Chapter 74 - Tired

"LET ME--LET ME GO, NOAH!" I tried to pull my hand on his grip but he was too strong to hold on to me.

He dragged me outside of the bar and pinned me on the wall. He put his other hand on my side. He looked so pissed that I could see the madness in his eyes.

"Why are you there? And you're drinking with a fucking guy!" He's fuming mad.

That's because of you, idiot!

"I think that's far from your concern Mr. Clark," I gave him my coldest stare.

He looked shocked as he turn his eyes on me. He seemed like he didn't expect what I've said. But that's true.. We're not even lovers or even family, why would he care?

I rolled my eyes and tried to walk away but he cornered me again.

My head started to burst in anger. He's so fucking persistent and I don't like it!

I don't wanna talk to him also!

"Tell me.." He begged. "Tell me what's wrong, baby.."

I can see the determination in his eyes to make me look at him. I can't even glanced at him now, so how can I do that?

He lift up my chin to meet his gaze but I patted his hand. I'm here to forget about him but he came to bugged me and confused me again..

How could you do this to me, Noah?

How can you hurt me like this?

"Fuck! Baby, please talk to me.." He's now worrying. He shouldn't be, since he doesn't love me.

He held my hand and I just stared at it. His hands are cold and so as I. I know I was shaking and he felt it. No matter how he hurt me, I always been so soft for him. Fuck this!

"I don't wanna talk to you so please..let me go.." My voice cracks and his hand slowly loosened on my side.

"Why?" He asked. His voice is now cold.

I should be the one who's cold now, Noah. Not you.

"I need to go back inside. My friends are waiting for me," I started to move but he reached for my hand.

He pulled me closer to him and hugged me. My eyes started to water as I felt his tight embrace like he doesn't want to let me go.

I tried to let go but he just hugged me more. Fuck! I hate him!

"I don't know what's the problem, baby.. So please, don't be like this.. I'm worried that you would leave me.." He whispered.

I used all my remaining strength to push him away. His face looked so red and he looked like he's about to cry now.

My brows furrowed and tears fell down my cheeks. I just let it fall this time, I don't care if he see me like this.

"R-raine.." His voice softened when he saw me crying.

"Is it that hard to stay away first Noah? I needed time to think and it's not your business to control whatever I want to do with my life! I was left nothing but the pain you caused me.." I muttered while crying.

"I-im so sorry.. I know I hurt you before--"

"And you keep hurting me now!" I shouts.

His facial expression changed. He looked startled to what I've said. I bit my lip and looked away. I should've not say that. I know he would find a way just to get me again.

I started to break down now and his face looked so confused. I have no energy to fight with him so I just sat down on the floor.

"W-what do you m-mean?" He asked in a confused voice.

I released a heavy breath and avoided his gaze. Noah is kind of person who would do everything just to convince you and this time I'm not going to tell it to him.

"I need to go now," I force myself to stand up and glanced at him.

I saw the pain in his eyes and it was a massive impact to me too, I love him but he hurt me..

"R-raine.." He pleaded and tried to hold my hand.

"NOAH!" I shouted in anger. "CAN WE JUST STOP THIS FUCKING MESS? I'M DONE WITH EVERYTHING. I'M TIRED OF IT," I shook my head.

"N-no.. We need to talk, Raine.." He held my hand again.

Fuck! He's so stubborn!

I have no choice but call for a cab as he continues to convince me. If I let him confused me again, I wouldn't make it till the end. I know I will be lost and it's game over now.

"Fuck off, Noah!" I shouted at his face and went inside the cab.

I saw how he stared at my direction and I can't help but cry more.. If he continues to plead earlier, maybe I would become soft for him again. But now, I can't even accept his explanation. I didn't even get him to explain what really happened because of my anger.

I know I'm unfair not to hear him first before leaving but it really hurts.. A lot..

I didn't know how this pain would go away.. I thought he loves me..

I wiped my tears who's still continues to stream down my face now. I watched the passage that we passed by, it feels more terrible that it started to rain..

The raindrops was rapidly falling down just like my tears. I'm starting to whimper in so much pain. I want to scold myself for worrying now.. I'm worrying that he might get wet from the rain..

I arrived on our apartment after a few minutes and I immediately pinned down my body on my bed. I cried there and let myself become miserable for a while. I texted Jessy that I went home first and apologize for leaving without saying goodbye. I didn't tell the about Noah, I think that's better.

I didn't know that I slept while crying and when I woke up, it's still dark so I immediately checked my phone. It's still midnight, I thought It's already morning.

I rubbed my eyes and went on the kitchen to drink some water. I saw the shoes of Jess and Gia on the entrance so I assumed they're already asleep.

I walked back to my room again and sleep. I dozed off after reading all of Noah's messages. I also had 100 missed calls from him that I didn't even hear when I'm sleeping.

I woke up in the morning having this bad mood. I didn't want to talk to anybody so I just stayed at my room. It's still early though, I need to go to work later. I hope this feeling will be end soon. I didn't want to this to ruin my work.

I can't even avoid Noah since he's my boss and we have the same place in working. I'll just pretend that he's not there. I can do this!

I groaned when I remember how soft I am. This is frustrating, ugh!

"Raine?" I heard a loud knock outside. It's Sam.

"Yes?" I asked.

I stood up and opened the door. The fresh and beautiful Sam appeared on my face. She's now smiling at me and went inside.

I sigh and stared at her back. I want to be alone but I'd consider her since she doesn't know what's happening to me now.

"You left last night," She says while scanning my room.

I sat on my dressing chair and looked at her.

"I got bored so I went home. Sorry.." I fake a smile.

She stood up and went beside me. She caressed my back and her eyes was full of emotion. It's like she knows something..

Does she really knows something?

"I saw you," She smiles.

I didn't get what she said so my brows furrowed.

"I saw you with Noah.."

My heart beats fast and my eyes widened at her. Did she heard us too?

I can't believed that she was there too and worst she saw us! Now I'm definitely sure that she knows something about us..

"D-did you..h-heard us?" I asked in hesitation.

If she does. I hope she didn't mentioned it to Jess and Gia. I know those guys, they're so persistent and stubborn. They wouldn't stay away from me until I spill everything to them.

She shook her head and smiles. Ugh! That was close! I felt relieved with that.

"But I saw how you cried in front of him..so I guessed he hurt you.." She muttered that all of my blood in my face fades.

Damn it!

"Are you okay?" Now she looked worried.

Did she wear a mask to hide my lies?

"Are you hiding your privacy on me now, Raine?" She arched a brow.

I sigh and looked away. When she's doing this, I knew I had no choice. I need to tell her the problem so I'm always careful in hiding my secrets because she's also the same with Jess and Gia, she's just worst.

"You will going to tell me or I'll tell everyone? You choose," She crossed her arms.

I wanna grab her hair for blackmailing me, but I really had no choice. This bitch!

"I-i..saw..h-him.." I bit my lip.

"Where?" She immediately asked.

God! This is not me. I'm not like this! I used to keep my problems private because I don't want to bother anyone.

I closed my eyes in irritation. I'm not used to this.

"He's with his..ex..and they're having a good time on the bar.." I feel like someone's choking me. It's hard to tell!

She hissed and her eyes widened.

"WHAT THE FUCK RAINE? YOU SHOULD'VE PULLED THE GIRL'S HAIR!" She shouts that made me stop and my mouth parted on the sight of her.

To be continued..