Chapter 73 - Hating You

I didn't get to sleep properly that night and my head was full of scene of Noah and Dana together. I cried a lot, this long pain inside me can't even last as I want to.

The pain was consuming every part of me. It was a bad timing, I wish I didn't watched it. I wish I was numb..

"Girl, how's your relationship with Noah?" Jess's seemed excited. I didn't tell them what happened, they might be worried and I don't want that.

I rolled my pasta and continue to do it. I lost my appetite a few days after that. I was avoiding Noah and I think he already noticed it. He just doesn't really care...

My heart sank to the thought of that.

"Hey! Are you okay?" She waved her hand on my face.

I blinked and turn my eyes at her. I could see the concern in her eyes which made me feel emotional inside. I tried to fight for it and looked away.

"I-im fine.." I sigh.

"Then, what's with the heavy breath?" She arch a brow.

I didn't want them to know. I was miserable and It would break their hearts if they'll know it.

I shook my head and fake a smile.

"I'm just tired, Jess.." I glanced at Gia who looked suspicious of me now.

I took a zip on my strawberry frappe. I should be careful on my actions because just like what I've said. My friends are like detectives.

"Do you believed in her, Gi?" Jess's turn to her.

Gia shook her head and bury her deep stares on me. I gulp as they focused their cat eyes on me.

"I'm pretty sure, something happened to them. You can't fool us, Raine," They looked disappointed.

Is it because I didn't tell them or because I looked pathetic and obvious?

Ugh! I hate you Noah!

"Guys. This is nothing, you're like this too when you're tired.. You can call Noah if you don't believe me,"

Fuck! I shouldn't have said that!

Noah would be confused for that and I will be doomed if he confirms that I'm avoiding him.

"We should call him, then," Jess's brings out her phone and dialed Noah's number.

Fuck! I can't take my eyes off of the phone. When he answered that, I'm really doomed, I'm so pathetic.

"Oh. Hello, Noah!" Jess's smiles and when she turn her eyes on me, she gave me a warning look.

I released a heavy breath. As if I could stop them, this is better than them finding out on others.

"I just wanna ask if you and Raine are fine? She looked unwell and we're worried.."

My eyes widened. Fuck! I forgot how straight forward she is. Damn it! I can picture Noah's reaction inside my head.

Fuck this!

"Oh. You don't know? Why?" Her brows furrowed.

I think she's getting furious now. What Noah did say to her?

"That's not my problem anymore, Noah. You should talk to her," She says and ended the call.

Her eyes was burning with irritation now. She looked pissed as she glare at me.

"You're avoiding him?" She asked in a cold voice. "Why?"

My heart beats fast at her question. I just said earlier that I'm not going to say it to them but the situation is betraying me!

Damn this.

"Did he do something that hurt you again?" Gia asked with her brows furrowed.

I can't answer them. It was a difficult question for me now. I don't know how to explain to them what I've seen. They might not let me near Noah ever again if they finds out.

I know my friends very well..

"Tell us, Raine.."

I bit my lip and my eyes started to water. Fuck! This is more harder for me. I can't stay fucking away with Noah.

I'm scared..

"H-hey.." Their voices softened. Jess went beside me and caressed my back.

We're here at the café. It's friday and we're doing what we used to do always.

"I-im sorry.." I muttered and started to break down.

They just comforted me the whole time. I told them what happened and as I'm expecting, they'll got mad and Gia wants me to end the connection between me and Noah..

"But, have you tried to ask him what really happened that night? May be something happened when you closed your phone.." I can see a hope in Jess's eyes.

"Stop it, Jess! It's clear that he hurt our friend. He's still fucking in love with his ex!" Gia shouts.

Fuck! That made me turn to reality. It hit me really hard!

"Fuck! I'm sorry, Raine.." Gia hugged me.

So this is what is feels like.. I was expecting that he would love me back and his actions was telling me that he would at least. But I'm wrong.. Completely wrong..

I was just too in love with him to the point that I'm neglecting my own feelings.

"What will you gonna do now?" Jess's asked.

I looked around and my two friends are silently patting my back. I want to let my feelings like this for a while until I'll able to make a solution for my problems.

"I haven't talk to him.. And I didn't asked him what really happened that night.." I bit my lip.

"You'll gonna be fine, Raine. I know you'll get through this,"

"But I don't know how.." I answered.

"That freak! I'm so devoted on him!" Jess's greeted her teeth.

