Chapter 84 - Holding You

I twitched my upper lip while looking at Noah's back right now. He's talking with someone on the phone and I think he doesn't really have a plan to change his mind.

I just glared at him since he doesn't see me here. I was preparing for my things so I can go home now, I don't have to eat outside since I'll look stupid eating alone there. I'll just eat what's inside of our fridge.

I closed all the programs of my computer and double checked all the essential files that I need to continue tomorrow. The customer looked happy when he arrived earlier, I think he liked our service. Hmm..

I smiled while still composing everything that I must say before going out. I actually want to make him feel guilty on rejecting me but I realized how stupid that was. I hurt him and I was doubting him for dating Dana where I didn't have any evidence..

Well, he should explain to me everything. I noticed that he doesn't explain his side so everyone misunderstood him.

Ugh. What a dumbass.

He came out of his office holding his phone and I just rolled my eyes at him. I want to annoy him more.

I heard his chuckle while he's walking towards here. I don't know what was he laughing at. I glared at him when I caught his eyes on me.

Is he laughing at me?

"What are you laughing at?" I raised my brow at him.

He suddenly went back to being serious. He cleared his throat and arranged his sleeve on his arm. Those veins are just attractive.

"Can I change my mind for your offer?" He smirked.

He bit his lower lip while holding his chin. I didn't know what he's doing but I was distracted on his fucking lips! Damn it.

"Why would you change your mind?" I showed how bitch I am.

I wanna go back to being a grumpy girl and do everything just to annoy him.

He chuckled like I said something funny. When I gave him a dangerous look, he immediately shook his head and looked away.

"I'm hungry," He answered.

He pouts while caressing his tummy. I just blew inside my cheek so I could contain my smiles. He's just so cute..

But he noticed my cheeks, it's flaring and I want to smack his face for mocking me.

"Are you blushing?" He raised his brow. Damn!

I immediately shook my head and glared at him. "No!"

He chuckled, "You know, Raine. It's not that hard to admit it when there's really an evidence.."

I blushed again when he said that. It's like he was so sure that I'm blushing because of him. Damn it!

"No! I was born with these red cheeks!" I looked away.

Seriously? He's so annoying!

"Really?" He smirked.

I gave him a warned look but he didn't buy it, he looked so damn annoying!

"Can I touch those then? I haven't seen someone having those natural cheeks like yours," He mocked.

I wanna strangle him for teasing me like this. Like duh? Is this even normal? We used to ignore each other because of the awkwardness but..what happened?

I used all my strength to hit him with my bag. He just burst into laugh and it just made me pissed at him more..

"Do you really think I would resist you?" He asked while still laughing.

He even held his stomach to support his fucking laugh. This guy is so evil.

"You bastard is so fucking annoying!" I shouted.

"Hey, hey! Why suddenly curse?" He says while laughing.

"Seriously, if you won't stop laughing I would smack this on your fucking face!"

"Raine, you can't do that," He shook his head. He looked like he doesn't really believe that I can do that to him.

"Who says I can't?"

He glanced at the other side so I turn to it, but he just laughed again.

"You're so gullible baby," He says that made me froze. He also stopped when he realized what he just said.

I bit my lower lip and looked away. Gosh! This is so awkward again!

It was so sudden and I missed him calling me like that. I want to ask him again to repeat it but I just held myself. We're not even together anymore..

"I m-mean, y-you look..s-stupid.."

"What!" My eyes widened to what he said.

Fuck! Did he just called me 'stupid?'

And for what? Just because I was dragged in his craziness? I'm a victim here bro!

He just chuckled and went inside his office. I was about to exit the shop when he suddenly called me. He rushed to come to me while carrying his black coat.

He still looked fresh and clean that it's so unfair!

"You're so fast!" He smiles when he walked with me.

I just rolled my eyes and tried to ignore him. He's so annoying that I want to pinch his two cheeks to the core!

Am I bad for thinking that?

"Hey, miss grumpy! You looked good today," He says in a sweet way. I can't help but to smile for that.

But I didn't showed it to him. He would just boast around if he knew it.

"Don't have any plans tonight?" I asked.

"Why? You want to date me?" He immediately answered.

I was a bit startled but I just pretend that it didn't affect me.

"No. Why would I?" I tried to sound cold while still walking straightly without looking at him.

"Even if you want, I won't let you. You're a lucky girl, huh?" He chuckled so I just rolled my eyes.

"You think I would also date you? Fuck! Over my dead body, bro!"

His face darkened but I just smirked.

"I'm not your brother! Damn, I can't be your brother!" He looked crazy when he shouts.

My brows furrowed to what he just said. But I immediately burst into laugh when I realized how stupid he was for saying that.

"I should be your boyfriend," He corrected.

I rolled my eyes and tried to ignore it but I just couldn't help but to blush. God!

"Hey! My car is here!" He shouts so I immediately walked back to him.

He's already laughing when I came in front of him.

"You're so grumpy today, do you have your 'em..period?" He asked when we get inside.

My eyes suddenly widened at his question. I used my bag to hit him while he's covering his body.

"You pervert!" I tried to hit him again and he continues to cover his body while laughing.

"Hey! That hurts! H-hey!" He tried to stop me so I stopped when I felt tired.

I glared at him before flipping my hair. I turn my eyes at the car window. I suddenly missed his car. I love the scent of his car, it smelled like Noah.

"Hey! What are you thinking? I'm not a pervert, huh!" He sounds a bit nervous.

I smirked while still ignoring him. I missed this.. I missed everything with him..

"I can't do that to you," he sighed and that made me smile more.

I know that Noah..

But still, I need to hear from you that you don't love Dana anymore and if you tell me that, I'll break this wall between us again and be with you until we fall together..

"Even if you don't know how much I love you.." He whispered when he start the engine.

Even if it's just a whisper, I clearly heard it!

Shit!

He asked what restaurant that I wanted to eat but I just can't answer him properly. His words were hunting me, ugh! I didn't want to stress myself anymore..

"Steak?" He asked.

I shook my head. "I don't have any money to buy that Noah,"

"It's on me, Raine. I can't let a girl pay for me or even pay for herself," He smiles while checking everything before going out of his car.

I arched a brow at him, "So, you're also paying for Dana's food?"

He suddenly stops while wearing his surprised look. I rolled my eyes and opened the door because we're now here. I was about to go out when he suddenly grabbed my wrist which made me go back to my seat.

I turn to him when I heard his heavy breath. He's still holding my wrist while looking at me sadly.

"I don't love her anymore, Raine," He shook his head while his face looked so frustrated.

My heart suddenly jumped in happiness when he said that. That's what I wanted to hear from him so I could stop being this crazy anymore..

I want to hug him..

He placed my hand on his chest and I could feel his loud and fast heart beat on it. He looked directly in my eyes which made my heart race faster too..

Damn this.

"You're the one I love, Raine.." He said while feeling my hand on his chest. "It broke my heart when you left me, and I feel like my heart was shattered into pieces when I realized that I lost you. I was broken while chasing you, and I'm still broken while holding you.."

My tears fell down for that. I also feel broken and wasted when I left him. I thought, I did the right thing but I'm wrong.. I was completely broken when I realized that I can't hold him anymore..

That I can't ever show how I love him the most..

To be continued..