Chapter 178 - True Identity

"Pierre! Open the fucking door! I need to talk to you!"

I was really determined to know everything. It's been so long since I started doubting Pierre's intention and why is he always there for me when something's happening.

He's always there with an unexpected time..

And Dana's reaction was strange. She suddenly burst out like a bomb which I could never understand if I didn't ask her. I'm certain the she's the one who can only answer everything.

That's why I need to talk to Pierre..

"Pierre, please! I'm not gonna leave until you open the door for me--"

I paused when the door suddenly opens. Pierre's cold presence greeted me and all I could do is to stay still. I'm already here, I should get on my senses together so I could find the truth.

"Come in,"

He was the one who turned his back and walked through the living room again. That's my cue to chased him, so I did.

"What brings you here in this cold morning?" He asked, taking his seat on the black leather couch.

"I won't beat around the bush.." I should ask him immediately. "Where's Dana's house?"

His brows rose up, giving me a doubtful look. I don't care if he sensed what I'm trying to do, I am here to find the truth. And I'm not going to run for what I've started.

"Why?"

"Since the day that she told me those strange things, I wasn't in my right mind. There's a lot of questions that's bugging me which lead me for doing this," I locked my eyes at him. "So please..tell me where she is,"

If he doesn't tell me, I will force him to say it. I've been searching for Dana's address on my own but I can't seem to find her. She didn't left the country right?

"I'm sorry but, I cannot tell you."

"What?!"

I feel like my ears got bigger and my head was banged.

"She won't go around bothering you again, Raine. I'm sorry for what she have done--"

"Why do you always say sorry for her?"

He got silent. His mouth left parted while looking at me with those surprised reaction. He's always sorry for something that he didn't even do. Seriously, It's so annoying.

"W-what?" He repeated.

"You're always sorry and to tell you the truth, it's pissing me off. And my freaking limitation was running off the line, I am nearly lost my patience,"

"Raine.."

"And you know? I'm always wondering why you're always there when I'm experiencing a hard time.. That you're always around interfering with my life. Why? Is it fun? Was it fun watching me struggling in this bullshit life?!"

"No. That's not true, Raine!"

"Stop talking! I'm not done yet!" I glared at him and with that, he stopped.

"I don't even know you! And you're not my fucking friend nor even my family. But you're always pissing me off, sticking to me like a freakin' dog and It's really get on my fucking nerves Pierre!" I yelled, wiping my tears that keeps falling down my cheeks. "What do you want, huh? What do you want!?"

"Please, calm down first.. I'll get you some water," he immediately got out of my sight to bring some water.

Damn him. Why would he also added to my problems. I just want to talk to Dana but he's stopping me. Damn him.

"Here," He placed the glass of water on the table.

I just stared at it and looked at him furiously.

"I don't need that. I wanted you to tell me, where is Dana right now,"

His cold reaction didn't changed. What am I expecting, huh?

He remained silent and keeps on sighing all the time. If he don't speak, I will have no choice but to force him.

"You don't care about the people around you, huh?" I sarcastically said.

His face changed into a questioning look. Oh god. I could just insult him more, but I'm not that kind of person. I don't want to exceed my limitations.

"I'm doing this for everyone, Raine. I know my cousin had caused a huge scar on your heart and you can never forgive her for what she did!"

"Then you know at least.." I said, sarcastically.

And even if she get on her knees and cry some bucket of blood, I will never forgive her. She's a poison that I wanted to remove on my body. Fuck.

"That's why, I'm doing this to distance her away from you. If you'll just let me, I'm going to take care of the rest.."

"Why should I?" If this will make me rude, then beat it. "Who are you to take care of what's happening?"

"Raine.." There's a warn in his voice.

"Are you my brother? Or even my friend? I don't need your care or even concern, because we're not even relatives!"

"I am your teacher!"

"But that's not enough for you to interfere with my life! Tell me.." He froze. "Give me a valid reason why I should let you."

He immediately furrowed his brows and pierced his eyes on me. I didn't expect it to happen though. He's not an emotional person and he's cold most of the time..

But now, I know he's mad. But I shouldn't feel bad doing this to him. Saying all those harsh words, insulting him, and even taking all the blame to him. Because he might not like it, he's already involved with it.

He must take responsible of his actions. He must.

I heard his deep breaths, making me feel curious to his excuse. I'm certain he doesn't have it. He's just a bastard who always get in my way--

"I'm your brother." He immediately said, his eyes were only focused on me.

W-wha--what?!

How dare he trying to lie, huh! And what? He's my brother?! Damn. He must be crazy.

"You?" I points at him and chuckled. "What kind of bullshit is this? You've gone this far just to stop me. Damn it!"

"I'm your brother, Raine.." He reached my hand. "You are my true sister--"

"No! You're lying!" My hand trembled.

Damn. He's saying was totally absurd! He's not my brother for Pete's sake!

"I am your true family, Raine.. The blood that runs on you were the same as mine!" His mad eyes didn't threatened me.

He's lying! He's lying!

"How dare you say that to me, huh!? My mom wouldn't lie to me! Even if we had a misunderstanding before, I knew she wouldn't betray me! You're lying!"

I was about to leave the room but he grabbed my arm and forced to look at me in the eyes. I saw a sincerity in it and it's telling me that he's saying was true.

But no. He's only deceiving me. He definitely planned all of this.

"Mom left the house when she finds out that she's pregnant with you.." A tear escape from his eyes.

I stunned. I don't want to believe what he's saying but he might be also saying the truth. Shit. Why is this happening again..

"It's too late when dad knew about you, because she's already in love with Sebastian's father. I don't have any power to get you back because I'm just an innocent child before. I'm sorry, Raine.." He broke down on his knees.

Oh my god!

"They decided to separate but then, dad doesn't know that she's pregnant with you. We just only knew about you when you turned 10.. It's been so long since she hide you, how do you think dad must've feel then..? He must be a heartbroken, Raine.. He can't even go to you because he felt so sorry.."

My heart suddenly ache for knowing it. Shit. "You're lying.." I shook my head.

"He's always anxious and concern about you and with that, I decided to transfer on your school as I turned 16. I wanted to watch over you so I can tell dad that you're doing fine.."

But I'm not. I lived in a hell place where I was beaten into a pulp, insulted like a freakin' idiot and treated like I don't exist..

I've been through a lot in my father's hands, but I never thought that it would be more hurt to know that my real dad was worrying for me but he don't know how to go to me. It must've been hard for him, shit.

"W-where is..h-he?"

I feel like it's just a whisper. I am too weak to speak coherently.. My heart was slowly ripping into pieces. I can't hardly see now, my vision was also blurry because of my non-stop tearing. Shit. I wanted to know where is he..

I wanted to meet him if there's a chance.

"H-he's..d-dead.." His voice broke and it made him burst out in tears.

I don't know but.. I just find myself falling on the floor, crying like a weak child waiting for the arms of her father..

Now, that I've finally know him why would he be gone in this world? I have so much questions that I want to ask him, I have so many things to do with him but..how can I do that if he's already gone..? That's it's too late for us to be together again..

I'm sorry for only knowing about it d-dad.. I'm sorry..

I looked at Pierre who seems miserable right now, his eyes were swollen and his lips are shaking like he's about to cry again. Damn, why didn't I recognize him? 

What should I do now..

To be continued..