Chapter 201 - Lying From A Good Place

Jack 

I get home after Lance left and I see Trick in the kitchen. he is looking through his phone with his tablet on the counter. he looks up when he hears me enter the door. his eyes light up as I walk into the kitchen and into his arms. The good thing about coming home every day is that I can have these moments with him. 

"How was work?'' he asks me quietly. his breath is hot against my skin. I want to stay in this position for the rest of the night. I can't explain how good this feels.  is

"It was fine,'' I tell him. He pulls away from me and I tell him about Lance and his kid. he smiles as I tell him everything that happened. 

"You know he is a new parent. it is not that easy to raise a kid. give him time and he would get the hang of it.''

I raise a brow with a smile on my face "Oh really, and how would you know?'' I am teasing him and he can see that. he gives this cute smile and I can't help but notice how handsome he is. I don't know how I got so lucky to have him in my life. 

"I know, I am just saying,'' he says with a shrug. He wraps his arms around me and I lean into him. I just love this feeling. I love coming home to this man. I am not going to do anything to ruin that.

You need to tell him the whole truth. 

Lance's words ring in my head. I know I am going to have to tell him at some point. I don't think tonight is the night to blow this bubble up. 

"Are you hungry?'' he asks me, pulling away slightly. I nod and he jumps up from the stool, walking over to the fridge "We have leftovers, or do you want me to make something fresh?'' he asks.

He starts to pull out the food from the fridge. I grab the pack of chicken legs from him and I tell him I would take care of it. he gives me this smirk that says he is not convinced that I would do a good job. 

"I can cook you know." I tease him because I know he likes to do basically everything for me. Trick wouldn't let me do anything in the kitchen, he wouldn't let me do the laundry, he wouldn't let me clean. He has basically spent our life spoiling me. 

"Oh yeah?'' he asks me with a raised brow. I give him a little smile and he stands behind me as I start to cook. He grabs a glass and begins to pour some wine for me.

"I was thinking about something,'' he says, handing me the glass. I take a sip of the wine and he smiles as he watches me. I look up at him and I see how his eyes have that sparkle. I set the glass down and he comes closer to me. he starts to rub my arms and I feel tingles on my skin. 

He is so close to me that I can feel his breath on my lips "What's that?'' I ask him. I want to tell him to kiss me.

"We need to go on a vacation. I think you need a break, and we haven't really had any time together. I was thinking about going to the Bahamas,'' he says as he runs his fingers through my hair. This is another because of my kiss confession last night. He is trying to show me how good we are together. 

"I just started work. I can't go on a vacation.'' I remind him even though I am pretty sure he wouldn't want to work with me once he finds out that Gill from the office is the one that kissed me. I feel his lips against my skin as he kisses my neck.

"I know but I think you really need a break,'' he says as he continues to kiss me. I look up at him and he gives me a smile.

He stops kissing me and I turn around to look over the stove. I need to tell him the truth.

"Trick--" I begin to say but he kisses me. I know that he is trying to distract me from what I am about to say. I need to tell him the truth.

I pull away from him "Trick--" he kisses me again and I try to pull away from him.

he leans his forehead against mine. he is making this very hard for me. 

I want to be honest but I don't want to disappoint him. I have already kept this from him, I don't know how he would feel about that and the way he is looking at me is not helping matters. I take a deep breath and I look up at him.

"I have something to tell you,'' I say and he looks at me. his eyes are searching mine. I don't know how he will react to this.

"What is it?'' he asks me softly. I take a deep breath and I take his hands in mine. I look down at our hands and I try to find the words. I look up at him and I see that face that he gives me when he is just waiting for me to say whatever it is I want to say. I take a deep breath and I look down at our hands. I rub my thumb over his hand and I feel his hand squeeze mine.

I take another deep breath and I look up at him again.

"We can do a weekend but that is as good as I can give you,'' I cower in the final seconds. 

I can't do it.

I know it is the right thing to do but I can't hurt him even more right now. Trick is vulnerable and I will just end up breaking him right now. 

A smile sprawls to his face and he takes me in his arms, lifting me up in the air. I look at him and I don't know how to feel. I know I should be happy but I am not. I feel like shit right now.

I don't know if I have made the right decision tonight but at least we are happy for now. 

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The next day at work, I do the same thing I have been doing all week, I hide from Gill because, after everything, the best thing to do is stay as far away from him as possible. 

"You are making a fucking mistake,'' Lance bellows into the phone. 

I close my eyes as I walk into the lunchroom in the office with leftovers from last night and I drop into the chair. I can't deal with this right now.

"No, Lance, this is the best thing for Trick right now. He can't handle the whole truth. I will tell him but maybe after we get back from the weekend trip,'' I tell him. 

He laughs into the phone "You are insane, you need to tell him now.'' 

I take a bite of my food and I look around the room. I am trying to hurry up because I don't want anyone to come inside while I am here and by anyone, I mean Gill. 

"Can you just understand where I am coming from and why I don't think it is a good idea right now?'' 

He sighs into the phone "Don't come crawling to me when shit hits the fan. I have already told you my stance on this whole situation.'' he ends the call without waiting for a reply and I drop my phone on the table just as the door opens. 

Just my luck that the one person I am avoiding is the one that walks in. His eyes light up when he sees that it is me. 

Fuck. 

"Hey,'' he says, lingering by the door. 

I stand up and start to pack my things because I don't even want to make conversation with him. I don't want to be in the same space with him. He took my kindness for flirting and took advantage of me that night. I have thought about the night, over and over again. I didn't fucking lead him on. I didn't say anything to slightly suggest that I was interested in him. 

He didn't act professional and he is trying to come into my life and contribute to ruining my relationship with Trick. 

"No, we are not doing this,'' I tell him, walking over to the door. 

He grabs my arm to stop me from walking "can we talk? I need to talk to you.'' he tells me. 

I shake my head immediately and push his grip off of me "No, we are not doing this,'' I glare at him as I walk out of the lunchroom. 

No way in hell.