Chapter 72 - Jerk

I was glancing at him the whole ride, try'na figure out what he's thinking but I can't seem to know it. He's too hard to read right now.

We arrived at his shop faster than I expected. Maybe, he's just too excited to work since he missed two fucking weeks staying with me and leaving his shop to his brother.

I was surprised when the door was now an automatic sliding door. He smirked when he turn to me. My mouth parted while scanning the whole shop. It was neat and all the furniture are arranged in order. The color of the shop was all white now, it was so new to me since the shop was painted with color blue before.

"Wow.." I muttered.. I can't believed what I'm seeing right now.

He's able to turn it like this just for two weeks? That's fast, you know..

"Do you like it?" He asked in between his smiles.

I nodded while still mesmerized with the whole shop. This is better!

When I looked for my desk, it's not at the same place as it is before. I looked around to find it and Noah dragged me into the spot where I could see him well from his full glass wall.

I've got surprised to the make over of my desk and computer. All my stuffs are still there and it's looks more clean that I now have a glass table and a nice chair.

My heart almost jumped as I've scanned my stuffs. I went beside the white shelves beside my desk and there's the books that I love. It was too much for him to do this.

It means a lot to me..

I've got emotional when I turn to face him. He's smiling behind me, I want to hug him and thank him for doing this but we're here at work, I shouldn't be a clingy as I am when we're outside of work.

He put his hands inside his pockets while looking directly in my eyes, smiling with his eyes shining. I can't help but to smile too and give him a satisfaction look.

"Thank you," I smiled two meters away from him.

He smiled back and nodded. I guess, I'd had to consider that my boss is also a thoughtful person.

He went inside his office and I also turn to my desk. Shit! This is beautiful!

I immediately sat on my new chair and check all the new stuffs on my desk. I was smiling the whole time while working and it's such a great day for me, I didn't even feel my body tired. I just felt happy right now!

"Wanna eat outside? I'm sure you're hungry," He asked, still looking fresh.

This is unfair! I looked at myself on the mirror, I looked haggard and this is humiliating!

"Just wait for me outside, I'll just do my retouch," I put some foundation on my face to cover all the oil on my face but then he's still looking at me..

I glared at him, he just chuckled at that and went outside. I laughed when I witnessed how grumpy I am for glaring at him like that.

When I'm done, we did go out for a dinner and he ordered steak for us. I missed eating it so I really enjoyed the food.

The next few minutes, we're already at my apartment. I'm wondering what he's thinking since he's seemed uncomfortable now. He would looked at me and scratch his end and do it again after that.

I arched a brow and crossed my arms. We're still here inside his car.

"You should say what you wanted to say. I'm not going to eat you," I chuckled.

He looked startled as he turn his gaze on me.

"C-can I go out with my friends..t-tonight?" He stuttered.

I was taken a back. Why is he asking me?

"Then, go," I said automatically.

I'm so clueless for what he's thinking. Why would he asked me if he can go out as If I'm his mom?

I don't mind him going out with his friends unless there are..girls.

"Will Dana be there..too?" I hesitantly asked. I bit my lower lip in nervousness.

I hope she's not.

"No, of course not," He smiles. "I won't even go if she's there,"

I felt relieved knowing that. I nodded and opened the car door.

"Thanks for the food and ride!" I said.

"No problem. Uh--can we text?" He asked.

"What?" I don't get what he wants.

"I mean, let's catch up even if I'm there," He looked shy.

I act thinking and I think it would be better for him to just catch up with his friends. If he'll text me the whole time, his full attention will be focused on me and I don't want that.

I've even took all his time when he accompany me on my house, I won't do that this time.

I immediately shook my head and his face suddenly looked sad. I had to do this, though.

"I need to sleep now, sorry.." I lied. This is the best excuse. "I'm tired, you know.."

He nodded and force to smile. It feels terrible for lying like this but it makes me more guilty to the fact that I'm taking all of his time. That's not okay with me.

