Chapter 79 - 79. 13th Of Every Month

I smiled happily when I heard what he said, seeing his sparkling eyes. certainly is a rare thing, his love is so great and his affection is so extraordinary. is there anything better than that? the world is sometimes unfair, taking what we need most at this time.

Looking at Edwards who was so sweet when he smiled, made me realize that he did have a good character. It's Just his Circumstances made it useless. Making him feel lost, I want to make him have a purpose again. But how? He was too far away for me to reach. There was a fairly high and thick barrier between me and Edwards.

"Your mother must be happy to see you today. You grew up well and became a good man. You are a child she is proud of." I said quietly, Edwards just sighed. He shook his head and chose to lean his back against the edge of the sofa.

"I think my mother is sad right now, seeing a different me from time to time. I can only be silent in this situation and trapped in the darkness. Crying every night and only able to remember memories with her in every dream. I want to go back, back when I was her kid When my mother is here and always hugs me tightly, I don't find the warmth of her hug anymore." Edwards looked at me, he seemed to tell me he needed that same warmth. The warmth that his mother gave him in the past.

So I wonder, since when did he leave his mother? what was the kidnapping case?

"Edwards, did your mother leave when you were a kid?" I asked Cautiously, I could see the fear in his eyes. Even if it's just a glance, it's clear.

"Yes, when I was kidnapped. That's when my mother was killed and left me, you know Choon-hee? Actually on the day of the kidnapping my mother and I were on vacation together. Daddy said he would follow us, but in fact he didn't follow us. But he just married Mommy Anne, And left me and my mother. They thought I was dead with my mother, Until in the end you saved me." I immediately fell silent hearing what Edwards said at this time.

That bad Mr and Mrs Douglas? But why does Edwards still look fine for now? Why does he look still calm and affectionate to his parents now?.

I still want to ask something else, but I deliberately lock my mouth tightly. I don't want to question things I can't ask. especially about his past which is certainly very complicated.

"Oh I see, don't you feel hurt? When you talk about your mother? About the day you found out the harsh reality?" I said quietly, Edwards just shook his head and smiled again. A smile that hurts so much.

"I'm quite okay, Trying to close past memories. But indeed, the side effects of what I did, Made me have an acute trauma. I live in harsh reality, making everything seem stuck in the past. That's why do you see another side of me, don't you? what do you think? about me who is not as perfect as you imagine?." Edwards question is still the same, he wants to hear the vocational from my mouth.

But I don't have the right words to make her mood better.

"Can you recover yourself?"Out of many Questions, I asked something Edwards would probably never know. I'm stupid huh?

"I don't know, I often go to the doctor and check all the conditions I feel. But it all comes back to myself, I still don't want to forget my past. That's why I'm still stuck in the trauma and can relapse at any time." He said honestly.

"Sometimes? Is it on a certain date? because this morning I heard Mr. Douglas say, That it's time for you to act like this morning. I mean..." I was confused myself what to say, Edwards who knows what. can smile and hold my hand well.

"Yes, on the 13th every month, which is the date on which I was kidnapped and lost my mother, on every this date I will behave strangely and can't control myself. However, there is something strange about this day, because usually I will be sick for a whole day . But today?" Edwards hung up on him, which only made me more curious.

"But why today? Did something happen?" I asked a little demanding.

"Today I'm not really sick, I feel the warmth you gave. Made me realize at the right time, I remember everything I did to you. I remember when you gently stroked my head and said I'm a good boy, You act like my mom." What Edwards said, of course, made me even more confused.

"Would you like to be by my side every month? On the 13th? I can always stroke your hair and say you're a good boy, I can hug you tight and give you the warmth your mother used to give." I got up from my seat and walked towards Edwards, I hugged Edwards neck from behind him and kissed his cheek gently.

Edwards seemed to laugh softly and then kissed my back on the cheek, I couldn't help but smile amused because of the wetness from his lips. "What if it turns out you left me?" Edwards asked.

"Why should I leave you? Wasn't it you who told me to leave before? Maybe after this you were the one who told me to leave." I said casually, I just wanted to know how Edwards would react to the Question I asked.

"About yesterday? I even felt that you were a little disturbed by my attitude that was too chasing after you, that's why I decided to just end our work relationship. But I didn't know that Mommy Anne actually brought you here, I'm sorry about that. I I really didn't mean to do anything stupid to you, I just thought that you were just like everyone else. Will leave when I see all the flaws in me." Such a sad phrase, I almost shed tears hearing what Edwards said.

"I see. Now how about we go out for a walk? Have you showered? Take a shower first, I want to eat alot of food after this. It feels like eating chocolate pudding alone can't make my stomach full. How do you think?" I wiped the tears that flowed, hearing my words Edwards immediately nodded and got up quickly.

He carried me like a baby, then led me to the bathroom. "We'll shower and making love roughly! I miss you.." Edwards said it very loudly, it made me laugh out loud and we really had a hot romance in the shower.