Chapter 1148

He caressed my face painfully: "Xiaomi, don't ask the past, OK, I'm willing to put you down. Even if I lose everything."

Why should I do this? I fell down in vain in my chair and didn't want to tell me. I thought you would tell me, but even you didn't want to.

His hands covered his face and let tears slide down.

He squatted down and gently held me in his arms, full of wine.

"I drank a lot, but it's really good to see you. I'm really happy that you can come to me, Xiaomi."

I looked up and saw him grin and say softly: "I thought it was impossible to see such a gentle you. I thought you would hate me all your life, but I figured it out. I'd rather you hate me all your life. I came here to say goodbye to our deep feelings in the past. After listening to songs and drinking wine all afternoon, Xiaomi, but the biggest gain is that I actually saw you Come to me. I really don't know whether to be happy or painful. "

"Xia ziye, how could I be sorry for you? Why?" I cried and asked him.

Really, I really can't figure it out. He's my life. I'm actually sorry for him, but I can't remember that important part.

"You're not wrong, Xiaomi. I don't blame you."

"But I blame me."

He hugged me: "Xiaomi, it's late. Let's go. We don't want anything and don't ask anything. Just walk quietly. Maybe slowly, we will all be calm."

Yes, he settled the bill and went out. I walked beside him. I clearly saw his hand clenched into a fist. How much he wanted to hold my hand, was it so close, but he controlled it.

At ten o'clock, there were still a lot of people. When I crossed a small bridge, I was crowded so much that I almost fell to one side. Xia ziye finally couldn't help but stretch out his hand and pull my arm.

His palms were wet, sweaty and hot. When I looked back at him, he squeezed out a smile: "be careful, don't fall."

"Yes."

Walking so slowly into an unknown alley, there are a lot fewer people. You can smell the fragrance of flowers.

"There is a cherry blossom here. It's beautiful," he said.

"You've seen cherry blossoms here this morning, haven't you?" I know. There's only one cherry blossom in this street, and it's behind the inn where I live.

When I opened the window, I could just see it. I looked at the cherry blossom and asked the inn for more money. The boss let me live in that room.

He nodded, "yes."

"I live in the inn behind the cherry blossoms."

He was stunned: "did you see me this morning?"

"Yes." it's true fate. I can still see him among thousands of people.

He sighed: "we said before that we would come here to see flowers when we were free, but we haven't been here since."

Look at each other, but feel speechless.

Thousands of words, I don't know what to say. For the first time, I felt a kind of pain. Every point relative to him was an emotion that was difficult to give up, but very complex and unclear.

After standing under the flower tree for a long time, he sighed and said, "the wind is cold, Xiaomi, you will catch a cold."

Who cares? Catch a cold.

"Xiaomi." he called my name, but he didn't know what to say.

My cell phone rang, breaking the silence. It was Pei Feng.

I watched and wanted to press the phone.

Xia ziye said, "go and answer the phone. It's getting late. It's cold here at night. You wear too little. Xiaomi, don't blow the cold wind. You're not in good health."

"But." but I'm afraid that if I go back, maybe I can't find you again. In fact, I also know that he made it very clear that some things I know will be more painful. Then how can I make up for it and how can I choose? It's a painful choice.

"I wish I knew you lived here." he smiled, then suddenly turned around and strode away, like running away.

Looking at him like that, my tears almost wanted to flow down again. My mobile phone was still ringing tirelessly. I was disappointed and took my mobile phone into the inn.

He sat down in a swing of a maple tree and answered Peifeng's phone.

He seemed relieved: "I sent you several messages and didn't reply. Xiaomi, I'm worried about you and I miss you very much."

I bit my lip and didn't know how to answer him. I kept looking for Xia ziye all afternoon. I didn't see whether there was information on my mobile phone at all.

"Xiaomi, have you returned to the inn?"

"Well, back."

"It must be cold there at this time. You have to wear more clothes. You didn't pack your bags. I bought you some clothes and sent them today. Some things are not as convenient as shopping here. You can go to Lijiang tomorrow. If you want to be convenient, go and pick them up. If you're inconvenient, you can leave them."

Why should you be so kind to me, Pei Feng? I haven't figured out what happened before. Now I think I've lost Xia ziye. I don't know if I'll lose you again. Why are you so kind to me.

"Did you eat today? Don't eat too exciting. If your stomach is uncomfortable, drink some warm water first..."

I can't bear to listen to him again and interrupt him: "Peifeng, I'm going to sleep. Just do it first, OK."

After being quiet for a long time, he said softly, "OK, you should take care of yourself. When you come back, just tell me."

"Well, OK."

It was so quiet that I could hear his breathing. The wind blew on my face, but it couldn't calm my mind now.

Then he hung up the phone. I closed my eyes. I really wanted to get drunk like Xia ziye.

Maybe everyone thinks it's good for me and doesn't want me to know, then I don't want to know. Don't even Xia ziye think so? I've lost him.

In the past, don't remember it. I comfort myself so much, but I still can't let go.

My head began to hurt so much again that I went to the landlady: "do you have any liquor here? I want a bottle."

I want to get myself drunk a little, so that my brain can think less and it won't hurt so much.

I opened the window and drank cup after cup of cherry blossoms. The night was getting deeper and deeper. The excitement had slowly become quiet. Lights were connected and turned off. The night here was pure if it was dark. I felt someone looking at me in the dark.

The night was deep, the wine was cold, and the feeling of half fumigation was finally relaxed. I fell on the bed and looked up. I could see the stars from the glass. I also looked at me coldly.

Some things, I think no one can help me, only I can help myself.