Chapter 1008

"Work is not important." I smiled at him. "I don't want to go back to Beijing, Lin Xia."

"Do you not want to go back to Beijing, or do you dare not go back because I am in Beijing?" he looked a little sad.

Both, Lin Xia, you are in Beijing. I can't afford your deep feelings. How can I face it. "Lin Xia, you'd better divorce. You can leave me behind. You can find something suitable for you?"

"If I could really do it, I wouldn't stand in front of you now." he smiled bitterly: "Chihiro, don't be so cruel, OK?"

It's my cruelty again. I can't respond to your love. It's my cruelty. I told you earlier that I don't have you in my heart.

"Lin Xia, two people's love and one person's pay are destined to be very hard. I'm sorry."

"I don't want you. I'm sorry, Chihiro. We'll go back to Beijing and start again. No one will take away your heart, won't they?"

Hehe, even if I don't say it, I'll let him know soon.

Who is Lin Xia? Lin Xia cares about my life, even more than himself.

"Let's adopt a child."

"Lin Xia, do you love the way I look, or do you love me?"

"Nature loves you."

I smiled bitterly and looked at him bathed in the sun: "if every time I get hurt, I fail again, and I come back to you, it is unfair to you. Moreover, Lin Xia, one of the real things is that I really don't love you. I'm sorry."

He closed his eyes and seemed uncomfortable.

Facts always hurt people, and dreams are always better than reality.

"Chihiro, I won't divorce you."

"It doesn't matter if I can't leave. I'm destined to be lonely all my life. It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter."

I opened my hands and staggered past the row of bricks.

If I fall down, I'm not afraid of blood, because I don't want to hold your hand and walk safely all my life.

I won't go, he won't go, it's like taking root here.

Such stubbornness, I don't know why?

His car is kept at the door of the villa under his name every day, and food is sent to Qin Rui's gate every day.

I have a headache and I'm so upset that I want to run away.

"Linxia." I called his name loudly.

He stood out of the terrace and looked at me so far away.

"What do you want to force me to do? Will you chase me wherever I go? Lin Xia, if I die, will you let me go?"

"Lin Xia, in fact, I really don't want to live. I can't find the meaning of life now."

After roaring, close your eyes. It's not high. You may die or you may not.

I packed up my things and left. The wind blew in the dark evening, and bursts of coolness came up. I walked in the dark with light things.

Linxia, I can't fall in love with you, really not.

I have no luck, I really have no ability to love with one heart and two.

Ji Xiaobei is a poison. He can't get rid of him all his life.

I know the news about him and Li Hong. It's in full swing on TV. Say they're close. It looks like a good thing is coming close.

Although the heart is sad, but we are the people who broke up. That's all we can do. No one can control who? Neither I nor he can afford anyone's life.

Lin Xia refused to divorce. I wouldn't force him, and he couldn't marry me.

The night rain came a little early. Now it makes me taste the smell of being wet. The road is so dark that I walk with my eyes closed. I deserve the pain. This is life. I keep groping and falling.

I think I really want to leave Beijing, a city I like. There are a lot of my memories, memories, laughter and tears here, but I want to leave.

I don't want to see Lin Xia's sad eyes again. I feel bad every time I see them, because I can't afford what he wants.

Although it is easy to love someone, it is difficult.

When we grew up together, we didn't like it. Now we still don't. Even if we had sex, we don't love, just don't love, so clear and clear.

Ruan Li, they hate me because I don't love Lin Xia and because I let him down.

Mommy, I'll get up wherever I fall. This time, I'll go to France again.

I must leave soon. I don't want to wait until Ji Xiaobei announces the date of his marriage to Li Hong. It will still hurt.

Only Dongzi, Qin Rui and Qiao Dongcheng came to deliver the plane. Qiao Dongcheng wrote me a note asking me to see it when I got on the plane.

I can't wait to open it immediately: you can get through to me at any time.

I smiled and gently hugged him: "ex fiance, get married quickly."

Qiao Dongcheng looked at me a little contemptuously: "you can't manage yourself well. Who else do you want to manage? You should take good care of yourself when you go there."

I saluted him, "yes, sir."

Lin Xia sent me a message: "Chihiro, don't go to France, I won't force you any more."

"I don't hate you, and you didn't force me. Lin Xia, where I fall, I stand up. Where I lose my confidence, I stand up."

He replied to me with four words: Bon voyage.

I didn't learn anything in France, but I was very satisfied with my work. I learned French very quickly with such an environment.

After walking through the past, looking at the Paris tower, I came out little by little with chrysanthemums and scattered all the way from the hospital to where I used to live. Mom, I'm back here again, mom, but Chihiro is not afraid of anything now. Now I'm very brave.

I'm looking for a job and working in a high-end coffee shop. I'm particularly lazy in France. I have a lot of private time, and I'm also a fashion capital. I began to learn to do what I like and design some clothes slowly. The old board of the coffee shop is a very lovely aunt, who is very nice.

The salary is not much higher, but it is entirely possible to support yourself.

In France in August, the temperature is the most beautiful time, not high or low, very comfortable and relaxed.

At the same time, it is also a place for drunken gold fans and charming fragrance.

But in those places, I don't go hunting anymore, nor do I move forward.

At the end of August, I always wanted to vomit and didn't want to eat anything. Moreover, I was still very tired after working for five or six hours a day. I wondered if my body began to appear some symptoms. I didn't go to the hospital for physical examination for many times. In fact, I still had to go to the hospital for examination regularly within five years after the leukemia was cured.