Chapter 909

At night, it was dark and lonely. The color of night lights is so lonely. Obviously, many familiar places have become strange now.

At a hotel, Lin Xia called to stop, and the driver drove in. He pulled out his suitcase and went to the front to check in.

Gave me the sign: "go up, I won't worry about you."

Then he gave the luggage to the waiter, turned and left.

I went up and looked down from the window of the hotel. Why should the night be lighter than thin night? I only complain. At the moment, people's mood and state of mind.

The next day I left with my luggage and lived in a place far from Beijing.

People come and go in the small hotel. It won't be lonely at all, but I don't like living there, like a homeless person.

I know I don't have much time, but I've never been so quiet here.

Zhixian, I didn't tell her, my friend, I cherish it. I don't want her to be sad for me.

I felt my stomach in the dark. It was so wonderful. There was a child here.

I can't believe I'll have another baby. I always think it's impossible for me all my life.

Although, now is not the time, nor is it what I want, nor is it the right person, but it is also life after all.

The first one to call in was Qiao Dongcheng.

He called me anxiously, "Chihiro, Chihiro."

I said softly, "I'm fine."

"Where are you? I'll pick you up."

"I don't want to see you, no one." let me be quiet for a few days.

He was silent for a long time before he said, "Chihiro, there's a way."

"In fact, it doesn't matter if there's any way. I've survived several robberies, but I can't live like this all the time. It doesn't matter. I'm fine in Qiao Dongcheng, and I want to be very open."

Sometimes death is really a relief.

After hanging up, he didn't call in again, but he kept coming in with a few small messages, all to comfort me that I don't have to worry too much and will find a matching bone marrow.

I never worry. If I can find it, it's fate. If I can't find it, it's fate.

After living for a week, my body is still as good as going to the ground. There is no discomfort at all, that is, infertility and vomiting, and I won't faint due to anemia.

Chen Jingjing called me: "moqianxun, why do you ask for so many leave? Are you not going to go down this semester? I feel that you are always half hearted."

Her words woke me up.

I'm not dead, I'm fine, but my life is waiting to die.

On my last day, I will do what I want to do. What is it here?

Call Qin Rui and whisper to him, "hehe, Qin Rui, I'm Chihiro."

Qin Rui sighed low: "Chihiro doesn't treat me as a friend, so he won't give me a call."

"I'm afraid you're still angry."

"I'm angry with you. Why don't you value yourself more and love yourself more."

His words made my heart sour.

"I hate it. Why do you say that? I want to cry. I called you to ask if you rented the house before. I want to go back and finish reading, even if I can't finish this semester, but I also want to insist."

"Chihiro, you will find the bone marrow suitable for you. Don't be too sad."

"But Qin Rui, I don't want to give up my children. I've lost one. It's very hurt. Let it be. Maybe it'll kill me, but I really don't want to give up. My parents are just my daughter. If I have a blog, maybe I can leave some incense for them. In the future, I can tell them that we have children in the street 。”

"Chihiro, stop talking."

"So, don't bother to find it. Just rely on your relationship. If there is a suitable one, I won't wait until today. It doesn't matter. Qin Rui, I'm in a calm mood now. I've enjoyed my blessings, suffered hardships, and tasted everything. If one day I really can't wake up again, I have no regrets."

He couldn't listen. He said, "Chihiro, I'll tidy up the small apartment. Come by car. I haven't adjusted my mood to see you yet."

"Coward."

I smiled and scolded him, hung up the phone and packed up.

When he arrived at the apartment, Qin Rui had left, cleaned up and changed a lot of new things.

Unknown flowers were placed on the sun, and the blue and white flowers trembled in the cold wind of April.

I squatted and smelled it. The smell went straight to my heart and spleen.

I can't find the right bone marrow for me. They don't tell me, and I know.

It doesn't matter. I already want to open it and see it.

Put your hand on your lower abdomen. No matter whose child it is, it will be the continuation of my own flesh and blood. Look, your life is big and small, and I can't help it.

Chemotherapy, but without bone marrow, I can't get better. On the contrary, you will walk faster than me.

Take a book to class and look at some red flowers in the green leaves. This is the April day in the world. Every day is so precious. It is also the youngest day in my life.

What I remember and what I can't remember are written in my notes. My handwriting can always prove that I have lived.

On Qiao Dongcheng's birthday, I chose a gift for the gift company to send. In my limited years, I hope I can return your love for me.

It was also my father's death day. I took a bunch of flowers to see him and looked at him with a faint smile: "Dad, how much is the retribution of our stranger's family?"

He is still so silent and speechless. Dad, is it too heavy for the child to wait?

Take your favorite wine and make your favorite meat. Today I still sweep your grave and look at you. Maybe it won't be there next year. In the future, I don't know who will come to see me. Come to my tombstone on my death day and have a word with me.

Dad, will it be very cold there? I'm afraid of the cold, but dad doesn't matter. As long as I can see you there, Ji Xiaobei is also a kind of perfection.

It's not that I'm cowardly. I've tried hard to live well. Even if I'm unhappy, it will be better to vent. But Dad, there's no way. This is life.

I don't demand anything now. I just listen to fate.

Give mom a bunch of lilies she likes and leave this sad place.

There are red sandalwood food boxes outside the apartment. They are sent every day. They are made by he ma. I can eat them.

I don't want to see him. He sent it like this.

Lin Xia, you know, it's false to hate you. I don't want you to be very sad if I push you away.