Chapter 26 - Strange Feeling

After that day, we've decided to go home and rest for the long day. I've never forgotten every single moment that we shared together, everything that we talked about laughing like there's no tomorrow while watching the clouds fall into darkness is literally amazing!

It's weekend and I was just chillin' here at the convenient store, imagining all the things that Noah and I did yesterday, actually I was alone here I don't know if my friends would go and hang out with me right now. It's much better if they won't come since I want to think of him alone.

The manager from the convenient store offered me they latest menu and I'm enjoying it. Spicy noodles are the best here, I'm not really into spicy foods but this food is exempted. Jess cooks for it when we're at home 'cause I really hate cooking. Call me lazy but I'll never cook, I prefer eating outside than making those side dishes at home. I'm too lazy for that.

"Hey there, Rainy!" I heard Jess's voice.

"Oh, hi. I thought you wouldn't come," I force to smile, I was startled I thought they wouldn't come since it's already late at night..

She always call me that and I don't like it. Though, she doesn't know and I don't want to tell her. She might be hurt since I think she's enjoying calling me like that.

She sat next to me and grabbed a bite on my sandwich, "Hey! buy your own, this is mine!" I put it away from her.

"You're so mean! I just want to taste it.." She pouts.

"Buy your own! Go inside and pay for it,"

"Gia will come, I'll get her one also.." She stands up.

"Good. I don't want to share, this is mine." I grinned and she just gave me deadly glare.

"This little rat," She whispered as she turn her back at me.

I just laugh when I heard it, she's really annoyed when I'm not sharing my foods to them. It's not because I'm selfish, I just don't want them to taste what I already taste, I have this side that I need to follow some etiquette. Weird, isn't it?

"You're not going to eat? Those noodles won't make you full. Here's some rice, eat it before it gets cold," She acts to put it on my noodles but I grabbed her hand and shake my head.

"I don't like it, I'm on a diet," I smiled and she just arch her left brow.

"You're so thin and you're still dieting? Come on, Rainy. You don't even have a boyfriend for you to act like that!" Ouch. I know, don't need to remind me friend.

"I'm not thin! Look at my body, it looks normal unlike yours, you look like a skeleton,'' I put my palm on my mouth trying to cover up my laugh.

She quickly patted my arm , "I'm sexier than you, admit it,"

"No," I giggle.

"Gia!" She look up and wave her hand on my back so I immediately turn to see her.

We both laugh when she come closer, she only wear a khaki t-shirt with black leather on top pairing it with black skinny and a black boots with some fur on it's edges. She actually looks cool in her get up.

Jess gives her the sandwich and a can of cold coffee, she smiled and takes it. One of the best thing in their friendship was caring for each other like siblings. They've a lot of similarities, arguing in some of childish acts but soon as later, they'll eventually made up. Unlike me, I can move not having a hand to hold on, depending with my own self and hiding a hideous acts would protects me from any harm I would go prefer to..

"So, how was your date with your handsome boss?" Jess face filled with excitement.

"I hate it when he dragged you out yesterday. We're still hanging out but look at him looking cool taking you away from us," Gia rolled her eyes.

Actually, I don't want to go also. But somewhat, a strange feeling was telling me to go and spend time with him. My mind says, stop dreaming and live in your reality, but my heart's telling me to just enjoy and forget about my hesitation.

"Hey, Gia! Don't be so dramatic, we're actually having fun yesterday. I didn't even noticed that you got pissed." Jess pressed her cheeks.

"Ouch! I just don't want you to worry about it, you really like that guy, huh?" She look at me.

"Why not? He's hot," Jess says automatically. Yes, he's totally handsome..

I blushed when she said that. He maybe do something unlikely at all times, his charms actually shouting for his good appearance which captivated many women.

"I don't like him for, Raine." Gia looks at me seriously. I know she don't like him, I can tell by how she acts and talks to Noah. Unluckily, I like him and I don't want to be apart from him.

"Well, you're not the one who's going to decide for that," Jess shrugs.

I drink my coffee while looking at them, this heart is giving me so much palpitation I think I should go see a doctor soon.

"So, how was it really?" Jess is very talkative, she's not going to stop until she finds the answer. Just by looking at her, you won't really understand what's her personality, It's really confusing you'll become a judgmental bitch before knowing her true intention.

"Well, we just walked by the streets going on an arcade and break those stupid machines, and.." I paused. Recalling the moments that he said which bring me into those mixed emotions pulling myself back before doing anything stupid in front of him.

I remember how we stared at each other's lips and how we ends up being awkward with each other after someone rushed and run through us.

"And?" I close my eyes when I remember how embarrassed I was by that scenario, literally embarrassed that I want to run from him.

"Look at her, Gia! She's blushing! Hey, what did you two do? Did you already give it up? What? Tell us," What did I give? Don't tell me they're thinking about something..

No.

"You're not thinking something, impossible..right?" I eat all my remaining sandwich, swallow it hard.

Seriously? Noah is a gentleman, he can't even hold me on my waist.. He can't even like me back, why would we do something like that? I promised myself that when I find someone who truly loves me and marry him, that's the time that I'll give myself. For me giving yourself to your husband is the best gift he will ever receive in his whole life.

"So, you didn't?" Jess looks disappointed. In terms of experience in dating, Jess has a lot of experience than us. I think Gia also had a boyfriend before but they broke up after a few months, after that she never went on dating stuffs and become a man hater. Well, you know among the three of us I was the one who's inexperienced. I don't know how it feels when someone is showing their affection for you.. I don't know what is the feeling of having someone there beside you.. And I don't know how it feels to be love by someone..

"Of course not. We just talked after that, nothing romantic happened. Just a flat hang-out."

"You should've kissed him!" My eyes widen to what she says. She's crazy. Why would I do that? I shouldn't be the one who's doing the first move.

"Raine is not like that. She can't do what you're actually doing.." Gia interjects. She's really a conservative type. She hates it when Jess flirt with some guy and do the first move.

"Easy girl, I was just joking." She laughs not being offended to what Gia said. They're open with each other that's why, things are always chill for them even those foul words and that's the best to define our friendship.

"He just walked me home and that's how we parted our ways," I finished my sentence, I don't want to talk about it. I'm not comfortable with it. I feel so embarrassed, it feels so strange.

"Geez, that guy is slow..like a turtle.." Jess laughs in her stomach. Why would he do something if he can't feel something romantic for me? I was the only who feels that.

"I told you, he's stupid. He can't even hold, Raine's waist or even her back!" Gia repeats in her black aura. Her eyebrows still furrowed in annoyance.

She also witnessed that.

I sigh, sipping the remaining coffee from the can. I tight my embrace from my coat feeling the cold weather in this thick cardigan. I love everything that we do, especially when I'm on the shop. Those secret glance that I do, it actually gives me happiness. He maybe stupid and stubborn, but I've learned so much from him as a part-timer in his photo editing shop.

God knows how much I want to stay working there, with him.

To be continued..