"You have to be careful. Your man might not be able to come to you if you reached this far."
He helped me stand up and used his arms to support my weight. I'm still shocked with what happened.
I must be crazy but when I stood up, I immediately locked my eyes on him and now we're already staring at each other. He hasn't changed at all. He still had that kind of dashing look as always.
If we're still together, I would gladly tease him by looking at me like that.
But before I could speak, he already turned his back at me and walked away..
I was left alone on that place, slowly watching his back moving away from me. His eyes were full of sadness as he started to leave, and my heart was still beating so goddamn fast while feeling his touch on my body.
I watch him leave that place and now, all I could feel was pain. Why do I feel this?
"Raine!"
I slowly turned my head to the person who's calling my name right now.
He runs faster to reached my direction. He's holding his chest as he breathes heavily with the amount of energy that he used.
"Are you okay? Are you hurt?" He held my hand with those widening eyes.
"I-I'm fine," I looked away.
"Are you sure?"
I just nodded at him and started to walk where our friends at. I was silent the whole time while Jacob was right here beside me. I can feel his stares and I know that he's already asking himself what's wrong with me.
I can't tell him yet. Though, he saw him but he never knew about my past. He never knew that Noah is my past.
"Where have you been? We've been looking for the two of you!" Jessy immediately gave me a bunch of foods on a plate.
"J-just over there.." I points at the shore. My eyes caught Jacob's stares, so I immediately tore my eyes away from him.
I can't let him noticed what really happened. I bet he didn't saw his face.
"I'll do that," Jacob said, taking the food from me.
"I can eat alone, Jacob." I gave him a serious face and take back the food from him.
I didn't look at him anymore and immediately go inside the cabin to eat alone. I don't know but, I suddenly felt frustrated. I lost my mood now and all I could feel was pain.
I'm so tired of this. Please..
"Hey.."
Sam enters the cabin and sat beside me. I know, I can't hide any secrets from her but I don't to tell her my problem this time. She has her own problems too and she doesn't have to worry about mine.
I have to face this alone..
"We met, Sam.." I started to cry on her arms. "He..he even helped me!"
I heard her small laughs but that doesn't stop me from crying. Damn. Do I looked pathetic earlier?
She caressed my back and that even made me cry more. I can't believed we met like that. On that kind of situation. I can't believed it!
"What happened, then? Did you two talked? Did you cried in front of him?"
"No freaking way! It's such a wrong timing for me. I stumbled on the ground and fuck! He helped me stand up! Sam, do you think I've did it bad?" My eyes starts to water again. I had to wiped it seconds by seconds.
"Well.." My heart stops from beating, waiting for her answer. "Y-yeah.."
And with that, I started to cry again. Darn that jerk! Did he really waited for this? For me to humiliate myself in front of him?
He even acted hurt earlier and I even felt more pain that way. Did he think that I'm stupid for falling like that?
Oh my god.
"Do you want to swim?" She suddenly asked.
"What? You still had the courage to ask me that when you're seeing me like this!"
She just chuckled and caressed my hairs. She might be insane now. Why does she suddenly asked me about it!
"Come on, you had the sexiest body among us, Raine! Show your body!" She even clap her hands.
"Damn. You're such a brat, Sam! Why would I swim right now? The sun was so bright!"
"That's it! We should enjoy it since it's giving us the privilege to swim without feeling the breeze of the wind!"
"I'll pass, then." I looked away.
"What? Don't be such a kill joy babe. Your body is your asset!"
She's so stubborn. I wanted to rant like a freakin' child. Oh god. What's so good in swimming right now? I will swim whenever I want!
"Just swim if you want, Sam. I don't even have a bikini here." I rolled my eyes.
"Liar! I saw you packing your bikini earlier!"
Jessy enters, wearing her devilish smirk. Fuck! Why are they doing this to me?
Jennie and Gia also entered inside. They're all wearing their bikini's now and what the fuck. Jessy has the hottest body among them!
"Take this off, babe.." Jessy leaned towards me and run her index finger around my collar.
