Chapter 182 - He's Back

"Congratulations, Raine.. Your friends invited so... Here.."

I stared at the flowers that Noah gave to me. I can't believed that he's here right now. There's a strange feeling that suddenly occur inside me. I can't name it but I'm pretty sure that I can feel a relief inside me..

His posture were still the same as he stands up in front of me.. He's still holding the bouquet of flowers that he supposed to give me. My eyes turned to his body, I can't help but to be amused with his outfit tonight. His built was more mature than before and because he's 6 feet tall, his black button down dress and slacks really made him looked taller and neat.

His white sneakers was also a perfect matched with his outfit. I can't help but to admire his look tonight. It's simple but yet attractive. I bit my lower lip as he smiles at me, it emphasizes his attractive eyes. Oh my god.

I suddenly felt the strange temperature around us and I just wanted to dive at the pool right away.

I shouldn't question why he's here because as he mentioned just awhile ago, my friends invited him. And who's those friends actually?

I heard his sexy chuckles before he signal the flowers to me. He wants me to take it and damn, I forgot to take it from him. His arm must be stiffed holding it for a long time now.

"T-thank you.." I forced to smile, still adjusting to the situation.

"No problem. I'm so proud of you.."

He smiles genuinely before excusing himself to go and greet my friends. My eyes traced his back until he get there. There's a part of me that's hoping that he could stay for a bit but then..

"Don't stare. He'll going to melt," Jacob says behind me. I can feel the bitterness on his tone.

I don't understand myself. I wanted to know why am I still looking at him where he can't see me anymore? And why do I still waiting for him to looked back when his attention were focused on someone else?

There's a pain that pierced into my heart as I watched his back from here. It feels like he's so far away from me. And with the way he looked at me earlier, it's a plain happiness that I saw in there.. That with the way he stared at me before, it's not there anymore..

It's not as same as he looked at me with affection anymore. It's already gone..

I can't help but to feel sad and sighed heavily for how many times. He's talking with my friends like they're really close and with the way he smiles.. I think it's different now.. I can't see the smiles of the person I used to love before..

It's strange but I'm not going to deny that he looked so fine and..over me now..

"Come on, you should change first. Let's ask Sam to come with you on the room.." Jacob says and I had no choice but to just nod at him.

I don't even care for my look but maybe I looked terrible, so Jacob really wants me to change into a decent clothes.

I wanted to go back there but I needed to change. Damn it. I stopped myself from tearing up, it would only worry Jacob. This is really strange. I felt like I was envious.. I wanted to talk to him too..

"If you want to talk to him, you better change immediately. I'll just wait for you there,"

Jacob's voice was cold and I heard his multiple heavy sighs before he left the room. I don't really intention to show him this kind of reaction but I can't help it. It's making me crazy and it would literally make me crazy if I didn't let it out.

A few seconds later, the door opens and Sam entered the room with some clothes on her hand. She immediately smiles when her eyes turned to me. I can see the strange reaction in her eyes where I can feel the discomfort within her.

I wanted to ask but I just remained silent since she seems to focused on picking some clothes for me.

"I'll just wear this, you don't have to find me some fancy clothes.." I took the white denim shorts and dark gray cropped-top shirt on her hand.

"You can't wear that! Our friends prepared for this so you have to wear some clothes where you can easily pull it out, because your bikini will be left for you to swim,"

"I don't have the mood to swim, Sam. It's cold.."

"There's a jacuzzi in it, bitch. You won't feel cold as long as you're inside the water," She chuckled.

"But you know that I'm not comfortable exposing my body.."

I bit my lower lip and consciously looked at my body. There's a part of my mind that's protesting and doesn't want to do it but there's also a part of me of wanting to have fun. I haven't tried wearing a bikini on a pool party. Does it feel the same with the beach?

"You know, from what I am seeing right now. You don't seem like you really don't want to swim." Sam pursed her lips and shook her head. "You looked excited and I think, for some reason,"

She gave me the black bikini and my face immediately heated after realizing what she said to me...

Me? Excited..?

Do I really looked excited? Why? I don't think I've felt this before. It was rare for me to feel this in any occasions. Most of the time was just okay for me. Like it's just normal to attend a party and I didn't have to feel pressured nor excited with it.

And now, they're telling me those strange things..

But maybe they're right. They can see it right through my reaction. That maybe I'm really excited..

"Here, put this on.." Sam gave me a thin and below the knee dress.

I stared at it and swallowed hard as I saw how the strap was really thin. The chest was also exposed which really made me want to back out. But Sam glared at me when she saw my reaction.

As what they said, I'm already matured now and I didn't have to feel conscious or even worried for nothing. I swallowed hard again as I imagined myself wearing it.. I'm pretty sure that my cleavage will be exposed when I wear it.

Stop complaining bitch. You're wearing a bikini anyway!

I didn't have a choice but to put it on as she ordered. I'll just change immediately later if the weather becomes colder. I didn't want to freeze to death, hmm.

"Part your lips. I'm going to put some lipstick on you," She opened the small purse.

"Why do I still have to? It will going to vanished on the water anyway.."

I pouted and let her put some lipstick on me. Damn, I didn't have a choice again!

"You must look sexy of course! Your ex was also there. He should drool over your body--"

"Oh god." I rolled my eyes. There she goes again.

"What?"

"Stop making things so awkward for us Sam. It's kind of weird."

She laughed sarcastically. "You're the only one who feels awkward, Raine,"

That shocked me. I mean, didn't she saw how Noah smiles differently earlier? Am I really the only one who's weird here?

And I wanted to rant again after I saw the color of the lipstick that she put on me. Damn it, it's a dark pink and she didn't stop there. She even put some on my cheeks! This freak!

"Let's go downstairs. They must be waiting for us now."

She dragged me and I didn't have a choice but to let her. The important thing right now was the fact that she helped me changed into a beautiful one. I secretly smiled when I realized what she did for me. Sam doesn't want me to feel pathetic in front of Noah.

She always wants the best for me..

When we arrived at the pool area, everyone already has their own worlds. My eyes automatically looked around and find Noah. I'm worried that he might be left when I'm not around.

I don't know if this is stupid but this is how I felt.

"You should feel at home, Noah. There are buffet on the right side, If you're hungry just feel free to eat whatever you want. The drinks were on the left side.." Zia says which made me turned to their direction.

I felt relieved as I saw Noah standing before me while trying to communicate with my friends. With the way he talks, he looked so professional. His silver and luxury watch makes him cool and with the way he ruffled his hair with his fingers. Damn, I don't think I can tore my eyes on him.

He's so freakin' gorgeous!

"I was looking for you. I went on the bathroom for a some minutes but when I came back, you're already gone,"

The nag in Jacob's voice was really natural which made him looked so childish. His voice were also loud that the crowd turns their gazes on us.

I immediately covered his mouth to stop him. Oh god. He can't even control his mouth!

"Hmm?" He leaned closer and I'm surprised when he pulled my back closer to him!

Our body pressed to each other and I could feel his heartbeat now. I swallowed hard when I realized how fast it is. Damn..

I bit my lower lip and before I could push him away, my eyes turns to the person who's looking at us right now.

His eyes looked so sad and I don't know what should I call that gaze.. I was about to speak but then, he immediately looked away and turned his back on me.

The pain in my chest ached even more and I can't help but to feel disappointed..

To be continued...