Chapter 179 - A Wall That Leads Into A Misunderstanding

"What happened to him..? Why he didn't even come to me, why?"

If he missed me, he should go to me. I'm not that cold hearted to ignore him. I-if he did that, we must've..met at least..

"He thought that he might just ruin your happy life, Raine..that you might feel miserable if you met him.." Pierre answered with a broken voice..

"No matter how I think of it Pierre, but. Why? Why only now?"

I feel like the sky doesn't want me to be happy for the at least short period of time.. Like the sky was against my happiness..

"I'm sorry.."

I didn't want to hear him say it, because it may hurt more but I can't seem to tell it to him. I know he's been brokenhearted too.. That he felt lonely, living alone since our father died.

"Is it because of this, why you came that day?" I was pertaining when he visit my mom at the hospital.

"Yeah. I thought she's going to kick me out, but..she looked happy.."

"I was asking myself before why she cared for you so much and I felt annoyed everytime she talks about you.."

"I apologize for upsetting you."

"But now that I've finally know who you are.. I don't have a reason to be pissed at you."

"Really?" His face enlightened.

"Mmm. If you try not to be cold.."

"Does it bother you?"

There's a worry in his voice so I can't stop smiling. It doesn't bother me but.

"I just wanted to know you well this time. I won't be able to guess if you're sad, happy, and angry if you always wear that expression. I wanted to know you more.."

He chuckled. "Alright. I will try to show my emotions starting now."

We both exchanged a smile from each other before pulling it away. I was stupid not to recognize my brother. I also felt that he looked familiar before but I failed to recognize him.

"W-what about the things that D-dana say to me..? Is it..important too?"

"Dad treated her as his own daughter when times that he badly want to meet you.. Dana was so important to him but.." He sighed.

"But?"

He sighed again, "He didn't allowed Dana to be his adopted child due to his conflict with Dana's father. He believes that you will meet someday that's why he really waited for you, Raine.."

He waited but, my mom didn't even told me about him. The only thing that I believed since before, was the fact that my dad hates me. I believed on a lie that he's just like that he and really loves me..

But I guess I was blind before that I keep convincing myself to be more patient and kind to dad.

He's so kind and caring to my brothers but when it comes to me.. He's..different.

"Is that why Dana was angry at me?" I asked, still thinking of the situation.

"Probably.."

"Why? Does she think that Noah and I still like each other?"

"Maybe she has another reason, Raine. She's just heartbroken that's why she's acting so crazy right now.."

"Stop defending that mosquito, Pierre. She's always crazy and a bitch, so I really had no choice but to fight with her."

"Mosquito?" His lips rose up.

"Yep."

I heard him chuckled a bit and the next thing I know, we already hear the loud doorbell of outside of his unit.

He's the one who walked through the door, so I just let him open it. He must be expecting a guest.

But when I don't hear any noise from his place, I immediately turned my eyes on his direction. I saw him looking deeply at the small monitor from the wall and I also try to peep on it.

My eyes widened when I saw Dana on outside of his unit. She's wearing a white crop-top floral shirt and a black sweatpants and a pair of white sneakers. She kina looked elegant though.

"Open it."

Pierre was surprised when he saw me beside him. Well, I'm not that kind of person to let other people know what I'm doing. I believed that you hiding your true feelings would be helpful with those heart broken.

"I'll just tell her to come tomorrow,"

He walked over the couch and yawned like a freakin' bastard.

"No. I needed to talk to her,"

"What?"

"Please. I just wanted to ask her something.."

"I'll just answer them for you."

"No!"

His brows furrowed. "Are you raising your voice with your older brother?"

"You're right," I immediately answered which made him shocked. "So what?"

His eyes burned with furious. I just wanted to talk to Dana, why is he forbidding it, damn it.

"I'm worried that you may fight again.. Knowing Dana, she won't ever get away from you until she gets what she wants. I didn't want you to fight again, so please.."

"No."

His face looked failed. I'm ready now. If she tries to grab my hair, then I'll just tear her both ears. That would be more hurt.