"Then, I'll just text you when I get there instead," He says while looking at the road.

"Sure! Drive safely!" I acted happy when he glanced at me for the last time.

"Go first, I'll watch you here," He says that made me startled.

"No, I'll be okay," I gave him my reassuring smile so he didn't have any choice but to leave first. I watched his car slowly moving far away from me. When I can't see it anymore, I immediately go inside the building and changed.

"Ugh! What have I done?" I catch my forehead.

I rolled over the bed and recall what I've said to him. It's not something that can make him down right? What I did is the best for us. I know it.

I convinced myself as I watched the moon on my ceiling glowing with the stars. It feels nice looking at them.

Should I take a shower or not? Now I'm battling with myself if I'll go or not. What a disgusting bitch, Raine!

My phone rang so I immediately stood up and opened his message.

"Got here safe. Are you asleep?"

I smiled and replied to his message. I wish he'll had a good time there.

"Yeah. Kinda sleepy now. Enjoy your night and don't drive while drunk."

I'm guessing that they'll drink alcohol. You know boys, when they hang out, liquor has something to do with it. I'm not ruining their image but that's based on my preference.

"Mmm. Good night!"

And with that, I closed my phone and went inside the bathroom. I just do a quick shower and then I immediately headed towards my bed.

I can't seem to fall asleep so I just opened my phone and scanned for my Instagram account. I searched for Noah's name, try'na find out if he has an account of it or not.

Then I felt happy when I searched and his name appeared on it. I immediately visit his profile and found that his account isn't active as mine. He only posted ten pictures and it's all about nature. Though, his profile picture was him, he's on a beach there and he wears a white floral polo and a board shorts. He also wears a white hat while holding his DLSR camera.

He looked like a model there so I just can't help but to zoom his face. He really has a handsome face and his lips are so thin and red!

Fuck!

What am I doing?

I browse his pictures and then checked his followers. My eyes widened when I saw a thousands of followers from him but he only follow few of them. Is he that famous?

I don't know that!

I bit my lip and pressed the follow button. I'm surprised that after one minute he immediately followed me back!

Now, I'm doomed. What did I do? I told him that I'm going to sleep but here I am stalking his Instagram account and the worst was following him and he accepted it.

Damn it! So stupid, Raine!

I was about to close my account when I suddenly saw the story of his other friend. He was tagged in it so I can see the video.

He's laughing with them and sometimes he's drinking. I don't know what he's drinking since the cup isn't a glass, it's a red plastic cup.

His friends are few and the one who's taking the video slowly moved the video to the person who's walking towards them. I saw Dana with two the girls beside her walking freely and when Noah turned to looked at her, he got surprised and tensed.

I saw how Noah turn to his side and whispered something on his friend but he just laugh and pushed him agains't Dana who's now sitting on his side.

Fuck!

My heart suddenly ache for that view. I feel like it was ripping inside while looking at them. I don't know why I feel hurt when they didn't do anything wrong. What's wrong with me?

I wiped my tears that fell down my cheeks. I didn't even noticed that I was crying now.

I'm so scared..so scared that they might do something that may hurt me on that video..

"Guys why don't you get back to each other since you're both single now?" Their friends cheered for them.

Looking at Noah who looked expressionless now, I even felt hurt for not knowing what's inside his head.

You're so paranoid, Raine!

"Stop it guys. Dana and Shawn are fucking dating," He looked so angry. Why is that, Noah?

"Then, should I dumped him now?" Dana asked him while leaning on his chest.

My eyes watered as I watched how Noah let her touch him like that and their faces are closed. Fuck! I am more scared of what will he say!

I fucking hate that bastard!

We're still not dating but does he think playing with my heart is such a fun game for him?

I can't watch it anymore. It's too painful for me. I don't think I'll be able to accept his answer too..

Fuck you, Noah!

To be continued..