Chapter 139 - Moving On

"You've been studying for how many hours, Raine. Are you sure you're okay? We're getting worried.." Sam sounds worried.

"I'm fine Sam. I'll just need to do this right away," I gave her a smile and continue what I'm doing again.

"She's so stubborn. I didn't know what to do anymore.." I heard her whisper, I think she's talking with Gia.

"But I'm still glad that she's diverting her attention to her studies instead of rebelling," Gia commented.

They both leave me inside my room, Gia's right. I wanted to make myself busy just to escape the freaking pain. It's so hard to forget what happened a few weeks ago. I also handed my resignation letter and even if he's against it, he let me go in the end.

I didn't want to work with him anymore. If I endured what happened to us before, I'm not going to do that again anymore. This is the end for us and I'm not going back again.

I heard he's still asking my friends if I'm doing well and my friends are just ignoring him. But he's so persistent that he's always sending flowers until now..

It was painful of course. I wanted to move on but he's taking it away from me.. I also feel angry towards it. I hate how he treats it like it's just a misunderstanding where's it's really not. Fuck. He's no help for me.

"Damn. I still need to finished my manuscript later," I cursed as I rushed to do my paperworks on school.

I was a part-timer at the small book store near our apartment. It's kind of cozy there and I love how It's giving me a peace of mind when I'm studying there.

I'm also a writer of different literatures in our school since I won the competition last week. I worked hard ln winning that because I feel like It can be a help for me in the future.

And it came true.. I used it to earn some money and it became my sideline aside from this work on the bookstore.

A student wants me to critic and edit their manuscript for their upcoming literature contest this coming week, so I really need to finish it as soon as possible. My friends are so worried sick about my health since they're always observing me.

I won't deny that I'm really having a hard time on my eating disorder this past few weeks. I was suffering from anorexia nervosa, I always spit my food whenever I felt unwell. It's hard to deal with it since I'm still stressed out.

My friends are always panicking whenever they see me vomiting that's why I'm really doing best to be okay. The pain was still raw but I know I can make it. I'm Raine and I'll be fine.

"Did you spit your food again?" Jess looked disappointed when she enters my room.

"Part of being a heart broken," I chuckled.

"You didn't have to be happy for that," She glared at me. "You should work on that and be okay soon.."

She gave me my medicine, so I took it from her. She's the one who's monitoring me. She said that I might skip my medicines if I'm the one who's handling it.

"How about you? Are you okay?" I asked.

"Of course, I am! I'm just tired," She rolled her eyes.

"Then, rest. I can manage myself.." I felt like I'm a burden to them.

"After this girl. I need to make sure that you're going to take this,"

"You don't trust me, don't you?" I arched a brow.

She's kind of meticulous these past few days, so really need to take my medicine regularly. She's like a mom and Sam was like my brother. Oh god.

"I trust you, but not with your condition right now." She pinched my cheeks. "Get some sleep after that, okay?"

I nodded and waited for her to exit the room. I feel sorry to them because they had to go through this for me. I wanted to be okay but of course, it won't be easy..

There's a lot of things to consider for that.. And one of those was my feelings for him..

I cried again that night. It never stopped. I always cry whenever I'm alone and when I think about him. I missed him so much but I can't go back anymore.

The pain was too hard to bear..

"Girl! There's another guy that's waiting for you at the cafeteria again!" Jennie giggled as soon as our class ended.

My brows furrowed when their smiles turned into a smirk. Oh god, don't tell me..

"He's so hot! And do you know he's--"

"I'm not interested." I answered and start to walk towards the cafeteria.

I'm so hungry and I needed to finished eating early so I could accommodate all my customers later.

"Why? You're now single so It's time for you to flirt around!" Marco interjects.

"I'm not interested. If you want, date him," I glared at them.

On the past few weeks, I've learned to be comfortable around them. It was so easy to get along with them. I felt happy somehow.

"Oh. I would gladly if I have that face!" Marco laughed and pointed at my face.

I just shook my head and start to find our table. It was easy to find it since it was located at the end. But I'm surprised when I saw some guys sitting on our table.

I immediately walked through their direction and glared at the guy who's laughing so hard while pointing at his friends. He looked so annoying.

"I'll cheer for you bro! Geez, you're being an ass again!" He laughed again.

I didn't know but his laugh makes me feel annoyed. I just wanted to make him stop.

"Excuse me.." I crossed my arms and arched a brow at them.

The guy earlier looked surprised when he saw me. But it was replaced with a playful grin after staring at me for a few seconds.

"Hi!" He stood up and offered his hand on me. "I'm Jacob.."

His face was now more exposed as he fixed his hair upwards with his fingers. He's kind of tall also but I don't care.

"I didn't asked." I rolled my eyes.

His friends growled like they're actually having fun with this. Well, I'm pretty annoyed now and I wanted them to get out of our table.

But he didn't even looked pissed for what I've said, instead he's smiling like he's actually enjoying this. So weird.

"I didn't expect that you'd be this grumpy." He chuckled. "I'll be good to you, then,"

He took his bag and before they walked out, he stopped in front of me and smirked.

"See you around, Ms. Grumpy.." He winked at me left the cafeteria with his friends.

What the fuck was that?

My friends are now laughing when we started to sit on our table. Jennie has the loudest laugh. I bet if Sam was here, they would definitely like each other. So much alike!

"He's the one that we're talking about earlier girl!" Marco said.

We're now lining in front to buy our snacks and Jennie was the one who stayed at our table.

"That weird guy?" My brows furrowed.

He nodded and I could see that he's really happy about it. It makes him looked like weird too. Oh god.

"He's the captain of our year's basketball and I think he's hitting on you!" He giggled like a freakin' gay.

I'm not interested really. I'm still moving on from Noah and I think I wouldn't be able to love again after that. The wound was so deep that I'm scared to love again..

And to sum that I'm 2 years older than them even though we're in a same year. I'm not agreed with that..

"I'm not interested, Marco. I'm still at the verge of heart break. I can't take a risk for a person I didn't love." I gave my card to the cashier. "One slice of pizza and a can of soda please."

I smiled at him before goin on to our table. I'm hungry but I didn't want to eat a lot since I'm just going to spit it out later.

"You know, we're going to help you get our your ex! Just trust us, we just wanted you to move on easily.." Marco pouted.

"Come on, we can't force her if she didn't want girl.." Jennie seemed shy for Marco.

"To tell you the truth guys, I'm still in pain. I don't even know how to cope up with it and I'm always stressed out. Trying this won't even work on me since my feelings were too deep with the other one." I smiled bitterly.

That's the truth. I know no matter what I do, it's still him. I'm fool for him but it was the saddest part of being in love..

You're sad because you knew, you're lost..

"Even if he hurt you? Just show him at least that you can get a man easily too!" Marco said. I know he just wanted me to be strong, but this isn't right.

"I didn't want to give someone a false hope. I went through with that in the past and I know the feeling.. It was hard and painful.."

"Alright! You know, we're here for you even if we can't give what Noah can offer you before.." Marco and Jennie went beside me and hugged me.

"Thank you guys.." I bit my lower lip.

I'm just happy that I also have some friends who chose to be with me than solving my problems.

To be continued..