Chapter 145 - 145. Love And Pain

Sometimes when we fall in love, we have to give a lot. Hurt deeper and hope for something that may not be real. Yesterday, when I wasn't in love yet. I feel my life is fine, feel that the world is just spinning around.

Now, when I look up at the sky once again. while holding my husband's hand, I feel that the world is so wide with all the beauty in it. Taking a deep breath of Edwards' body, I wanted to feel all these flavors every day. because I believe I have fallen in love, in love with the person I have longed for from the start. All the flaws in Edwards were many, but those flaws made me feel comfortable and eager to be by his side.

"Do you want to continue like this? Don't you want to go have breakfast together?" Edwards asked softly, Edwards should have gone to Violet's room last night. But Edwards said Violet wasn't home, so she went back to my room and we spent a lot of time together.

"I always miss you, even though you are by my side. You don't have to work today, okay, we just spend time together. Take a walk around the city park and eat together, I think it will be very fun. How about it?" I asked spoiled.

"Now you look more different, Choon-hee who I met at first is very mature and independent. But Choon-hee who is now so adorable and makes me happy, you are so cute when you're spoiled. Then, let's go! park and eat together. I can also take you to the beach, while eating seafood. That would be even more fun." Edwards said excitedly.

"Come on!!! I would really love to be able to go with you!" I hugged her husband excitedly. ever since she was pregnant she always wanted to be close to Edwards, more precisely Edwards was the main thing that she was always proud of.

"Okay, let's take a shower first. Then go together." Edwards was already carrying me in a swift motion. I was laughing out loud in his arms, we actually showered together. did a lot of hot scenes that were so short, but made an impression on the recesses of the soul. Edwards was good at satisfying his wife and she was getting cuter every day.

Though I thought at first, Edwards and I would be very strange marriage. because Edwards had two wives living under the same roof. But it turns out that everything can be controlled well, we can still be together like a couple in general.

"We're wearing the same clothes today, you're wearing a white t-shirt and I'm wearing this short white dress." I still wear towels while picking out clothes in the closet.

"No, I don't like you wearing such a short dress. Just wear something else, a big t-shirt so that your sexy body won't be seen by others." Edwards chose clothes for me, to be more precise he took his white shirt and gave it to me. Then she looked for the long skirt that was in my closet, a dark blue skirt that was half-length.

"This is it, it's better. Put some of the t-shirt inside the skirt, so it's cooler. Later you just wear these shoes.. White like me. We'll really be the same." Edwards' words only made me laugh, even though what I'm wearing right now is not my everyday style. But if Edwards likes it, then I'll wear it. maybe people out there will laugh at my weird style.

Edwards wore a white t-shirt and dark blue jeans too, you really matched when you looked at the reflection in the mirror. I looked at myself looking cool, Edwards was a great fashion stylist. he knows what fits my body, I thought I would be like a walking clown.

"Put your hair together, it looks more beautiful in my eyes." Edwards said again, and I just obeyed. Locked one of my hair as he requested.

We're still in front of the mirror, after I've done everything. Edwards immediately hugged me from behind, he kissed my neck briefly and that of course made me chuckle. "Why?." I asked slowly.

"Even though you are wearing neat clothes and very polite. But why do I still think you are very sexy and make me want to kiss your body again and again huh?" Edwards's words were really sweet, I was embarrassed to hear what he said.

"No kidding! Let's go. You're a pervert now!" I pinched his nose in exasperation. Instead of moving away from me, Edwards hugged him even tighter. He kissed my cheek a few times and it made me laugh. "Edwards!! Let go, it's amused you know!" I said annoyed.

"Hahahahaha.. You're so cute when you're blushing like this." he released his hug from my stomach, then tidied my messy strands of hair. all the sweet attention from him really makes this heart flower.

"Thank you, Edwards." I said quietly, when I saw the beautiful laugh on his face. Laughter that brought a lot of changes for me.

"Thank you for what?." She asked when she had finished her beautiful laugh.

"Thank you for making me feel comfortable and safe, you are absolutely perfect. Makes me believe that God did destined us to be together. Even though the road we will be going through may be so winding in the future, but I want to stay with you." I kissed her aunt briefly, still staring at those lips. Then he looked into his eyes that were already staring at me intently.

"Thanks are only said to strangers who have provided assistance, but we are not strangers. So don't say thank you. You also brought a lot of beauty to me, made me rediscover this life. But forgive me for one thing..." He said slowly.

I raised an eyebrow confused, why did he apologize?. "Sorry for what?." The question finally left my lips, because I was curious about what Edwards said earlier

"Sorry for not being able to love yourself with all my heart." Plassss!!! like a strong wind that instantly shattered this little heart, I swallowed hard because his words were so real and so loud. I smiled a little, smiling at everything that had happened at this moment.

"Ahh.. Why apologize, love comes because of getting used to it. You will feel it after all the time we spent together. Don't you think?" I asked pretending to be normal, although my heart hurt a little hearing Edwards' words at this time.

"I'm just afraid of hurting your heart, you know that my love is still on Violet's side. Love can't just move, so I'm telling you the truth. Because you are a good life partner." Edwards words once again Make me hit a thousand hammers, He said afraid to hurt my heart? Edwards ... if you know that you have hurt my heart so much.