"But--"

I immediately opened the door and Dana's ugly face greeted me. Oh god. Why does she get uglier everytime I see her?

"How are you, Dana?" I fake a smile, but deep inside me was killing her.

"I'm fine, not until you came." She rolled her eyes.

"Still a bitch, huh?"

"Of course. And you're still stupid."

"WHAT DID YOU SAY?!"

I was expecting her to be surprised because I shouted but. She seems like she already knew what I'm trying to do.

Damn it.

She just smirked before bumping my shoulder. She walked inside and she even--

"Hey! Don't you fucking dare kick my shoes!"

She turns back her eyes at my shoes before looking at me with those smirk face. Argh! I wanted to kill her!

She even flipped her hard hair before sitting on the couch that Pierre was seated right now. I can't tell that he's happy to see her, and also he's not pleased that she's here.

"What are you doing here?" Pierre asked in a monotone.

"You won't offer me something..?"

"No. The coffee was expensive these days and water was not worth your fucking mouth."

"Oh my god. What is that bitch saying Pierre?!" She scowled but I just made a face.

Pierre immediately come to her and tell her to calm down. She's an easy one, huh? I'm enjoying it bro.

"Why are you here bitch?" I asked.

"Do you want to die?"

"Are you threatening me you crazy--"

"MOSQUITO!"

Her eyes automatically widened and stood up like a freakin' idiot.

"Oh my god, where?!"

She looked around and I just can't help but to laughed sarcastically. She looked so ugly I can't stand it oh my god.

"There." I pointed at her face.

"Where--"

She immediately stopped when she realized what I'm pointing. Well, she's so thin that I can clearly see her as a freakin' mosquito. She can also bring danger and a freakin' disease on the people that she meets.

"HOW DARE YOU!" She shouted and was about to come but I immediately slapped her face very hard.

My hand even felt hurt for slapping her hard rock face.

"Raine!" Pierre seems surprised.

"You're the crazy one here Dana. You just can't accept that I always win against you!"

"Really?" She smirked. "Okay. I'm crazy.. But you're the stupid one here."

"Do you hear yourself? Why would I become stupid--"

"You're a fool for letting your man go just because of your false accusation."

I feel like my heart stopped from beating after hearing her say it. I feel like she hit the spot.

"You are a stupid, Raine.. Why? Because you always let your ego win against you! You always think that people may betray you but you cannot see the things that are actually true." She moved closer, wearing her smirk. "Do you know how pathetic you are in my eyes?"

"DANA!" Pierre grabbed her arms and pulled it.

"You let go of a person who truly loves you just because of your stupid accusations!"

I swallowed hard. I suddenly felt suffocated and my heart keeps feeling that pain that I've felt before. It brings back the time where I chose to protect my heart and not hear anything from him.

"Your ego was consuming you, I guess.." She laughed sarcastically. "And that what makes you looked so pathetic in my eyes..."

I didn't know but..her words pierced my heart. It feels like she's right. That I was blinded with my ego and the chance to know truth covered by the pain that I've felt.

I was stupid for letting him go and for judging him so easily.. For not believing him.. And for not listening to him..

It is all my fault. He wants to stay but I choose to push him away.. It is all my fault.

"But do you know?" She asked.

I looked at her and gripped the hem of my shirt.

She laughed sarcastically before shaking her head. "You're both stupid."

"What do you mean..?" I asked, my chest felt heavy.

"That jerk was still fucking in love with you. I don't know what did he see in you that he's so crazy for you to the point that he's willing to risk his heart just to make you happy.." She looked away, I can see the pain in her eyes.

"I maybe a bitch for betraying him once but.." She looked at me from head-to-toe. "I'm not as stupid as you.. You're worst than I expected."

She rolled her eyes before leaving the unit. Pierre immediately guided me to sit. I can't feel anything but guilt and regret..

I never thought of his feelings once.. I always feel like he's going to betray me which made me looked so possessive and a paranoid bitch..

I was the one who ruined our relationship. I built a strong wall against us and I never gave him a chance to love me.. I only caused him pain that I never thought..

To be continued..