Chapter 82 - Preoccupied

I was so stressed after that party. It's past two days now and I still cannot forget about what happened in that room. I saw him crying again..for me..

His actions are clear to me, he has a feelings for me and it makes me feel sad for that. It was a bad timing..

When I decided to let him go, I thought it would be easier with me. That I have the reason to ignore his actions. But I think I only made the situation worst, because I keep falling for him...

My heart broke when I saw him crying in front of me. I was broken inside to the point that I even scolded myself for making him cry like that.

I know it's bad to think that I should've not come because Edward really wants me there, but I didn't want to hurt Noah like that. I was regretful that day and up until now..

"Damn this bitch. Just tell me if we really need to put her into a psychiatrist hospital!" I heard Sam's frustration.

We're now here inside our apartment. It's Saturday and it's my day off. I was waiting for my family to arrive, I missed them so much.

Sam really stayed here for a long time, she's always around me and we spend time hanging inside this apartment than partying outside.

I'm happy because I was able to find the comfort in her side and also to my friends. But right now, I was making them worried again.

I'm just a moody person, I can't avoid it. I always daydream and getting frustrated when I realized that it's just an imagination.

"Err. My dad was asking about our business all the time and it makes me feel like he doesn't trust me!" She sound annoyed.

I didn't get what they're talking about because I was busy thinking about my own problem.

"Then tell him you can handle it," Gia says.

"Hmm. If you only know, he's very strict that you can't even say whatever you want!"

"But you still need to spill your insights," Jess's second.

I stood up and went to the kitchen to drink some cold water from the fridge.

"Hey! Do you have a lingerie?" Jess's called me.

I didn't answer her, instead I rolled my eyes but she didn't saw it. As if I'm wearing those weird things.

"Yuck, Jess! Raine doesn't wear those kind of clothes!" Gia sounds disgusted, she's really a conservative person.

Sam's just laughing on the side while I'm just listening to them. I don't have any mood to laugh.

"And besides, Raine don't do sex! She's like our little ange--"

"Oh shut up guys!" I rolled my eyes but they just laugh. Ugh!

I texted Seb to call me when they're outside of my building so I could fetch them on the lobby but he said that they can manage, so I just waited for them inside.

Geez.

My friends are still busy chatting while I was just quiet on the other side. I don't know why I felt lazy now.

"Hey! Daniel texted me!" Jess's laughs.

I glanced at her. I arch a brow and crossed my arms, "So?"

"He said he was disappointed when you didn't attend the outing," She shrugged.

I want to laugh at that.

"Did he just said that now? It's been a week, huh?"

"Dunno. Still cannot get over it?"

I rolled my eyes again. I didn't make it since I was having a hard time that day.

"I don't know if he's exaggerated or he's just stupid," I said, sarcastically.

They laughed because of that, I didn't know what's so funny to what I said so I just let them be. That's their happiness.

Then I heard the intercom rang, I immediately answered it and opened the door for my family. My brothers immediately hugged me and my mother also did. I didn't know but I think my brothers are growing taller. Drake's one inch taller than Seb but I think that's not a problem.

"How are you, sis?" Seb went beside me. He's the clingy type among them.

"I'm fine. Still beautiful," I smirked.

Their mouths formed an 'O' when they both looked at me. It's like they did not expect that I'll say that.

They greeted my friends and they're talking on the living room now. They brought some foods that my mom cooked, so we are heating it in a microwave, it's almost lunch time now and this is the best time to eat those foods.

My mom's with me so I really forced myself not to be bothered by Noah. He's occupying my mind these days too much. My mom is a quick-witted, she can easily guessed what's on my mind.

"Are you okay, Raine? You look bothered," I frozed. That's it, she's really fast.

I immediately smiled at her to cover up the true emotions behind it. She looked worried and it made me work hard to show that I'm okay.

"Why wouldn't I be mom? I'm so happy that you're here!" I laughed.

She just stared at me and shook her head. I know she's not convinced and other than that. I'm not a good liar.

I just let myself busy doing all the chores and on this kitchen and when the food is finally done. I immediately prepared it and put everything on the table.

"We'll just stay for this night, the two had their classes so we need to go back immediately." My mom explained while we're eating.

Well, that's fine with me. They already cleared that out to me before. I'm cool with it..

I was just quiet the whole and sometimes I was joining their conversation not to look suspicious. I can't make them worry.

"What about you, Sam? It's good that you decided to stay here, Raine was crying continuously before when you left. She's--"

"Mom!" I glared at her.

She looked at me and laughed and Sam giggled while poking my waist. These guys are annoying!

"Don't worry, Raine. I'm here now," She smirked.

I made a face and rolled my eyes.

"I've noticed odd about her, hmm?" My mom suddenly said that made my heart thump.

She looked at everyone and they're all stunned. My brothers looked confused now so I just bit my lip.

"What's odd in her mother?" Gia asked.

My mom shrugged and stared at me more. I can feel the my heart pounding so fast while avoiding their detective eyes. Damn it!

"Ah, right!" Jess's clapped then grinned at me.

I gestured my eyes at her to stop what she knows about what I've been facing now. But I lose my hope when she didn't even glanced at me.

"Guys! Did you forget? She's preoccupied earlier! She's thinking very deep until her family comes--"

"I'm not!" I defend.

She just smirked and their eyes turn to me. I immediately looked down and eat my apple with plain yogurt.

"Raine, we won't stop bothering you until--"

"How's Noah?" My mother cut Jess and my eyes widened at her sudden question.

Fuck! What will I do? What will I say!

I blew inside my cheeks and I just can't look at them!

"H-he's fine, m-mom.." I bit my lower lip without looking at them. They is really crazy! I had to lie now.

She scanned my whole face checking if I'm lying or not. I closed my eyes, praying that this moment will be interrupted.

"How are you and Noah, darling?" She asked again and this time she sounds serious!

I glanced at her a bit before drinking a glass of water.

I don't know what will happened but I think I have no choice now. I really need to tell them and they have the right to know.

"Mom, I think we still have to know. Of course they're fine. We should give them a privacy and I think Raine will tell us if there's any problem.." Drake interjects that made us all turn to him.

God! Thank goodness! I really love my brother so much!

He smiled at me and nodded. I just hide my happiness so they can't misunderstood it. It's better to be careful now.

That day we spent time together and my brothers asked me if I can make it to their enrollment. I just told them the truth that I've decided to go back to school and we have the same schedule. They're all surprised when I said that, well.. Except for my mom.

They'll looked happy when I told them that and my friends offered to accompany me and we'll take a tour on my school. Sam's the only available that day so she'll be the one to accompany me, though Jessy and Gia are a bit sad because they have their works so I just tell them that we're going out after that.

They seemed happy again when I said that. The whole night was full of laughs and good time with my family and friend. Thank God, I was able to forget about my problems for a short time because of them..

The next day, my family went home early. I offered to send them off but they refused. I want to nag but it's not time for it, my brothers need to go back for their school now.

But after they left, everything went back to me. Like, I was back on being a miserable again. God! Thinking about it was stressing me out lately!

And we're going to see each other again tomorrow, ugh!

God! Why do I love that man so much?

To be continued..