Chapter 25 - Until He Came

In my whole life, none of this has ever made me feel this happy. Pushing myself to keep moving forward holding my dreams as I work harder to earn money for college. There's so much problems to bear, sometimes I just want to end everything like forget about the school, accepting life is gonna be this way and hard to me.

There are times that I also blame my parents for not able to educate us, I blame them for not having a nice life and a stable job to give all our needs. I cannot even demand not to quit school, thinking what for? Its not like they will have money afterwards.

Its funny that while having this date with Noah, I was thinking of my stupid life. I suddenly thought about it, actually my mind is empty right now until It suddenly popped up on my mind. I was okay when I'm with him, I was okay..when I didn't thought about my family. I don't know why they're on my mind right now, I guess because I'm happy?

Honestly, I've never been this happy when I'm with my family, I keep thinking of sadness when I'm with them. Thinking how different my father treated me makes my heart ache, I keep asking my self.. What's wrong with me? Am I that unlucky child that has to be hate by her father? Am I reminding him of something bad that happened in the past? Or maybe.. I'm just an unwanted child..

My whole life my mind was locked to what I'm believing, that no one will truly love me and they don't need me as much as they need others. To tell the truth, my feelings for Noah is unexpected.. I've never been attracted to him in my whole years of working with him.. For me, he's just a pathetic boss who always get hurt and still not tired of it.

I never liked him before, maybe because he's not really my type. I don't really bother myself fantasizing some men just because I'm a girl. I hate it when after they got they want from women they will eventually leave them. Men are greedy, you don't know when they'll trike you and leave you nothing but a broken heart. But this man is the opposite of that, he's someone who was left nothing.. He loved hard but he only got in return is pain.

Pain that has been agonizing his whole personality and body.. Cheering his own self to keep fighting but his body was feeling every thorn slowly poking every inch of his soul, shouting the tiredness that has been inside him and wants to come out and break down. For the first time in my life, I laid my eyes on a guy. For the first time, I wish that person will also like me back.. For the first time, I badly want to protect him. And for the for time in my life, I want to claim someone.. As mine..

"Hey, what are you thinking?" Noah's funny face popped up on my sight. He's waving his hand on me, strangely scanning what's gotten into me.

"I was just thinking of.. You," I bite my lips. I hate this mouth.

"Oh. I'm here, yeah? You're still thinking about me? Am I that handsome?"

I feel my ears convulsed to what he says. What an arrogant.

"Handsome.. You've lost your mind!" I twitch my lips.

"What? There's no point of denying it, Miss." He smirked.

"Mi-miss? Hey! You're so strange right now! How can you say that to me?"

"Why? Am I not allowed to call you that?" His face become serious.

Seriously? Miss is supposed to be called by a stranger and I'm not a stranger. He knows me and I know him, basically we know each other and we're going to date each other soon!

What a crappy thought is that, Raine?

Are you dreaming?

"Argh! Just don't call me that!" I mumbled.

"Eat, your soup before it gets cold," he reached for the spoon and taste the soup.

I watched his reaction as he puts it inside his mouth, "Eat slowly, you'll get an indigestion! You pig!"

His face flushes a disbelief reaction, he looks like a guy who eat a lot of buns in his puffy cheeks.

"I'm not a pig! I was just eating thinking that It will gets cold if I didn't eat it immediately," He glared at me.

"But you're eating it faster than a train!"

"You know what? You're just hungry, if you don't want this then I'll eat it," he acts to take the bowl from me so I grabbed his hand to stop him.

"You pig! Aren't you satisfied with your soup and you're still taking mine?!" I put it back on my table.

"Oh, I think you're right! I was craving for more. Their soup is amazing, wait--Ma'am, can you give me another bowl of what do you call this soup--I don't know.." He says stupidly so I burst out in laugh.

He looks startled as he immediately turn his gaze on me.

"Now, you're laughing at me," he pinched my nose while wearing his smile.

I shut my mouth and pretend to be serious. I don't want him to think that I'm this easy to laugh, it's kind of turn off.

"You know what?" He smiles.

"What?"

"I'm so happy right now.." He looks at me intensely.

"Why?" I asks.

"After those long heartbreaks, I've never felt myself.. I've never felt I'm alive. I also thought I forget about happiness and how to be happy.. "

"And now, you felt it? You are now happy?"

"Yeah, and the good thing is.." He looked at his cup. "You're the reason for my happiness.."

He shove his hair with his fingers, eyes on me while biting his lips looking shy and I was just like.. Wow! I make him happy? This is an achievement! I wanna ask more about how he thinks of me but when I saw his hand shaking forcing to cover up how anxious he is for telling me this, I just keep it to myself I'll just ask him some other time.

"Why am I your happiness? Am I a joker to you?" I eat the whole soup in just 5 gulps, I can feel my forehead sweating, it's suddenly hot in here, whoa.

"You're really something, huh?" He laughs, he didn't even answer my question.

When we finished eating those bowl soups, we walk outside with this cold weather. Seriously, I don't know what's up with this guy, he doesn't even think that walking outside can freeze us. I really love cold weather but I hate it when I'm dealing with it like bathing even if the water is hot I can still feel the breeze of the wind pressed to my skin. It always giving a goosebumps.

"Aren't you cold?" He asks and all I did was to arched a brow to him.

"What do you think? Are you that blind not to see the whole situation? It's so fvcking cold and we're here outside walking like there's no big deal," I rolled my eyes.

I walk ahead from him, he always asking stupid things that's why I can't help myself to respond it with sarcasm. He maybe had a lot of experienced in dating but he's innocent and cute. I always end up complementing him instead of bashing him.

While walking, I suddenly felt someone's hands on my shoulder, when I turn to look at it. It's Noah and he put his coat on me. I can't blushed, he might think that I like him.

"What's this?" I asked while holding his coat.

"A coat?" He doesn't have any idea how my heart beats for him this loud and fast.

"Can't you answer me properly, Mister?"

"Mister?" His face looks annoyed. "I'm not fvcking, Mister. I'm Noah your crush," He smirked.

My face darkened to what he says, that arrogant punk! He's really teasing me, huh? I won't get him away with this. I can't even look at him in the eye now for embarrassing me like that.

"I look cool awhile ago, right?" He smirked as he look at me.

"Where?"

"When I fetch you at the subway, I look cool right?" He acts cute, blinking his eyes as he pouts in front of me.

I burst out in laugh as I continue to look at his reaction. Seriously? This handsome man is making his face funny at the same time giving me some butterflies on the stomach and a goosebumps on the skin. I never imagined him, toying with his face just to make me happy but it really happens. I think I'm lucky.

"Look at you, so happy with me huh?" He leaned to stare at me.

I suddenly felt awkward so I moved an inch, "O-of course! You're very funny!" I tried to laugh.

"You're so beautiful, Raine.." He puts the few strands of my hair on the side of my ears.

I blushed at that simple thing. We stopped at side of the highway, with those beautiful yellow and pink leaves from the trees continues to fall which makes the environment more romantic as we stare at each other.

He gulp when his eyes reached my lips, I gently bite it hiding it from him. The way his adams apple moves, it makes him more hotter and attractive to me. I can stare at his gorgeous face forever..

"You're so beautiful and it makes me want to fall in love.." His voice is now husky which makes him sounds sexy.

I didn't move and also I looked at him with so much emotions in it. I want to communicate to him using our eyes but my eyes was locked to those red and kissable lips. I can't even talk because of what he said. He wants to fall in love with me and its making me crazy inside.

I hope he won't take back what he have said.

To be continued..