Gia stood up and put her bag on her arm. They're wearing their uniforms now and I'm the only one who wears my casual outfit. I changed my clothes on the shop before I went out.

Noah also offered to drive me home but I refused and tell him that I'm meeting my friends.

"Do you want to go out for a drink?" Jess's asked.

I just nod and turn my eyes on the window of Gia's car. We're heading towards the bar and I think this is the best time to forget about it. I should let myself wasted for a night.

"I've texted Sam and Hannah, they will come with us and I think all of my cousins will be there too.." She smiles.

And after a few minutes, we're now inside the bar. There are a lot of people inside and I knew some of them. I saw some men drinking at the counter with the same age as ours.

Jess's grabbed my arm and dragged me on the other circle of people near our table.

"Hi guys!" Jess's greeted them and their eyes turned to my direction.

"Jess! You said you're not going with us?" A tall guy with a pair of blue eyes stood up and hugged her.

I felt conscious since I didn't know them.

"Meet my friend, Raine Scott!" She proudly says.

I don't know what to do since they're few and some of them are boys. Geez. I think coming here is a bad idea..

"Hi, Raine! I'm Sean," The guy with blue eyes earlier offered his hand to me.

"David," Then a cute guy winked at me.

I chuckled because of that. The rest introduce themselves to me like I'm running a candidacy. God!

"Your friend's beautiful, Jess!" The other guy on the edge stared at me with an admiration in his eyes.

I secretly rolled my eyes and fake a smile on them. He's not my type and even the rest of them.

"You don't like any of them?" Jess's whispered.

I shook my head and smile.

"Okay, let's go," She wrapped her hand around my arms. "Bye, guys!"

We went on the counter area and sat on it. I watched everyone who enjoys their time here and I can't help but to feel envious of them. No matter how I want to be happy, I just can't.. I keep thinking about him..

"Hey, meet Liam! He's my friend," Jess's eyes got bigger as she points her friend beside her.

I've got tensed as Liam offered his hand on me so I immediately took it and smile. Actually, he looked nice aside from his handsome face. My mouth parted when he smiles at me, his dimples are appealing!

"Hi. I'm Raine Scott.." I smiled.

He nodded and stared at me. I immediately looked away after that. Shit this is really embarrassing! He will find me boring if I didn't speak.

"I'll leave you two alone and I'll back. Liam, take care of my friend okay?" My eyes widened to what she did. Fuck! She'll leave me with Liam!

I watched my friend walked away with a smirked on her face. I want to grab her hair right now. Fuck!

I heard Liam's chuckles beside me so I immediately raised my brow at him.

"Oh. Sorry, you just looked cute.." He smiles.

I know I shouldn't be grumpy with others but I just can't help it.

"Cute is for ugly people," I rolled my eyes.

Then I heard his loud laughs. He apologized for it again and the next thing I knew I was having a good conversation with him.

As I'm expecting. He's really nice and funny. I like how he make some jokes to make me laugh and he just offered me a cup of beer. He said he won't force me if I can't drink hard liquors. So nice of him..

"Hey man! Can you help me on taking Dave on my car? He's so fucking heavy I want to punch his face for sleeping like that!" The guy with a leather jacket looked annoyed.

Liam chuckled and glanced where the guy came from.

"Okay," He turn to me. "Can you wait for me here? Sorry, I need to help my friend--"

"No, that's fine," I cut him.

He nodded and remind me to wait for him again. When he's gone I just drank my beer and I was startled when a guy went beside me.

He looked so hot in his button down polo and his denim jeans. I scanned his whole body and shook my head. He's not my type.

"Hi," He smiles.

I have no interest on knowing him but he just chuckled and offered me a drink.

"Broken too?" He asked.

And with that, my eyes turn to him. Broken too? What does he mean?

He points the glass of alcohol in front of me while drinking his.

"I'm drinking that liquor when I'm broken. It will really helps on forgetting.." He smirked.

My eyes widened and desperation runs through me.

"Really?"

He nodded and he drinks again.

My eyes fixed on the glass of alcohol and I gulp in nervousness. I'm not drinking any hard liquors but if it means that I'll forget about him. I won't fucking care anymore..

I grabbed the glass and ready to drink it when someone's hand held my wrist and took the glass away from me.

I turn my eyes to the bastard who did that and flushed him a deadly glare when the gorgeous man in front me appeared. His eyes were dangerous and with the way he clenched his jaw, I knew this is Noah.

"WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING, WOMAN!" His voice sounds dangerous too.

My tears fell down.

Hating you, Noah..

To be continued..