Chapter 177 - Who's Chairman?

"Are you okay? Did she hurt you somewhere?"

Jacob caressed my arms, trying to figure out if I'm okay. I wanted to tell him everything that's bothering me, but It's my burden to bear. He doesn't need to be involved with this.

No matter how I wanted to open my mouth, I just ends up no saying anything. Speak of what's bothering me, but at the same time refusal was consuming me.

I didn't know what Dana's talking about earlier. She kinda had the intimidating glare that left a huge question inside my mind. If she don't meant every words that she said to me earlier, I don't think she would've still waste her time just to annoy me.

From what I think, there's something wrong.. The anger in her eyes, that's not the normal look when you're mad... It's like something that she can do bad things just to destroy me..

I don't even have an idea why she's there. But she immediately came to me, saying all those bullshits that I can't even understand. Damn. Why don't she just get straight to the point?

I'm losing my mind thinking about it now.. And Pierre.. I've never seen him furious like that. I was used to his cold and mysterious expression where he always had on him.

He turned into a different person earlier and it's like he's hiding a lot of secrets.. I don't know.. Should I start avoiding him now?

"Hey.. I'm worried, Raine. Come on, I'll take you home,"

"No," I pulled my hand away from his grip. "I want to be alone."

I immediately turned my back at him without hearing his answer. I was too preoccupied to talk to him right now. I might just say weird things if I do that.

"Raine.." There's a hesitation in his voice but he didn't had the choice but to let me go.

I needed to be alone in order to think of it.

]It's easy for me to just ignore what happened earlier, but I'm not dumb to see that there's a meaning on how they look at me earlier. Jacob and Dana knows something that I need to know.

And that's my mission right now.

I left him there, I walked like a freakin' dog wandering in a unpredictable world. The situation that I'm in where I cannot even determine what's happening.

'You just can't stop taking away everything that I have, huh? Why? Are you that satisfied knowing that I was left nothing but--'

I closed my eyes, it keeps replaying inside my head and I can't seem to understand any of it. What did I take away from her? Why is she blaming me for something that I don't even know?

Is she trying to provoke me? Or she just wanted to annoy me?

"Damn it."

I bit my lower lip and kicked the can on the way. I need to know what she meant by that. Should I come to her place?

But I don't even know where she lives!

Or maybe I can ask Pierre?

No, no, no. That can't be, Raine. You had to avoid that weird person.

What about..N-noah?

Shit. I must be crazy. Why would I ask him if I don't even see him! I was also the one who pushed him away, why would I bother him again? I'm not that shameless.

"Oh, you're here now!"

I sighed as soon as I entered our apartment. I'm hearing a strange voice but I am more focused with what I'm thinking, so I just decide to ignore it.

Hmm..

What could be her motive to that? What will she gain! Oh my god. I'm really going to lose my mind!

"Raine! Your mom's talking to you,"

I just stop thinking when I heard Gia's voice. She even tapped my hand just to wake me up with my nightmare.

And when I look deeply into this woman in front of me.. S-she kinda has some features like my mom--wait..

"Mom!" I yelled, eyes are widened.

"Are you out of the world?" She giggled. "What's bothering you?"

"Nothing.."

"Stop lying, it won't work on me."

"Mom. I told you--"

"You're just not good at hiding your feelings. Just like your dad," She chuckled while offering me a glass of water.

"I'm just tired mom.." I groaned.

"Do you want me to bring your brothers on your graduation?" She suddenly asked which awakened the laziness inside me.

"Really?!"

She nodded. "I'll excuse them with their classes, so you didn't have to worry.."

I instantly felt happy and excited. Finally, I'll get to see my brothers again. I missed them already that I'm also wondering if what they're doing everytime that I think about them.

"Thank you mom!" I wrapped my arms around her and embraced her tightly. "I really miss my brothers.."

She tapped my back, "I know.."

We pulled away from each other and I took the glass of eater that she gave me. My friends might be inside their rooms now, there's also some food on the table.

"You should eat now. Gia seems busy so just rest too.."

Well, that bitch didn't even say goodbye to me and she just left. What a rude brat.

"I'm not hungry," I pouted.

"You can't sleep with an empty stomach, Raine.."

"I'll just eat when I'm hungry mom, don't worry.." I tried to force a smile, avoiding her gaze.

I didn't want her to know that something's bothering me right now. She might get worried and refused to go back to my siblings.

They need her more than me.

"Is there something wrong, sweetie?" She asked, sounds worried.

Should I ask her about Pierre? But how much does she know about him? They're rarely talking since the time that Pierre moved here.

And my mom seems like she doesn't know a thing about him. She's just fond of him when she sees him.

"No, mom.." I shook my head.

She look at my face, "I see there is.."

I can't really hide something from her. Damn. My mom will be worried again..

I bit my lower lip before releasing a heavy breath. She's a mom and she can easily see if her daughter has a problem or not. The power of being a mom, I guess.

"I'm not sure if you know about this but.." My eyes locked on hers. "Dana came to me earlier.."

"D-did she do something to y-you? A-are you o-okay?" She held my arms, looking all worried.

This what I hate in times like this. She would definitely blame herself for not be able to save me.

"She told me some weird things that I can't understand.." I paused, trying to reminisced the last words that she said. "She seems to know something about me, mom.."

I might not know what that is, but I'm willing to go that far just to ensure that she won't do some bad things to me and to the people around me.

I won't ever forgive her if she tries to repeat what she have done to me before. I won't let her get away with it anymore..

"W-what are you t-trying to s-say..?" My mom seems surprised and odd.

She would turn to me and gave me terrified look and then, she'll swallow hard after her eyes tore away from me.

"She mentioned about..Chairman, I think?"

I didn't know but I had this feelings that my mom knows something too. I hope she doesn't know.. I hope I'm just mistaken..

"C-chairman?" She stuttered.

"Why? Do you know him, mom?"

Her face turned pale which made me felt suspicious of her. She has the reaction of someone who knows something and at the same time a great sin in it.

I just hope that she's innocent in this. My mom can't be associated with Pierre and Dana, right?

"You don't know something, right?" I asked, hoping that she doesn't really know about it.

She's just preoccupied and she seems like she's thinking of something so deep. I've never seen her so serious like this before, she's really odd damn it!

"Pierre.." She looked at me. I'm expecting it.

I know my mom's hiding something, I was wondering why is she so nice with Pierre. That why does she treat him like she already know him for a long time..

What's her connection with Pierre?

I know I'm not supposed to doubt my mom right now, but her acts doesn't aligned to what I am expecting right now.

She seems..anxious..

"Mom," I called, trying to get her attention. "Do you know Pierre for a long time?"

Her eyes widened. I see it coming, though. My mom was cold and mysterious, but when it comes to us. She can definitely show her true emotions which I can see clearly right now.

She knows him. I'm certain of it.

"I was asking just by any chance that you know him.. I wanted to know his relationship to that Chairman and why Dana was blaming me for something that I can't even understand.."

"But maybe it's just..n-nothing..?"

"It's not nothing mom.. I know, they're hiding something but Dana wants to blame everything to me.."

"Raine, you shouldn't think of something that's not important--"

"It's important mom! She's blaming me for something that I don't even know!"

"That's it. You don't know, and you must forget about it--"

"Stop it, mom! I'm not going to stop. And even if you stop me, I would still going to continue this.."

I clenched my teeth, I felt really furious with them. I should feel happy and excited right now but here they are, bothering me again.

When will they stop, huh? Fuck it!

To be continued..