Chapter 140 - Upset

"Can you arrange the books according to it's genre on the next shelve? I still need to organized this new arrivals.." My boss asked. She's nice that she's asking if I can help her even if she's my boss.

"Yeah, of course!" I smiled before going there.

The smell of the books are always makes me feel good. Although, I missed my old work I still able to adapt on my new job. It's a great place to start again. The salary isn't that big but It can fit for my allowance and for my family..

"You're always working so hard. I'm sure your mom adores you so much," She appeared behind me while I'm still sorting the books..

"Maybe?" I laughed.

"Your mom appreciates it, she's lucky to have you.."

"No. I'm the one who's lucky because she's my mom," I was surprised when I saw my favorite book on the shelve.

"That's a limited edition. It's hard to find some copies of that." She said.

"I love this book. If I could just afford it," I bit my lower lip.

I want to buy it but I'm sure that it would cost too much. The price might cost of my whole month allowance.

"It's a good book. I'm happy that you also appreciate it.." Her face was sincere when she said it so I also returned it with a smile.

I quickly finished what I'm doing and when the time ended, I immediately fixed my things and go home. It's already late at night and I needed to take a rest so I could wake up early for tomorrow.

My schedule was a bit hectic and I need to adjust to it.

I just took a grab as usual and buy some beer at the convenient store near our building, so I could sleep early tonight. I also had an insomnia, I barely sleep and I'm just taking some pills just to sleep.

It was tiring to be like that of course. I wanted to be okay and act normal as I was before.. But it's different now, I'm the one who's suffering and I needed to endure it.

"It's already late.." And I didn't expect him to be outside of my unit.

He's standing near the wall where it's kind of dark there. His both hands are inside his pockets while his head was rested on the wall. I haven't seen him for awhile because I'm avoiding him. But I guess, fate really brought us together..

He took a step forward and that's my signal to avoid his gaze. I'm disappointed at myself as I still feel my heart beats fast for this guy who hurt me. He's still had the effect that I just can't control when he's near me.

"It's been a while..I can't even see you around baby.. It's so h-hard.." His voice sounds in pain.

I closed my eyes and avoided his intimidating look. I know he's looking at me right now and I can't do that to him anymore..

"Why can't you look at me baby? Are still mad? Then, please talk to me at least. Hmm?"

He tried to hold my hand so I immediately moved backwards to avoid it. I didn't want to have physical contact with him as much as I want.

"Get lost." I said in a cold tone.

I wanted him to feel that I don't need him in my life again. That I'm fine without him..

"Let's talk first baby.. Please, I'm hurting.." And now his voice cracked.

I saw how he fell for his knees while trying to get my hand. I'm not going back to him no matter what. Never..

"You're not the only one who's hurting. And you don't even have a fucking right to show up in front of me and say those stupid things to me!" I greeted my teeth.

"Baby.."

"Don't call me that! I hate you Noah! And I'll always hate you!" I shouted and pushed him away.

I immediately opened the door and entered inside so he wouldn't have to scream for me and begged like a freakin' child.

There's no room for another chance for me anymore.. I'm done with it.

I went straight on my bedroom to take a shower first and after that I immediately went to the kitchen to get some ice pack for my beers.

I drink the 5 cans while watching since my friends are still outside. I didn't want them to see me like this. I finished what I'm doing and when I'm done, I finally felt sleepy.

I checked my phone first before going to sleep and I saw some notifications on my instagram. My brows furrowed when I saw the guy's face and name on my followers.

'jacob_skeer followed you'

I immediately deleted it and closed my phone. I didn't want to be link to anybody right now. I am too busy forgetting about my feelings to accommodate another one.

I'm not that strong to handle it right now.

I closed my eyes and sleep immediately consumed my body. I spend a lot of hours to sleep and when the morning comes. I felt like I wanted to sleep more.

My head was a bit hurt so I needed to stand up and drink some water. But to my surprised, I experienced an upset stomach so I immediately vomit inside the bathroom.

I don't feel well today and I feel like any minute, I would vomit again. Damn, I didn't want to go to school like this.

"Raine! Are you okay there?" I heard a knock on my door. I bet it's Sam again. "I'm going inside!"

She didn't let me answer and she immediately went inside to check on me. Her eyes widened when she saw me on the tile like a dying leaves.

"What happened? Do you want me to bring you to the hospital?!" Her face looked worried.

She wrapped her arms around my body and helped me seat properly. I also saw how her eyes watered as she stared at me. I feel so bad for making her cry like this..

I released a deep breath and touched her face. She's kinda worried, I can see that. She's just avoiding to scold me because she wants me to be comfortable as much as possible.

"I'm f-fine. I j-just need to spit this o-out.." I held the edge of the toilet and released it again.

She's just tapping my back while I'm still releasing it. I can also hear her small sobs and it really made me worry about her.

"H-hey.." I turned my gaze at her. "Why are you crying?"

"Why are you still asking that? Of course I'm worried about you!" She covered her face and starts to cry now.

"Oh god. I'm sorry.."

I immediately wiped my mouth with a napkin and hugged her. I know it's also hard for them to see me like this and they're just trying to be strong for me. But then again, they failed to suppress their emotions as they see me like this everyday.. Especially, Sam..

She's also fragile inside. She doesn't want people that she loves get hurt or even suffer. That's why she's doing everything she can just to helped them and get through with it in the mean time.

We stayed there for a few minutes, she waited for me to fixed myself before going out to face my friends. I needed to eat my breakfast because Jess will going to give my medicine again. I didn't even felt their presence last night. I slept like that?

"Good morning!" Jessy sounds cheerful as soon as we entered the kitchen.

She's now preparing for our breakfast while Gia's still focused on her laptop. The usual routine of my friends.

"Morning. Wow!" My eyes brightened when I see some toasted butter breads on the table and some tuna seasoned.

It tastes good I'm sure..

"Did you cry?"

I was startled when she asked that. Her voice sounds certain and I think I have no choice but to admit it now.

"Just a bit," I bit my lower lip.

"And also you?" She pointed at Sam.

"Me?" Sam swallowed hard as she pointed at herself.

"Did I call anyone aside from you?" Jessy arched a brow at her. 

"Oh. Nothing really.."

Sam just shrugged and start eating. I just eat a bit because I'm afraid that I might spit it out again. I can't waste any food.

"Did Noah came here last night?" Jessy asked which made me stopped from eating.

Yes.

"Jessy! It's still early! You're ruining the mood!" Gia shouted. She looked annoyed by that but we don't have a choice. Jessy already said it.

"What? I'm just asking you little birdy!" Jessy chuckled.

"Ah? And you're an ant!" Gia rolled her eyes.

"Damn. They're it again.." Sam whispered on my ears.

I laughed at the sight of them fighting like some kids. There's no really problem with that but to respect the food, I needed to stop them.

"Hey! Stop fighting, we're having a breakfast here!" I laughed while saying that.

Seriously? They're so adorable and I don't want to stop them but it's really necessary.

They stopped when I said that and thankfully, we're able to have our meal in a peaceful way.

But my smile fades when I saw his name on my phone again. He's calling me and I just wanted to throw my phone for that.

What a persistent jerk.

"Who's that Raine?" Sam asked.

I showed her my phone and to what I expect. Her face suddenly changed into a serious one.

Sam hates Noah so much and I think she's going to tell him again to get lost if she saw him.

Oh god. When will he ever make me live at peace?

To be continued..