks at her.

"I'm sorry." Shunian raised his eyes and suddenly sat up. "I said that to you today."

She had a bad time.

Because the shame and inferiority feeling brought by other people's words entangled her like a vine and eroded her reason. It's so painful that I want to use my life to pay off the debt that doesn't exist.

I think it's good for each other.

But also forget, Xie Ruhe's mother, with her suffered the same thing.

He lost his mother because of Zeng Yuanxue.

It's going to be unbearable. It's going to happen a second time.

Xie Ruhe reached for her head and did not speak.

"I'll take good care of it in the future." Shunian pursed his lips and said seriously, "I won't refuse what the doctor asked me to do and the treatment plan I want to do because I'm afraid."“……”

"I'll try not to care about what others say, and I won't hide from you like before." Shunian raised his head and looked at Xie Ruhe. She clenched her fist and said what she wanted to say:

"I want to live with you like a normal person."

I want to be with you.

Live like a normal person.

Live in this, not particularly beautiful, but still a beautiful world.

Xie Ruhe looked down at her face, then grasped her hand and slowly, slowly loosened her clenched fist. He bent his lips, his voice low and hoarse.

"Good."

This night.

Shunian told Xie Ruhe a lot about the past.

He told him that when he met Zeng Yuanxue in court, he didn't repent of his behavior. Even in the face of lawyers and judges, he is still outspoken.

I feel so sorry that I haven't sent the book to die.

Because of this sentence of Zeng Yuanxue.

After his death, recalling his expression when he said this sentence, shunian always felt that he would come back at any time, and would jump out of a corner at any time to fill his regret.

Tell him that he can understand what happened when Xu Zeyuan broke up, but he can't forgive. Because he chose to be alone at the beginning of the behavior, let her have a shadow. Therefore, I will worry that Xie Ruhe may choose to abandon her one day.

But this time his behavior, only causes her to be unable to understand, also cannot forgive.

The boy who was born in a well-off family, because he was the only child, was endlessly favored by his parents. From small to large, he was praised by adults because of his achievements and appearance.

Should be a little arrogant, but kind boy.

It's what it is now.

Shunian doesn't know why Xu Zeyuan is like this.

It seems that after meeting again, he seems to have changed a lot.

He would angrily and impatiently pull her wrist, yell at her, and let her listen to her; he thought that she was with Xie Ruhe for money, and scolded Xie Ruhe for being lame; he even put aside all his upbringing and said some hard words to her.

Maybe it's because he chose a bad way.

When he was splashed with mud that could not be washed off, he met shunian again.

I thought that something like that happened at the beginning. He didn't choose to walk side by side with shunian. I think her life now is probably very bad. But unexpectedly found that she had a good life, there is a better person than him.

Will feel the pain, inferiority and self loathing to the extreme.

I feel like I made the wrong choice.

So I want to find the original choice again, and I want to pull her into it.

Even by any means, I want to do it.

Finally, shunian tells Xie Ruhe that he is not happy. Because he had rejected her offer to see his grandfather.

Will feel that he has not yet determined the relationship between the two.

But I didn't dare to mention it to him.

Hearing this, Xie Ruhe was a little stunned and at a loss. He probably didn't notice it at all. Mention this, his tone with a little blunt: "not unwilling, I am still angry with my grandfather."

“……”

"So I don't want to take you back in this situation."

Shunian said, "Why are you angry?"

"What happened to you." Xie Ruhe paused and said without expression, "he didn't tell me."

Hearing this, shunian whispered, "is it because you had an accident at that time? But at that time, grandfather Ji called me

Xie Ruhe raised his eyes.

"He told me that he would help me deal with my information leaked from the Internet." Shunian recalled, "so at that time, it would not have spread as widely as it is now."

“……”

"He also transferred money to me." Shunian rubbed his eyes, "but I can't take his money. I'll turn it back."

Xie Ruhe was speechless.

Shunian said seriously, "grandfather Ji is very good. Don't be angry with him."

Xie Ruhe was silent for a few seconds and vomited: "after a while, I'll take you back to see him."

As soon as he said this, he raised his long eyelashes, blinked, raised his head and gave him a happy kiss on the lips. It's not the first time that she has done this kind of thing. This time, she is quite proficient, and her strength is not great.

I won't knock his teeth again.

After the attack, the strength of reading came up all at once.

She moved a few inches back and got into the quilt again. Her voice came out from inside. It sounded stuffy: "it's time to go to bed."

Xie Ruhe still stayed in place, did not move.

After a while, he licked his lips, peach eyes a little more dark, canthus dyed a little red. He stretched out his hand, across the quilt, like a hunter lurking in the dark, slowly pulled the book over.Shunian's head is still hidden in the quilt: "what are you pulling me to do..."

Xie Ruhe didn't say a word, pulled her whole person into his arms, and then pulled the quilt off her head. No time gap, no time to give her a little reaction, directly kiss up.

Two people's breath blend, bright yellow light sprinkles on them, the shadow intertwines into a ball.

Very close distance, real feeling.

Shunian was a little out of breath, and his throat made a whine.

His hand was gradually raised to his chest.

Shunian forgot to close his eyes. The light brown eyes reflected Xie Ruhe's appearance. His forehead was smooth and full, his eyebrows drooped, and he did not meet her eyes.

It's close, it can't be closer.

Then, Xie Ruhe's eyes lifted, as if to notice her sight.

She raised her hand and covered her eyes with one hand.

Shunian immediately closed his eyes.

Beautiful and ambiguous interior.

Everything was like a fuse, the night, the light, the atmosphere, her sudden kiss.

Xie Ruhe's lips move down, warm touch across her earlobe, stop at the neck, leaving shallow traces.

The breath is like a shape, touching every corner of her body.

Gentle, confused, and as if with comfort.

His hand touched her, and her fingertips were so cold that she couldn't help shrinking back. Shunian had never experienced such intimate things before. His eyes were full of misty water.

Because of this strange touch, the consciousness of reading suddenly sobered up a little, red face, seize his hand, but not refuse words, soft voice, with trembling meaning: "turn off, turn off the light."

Xie Ruhe's Adam's apple is sliding up and down, his eyes are stained with scarlet, and his mood is like the waves.

"I'm afraid of the dark." He said in a hoarse voice, "you can't turn off the lights."