Chapter 146 - 146. What Love Is..

"Ah I see, I see.. let's go, it's noon." I try to look fine, like what I usually do. I took his arm and we walked out the door together.

There's a lot of pain deeper than this, I just have to endure it until I can let go. Letting go of all past and present situations that are increasingly heart-wrenching.

When we reached the front door and exited, the footsteps stopped when they saw Violet walking towards us. The smile on Violet's lips seemed to say that Edwards and I's happiness had to stop here.

"Honey? Where are you guys going? By the way you're out, I want to take you to check the womb. Lately I often feel pain in the stomach." Violet's words managed to make Edwards release his hand from mine. I was left with slow steps, Edwards immediately grabbed Violet's cheek and gave a worried look.

"Are you all right? Let's go to the hospital." Edwards said so smoothly, without any hindrance in his voice.

"Choon-hee? Are you okay staying? Looks like you want to go huh?" Violet looked into my eyes intently, I who was being looked at like that just smiled a little.

"No problem, we just want to eat out. Checking your womb is more important than eating out." a sweet smile appeared on my face, I tried to endure the pain that slowly spread to the deepest corners of my heart.

"Are you sure Choon-hee? Or should we go to the hospital together? Then we'll have lunch together." Edwards asked me, a question I really hated. Why is he acting like we can be put together? why does he act like i'm fine when he's with other women?.

"Yeah, don't worry.. I can go alone, I'm not scheduled for an examination. You can go together." I said casually, Finally Edwards and Violet left in front of me. I held the hem of the shirt which I was currently squeezing very tightly.

I laughed a little when Edwards's back was getting further and further away, beside that beautiful back there was another back leaning there. I laughed for a long time, but I didn't feel that the tears were running down my cheeks, I gently wiped them away. Trying to be okay, Then I turned around to go back into the room.

But my steps stopped, when I saw Daniel who was looking at me while putting his hands in his pants pockets. I tried not to look sad, looked the other way and smiled back when I looked at him. "You want to go to work?" I asked casually.

"No, I have today off. I have to take care of Daddy, because Mommy went with Azzhura. Do you want to come with me?" Daniel's question makes me unsure, I'm not okay. just want to cry all day in the room, Feeling that meeting other people won't make my heart okay.

"I..."

"It's better to come with me, than cry incoherently." Daniel immediately walked towards me, and took my hand. I haven't had a chance to answer what he asked yet. we finally walked together towards Mr. Brandon's room, Daniel opened the door first. Then he led me in there, the door behind us was not closed. I felt reassured that Daniel didn't close the door.

I saw Daniel who had opened the curtains of his father's room and let the sunlight in. The atmosphere became brighter and livelier, I looked once again at Daniel's face. somehow I saw a lot of pain on his face. he seems to be harboring a lot of bad life stories.

"Sit down, aren't you tired of standing all the time?" Daniel said, hearing that I immediately nodded and sat beside him.

We were both silent for a long time, Mr. Brandon seemed still asleep. The gentle snoring made me sure that the old man was sleeping very soundly.

"Daddy lives on the wrong love, he Gets rid of the woman who really loves him and chooses a woman who is so naive." I'm silent, I don't understand what Daniel is saying at this time.

"I see..." I said slowly.

"A long time ago, When my Mommy first took Mrs Douglas's position, she took it in a very rude way. Removing all barriers without mercy, All she told us was Love! Her love was so great for Mr. Branson. At first I believed that she was just want to fight for a love that is so big. But now, When I know what love is. I'm not sure that Mommy really loves Daddy. I just feel that he loves money only..

What I've been thinking up until now is, why would Daddy Brandon leave Clarissa? His first perfect wife, A beautiful and educated woman. An amazing mother and a very loyal wife, I've been questioning all of that until now and don't know the answer. I don't know what made Daddy open his heart to other women, one of them is my Mommy. Why? Is the Perfection of a Woman not enough? make men survive? Is one woman not what they really want?

Life is only once, why are so many people vying for sin and love. I was just surprised, at the circumstances that made the situation even worse.

what do you think Choon-hee? Is love alone not enough to maintain a relationship? Is perfection alone not enough to make us stay fine in one partner?." Daniel's question really confused me, I just sat quietly watching Mr. Brandon's very pale face.

"I don't have answers about love, I don't have answers to why people choose others. Even though he knows he's in love, I also don't know if love alone is enough to make someone survive." I said in a low voice, noticing the sunlight that was now hitting my face very brightly. I felt the warmth of the light, felt how it was as warm as the warmth of Edwards' embrace. But the difference was that this warmth was so empty, while Edwards's embrace was so comfortable.

"You don't have an answer, Because you are confused? Or you have never felt what love is?" once again the question from Daniel left me speechless, I just laughed a little at the question. I can only be silent and confused about what to answer.

did i ever fall in love? I didn't before, but today I know what love is. I know that the comfortable feeling I feel with Edwards, is a slowly growing love feeling.. like a shoot that will thrive when watered by all Attention.