"Fuck off, Jess!" I shouted.
My face heated to what she did. I can imagine myself wearing those bikinis while others were staring at my body.
Fuck it.
There's no way I would show it to them! It's not like I had the sexy body like them! They're all grinned and let out a devilish gazes like they're planning something. These bitches are so evil!
"Hold her, bitches." Jessy smirked and that's the signal where my friends went towards me.
"FUCK! STOP!"
I raised my arms and closed my eyes. Damn. I just wanted a peaceful life right now but they can't even give it to me. I shouldn't have come here!
Because of that, my evil friends made me freakin' wear these bikinis that I don't even know why I brought with me! I'm so stupid for taking it. I regret it now.
I am now protesting with my mind, thinking if I'm going to wear it or I'll just pretend that I'm sick. Of course, they won't buy it, so I'll exclude that.
"What should I do now?" I asked, looking at myself on the mirror. I feel like I'm going to cry now.
My eyes turned to my body and it's more frustrating for me not to order myself to wear it. I wanted to just end it but my mind was telling to wear it just once.
Fuck!
I just decided to the black bikini in the end. I don't care if it doesn't looked good on me anymore, I'll just wear it since this is the last time!
I didn't even got to see myself at the mirror because I feel like I was getting a goosebumps if I did that. I don't really see myself wearing this! Oh god.
When I stepped outside, I had the feeling of going back again and just hide. Ugh! My friends was patiently waiting for me!
I just bit my lower lip and walked straightly towards their direction. If they tease me, I'll really smash their faces! They did this to me and it's their freakin' fault if the bikini doesn't suit me well!
"Wow.."
The boys mouths parted as their eyes locked on me. My heart was pounding this time. I can't even make myself smile at them. I only felt awkwardness and embarrassment. I feel like I looked bad with it.
When I looked up to see everyone, they're all looking at me while smiling. Their faces was epic, except for the one who sits beside Marco.
"Oh my god. Look at your curves! You'll be passed to be a model bitch!" Jessy complimented.
They immediately run towards me and even say that also complimented me which I really find embarrassing!
I pouted, watching them act crazy for my body. Why are they acting so weird? Gosh! It's so awkward!
"Hey, Jacob! Isn't Raine sexy? Her body was so slim, right?"
I blushed when Jessy said that. Jacob's face looked uncomfortable with it as he keeps on avoiding to see my body. He's so obvious, oh my God! I shouldn't have wear this! I knew it!
"S-she's hot.." He stuttered, ears are flaring together with his cheeks.
Gosh! I covered my face in so much embarrassment. It feels like my whole body was blushing now!
"Did your heard it? He said, you looked hot!" Jennie and Gia teases behind me.
Fuck.
They're all teasing us and Jacob seemed not happy with it. I just pouted and asked my friends to swim so I could end it instantly.
"Did you two fight?" Jennie asked as soon as we reached the shore. She's currently applying her sunscreen cream on her body and face now.
"Nope." I stared at the waves coming through us. "Maybe, it's weird for him to see me wearing this,"
My eyes turned to my body and I chuckled as I saw my breast. It doesn't flatter me when I see this but still, I'm not disappointed with it.
"Do you think that's the case?"
She gave me a meaningful smile which I didn't get. Sometimes, I choose to keep quiet especially when they're trying to make me understand a certain thing that I can't even get.
Damn. Am I too slow?
"Do you think he still think of you as a friend?" She asked again.
My heart raced for her question. I don't know but there's an answer that was building on the corner of my mind, still familiarizing it..
What's her point now? Why would Jacob no longer think of me as a friend?
I looked behind me and saw him laughing with the boys as they had their own bond. Our eyes met instantly which caused my heart to beats fast!
I can't even call that stares of him. He's looking at me and his face was just so serious that It's making me feel nervous. Damn it!
"Do you think he likes you as a woman now?"
With her question. I feel like my life has fallen apart. There was a big part of me that was broken and I don't know how to fix it now.
He's my friend. One of my closest friend. But why..
H-he likes me?
No way..
To be continued...