Chapter 189 - Hard To Forgive

Third Person's POV

"You lied to me?"

Jacob cannot even believed that Raine lied to him. It wasn't intentional but Raine knows that it really hurt his ego and trust.

"I'm sorry, I had to lie to you.."

Raine started to cry in front of him. She only thinks of Jacob's feelings right now. She wanted to make him understand but she knows it's her fault. That no matter how she explains, it's still wrong that she lied to him.

"Okay. You're saying that, you chose to lie to me and come and come with him...?"

She traces where Jacob was looking and Noah's behind her! She didn't expect to him there but he cannot even mutter any words because of the serious expression of Noah.

She cursed in her mind and tries to talk to Jacob but he only pursed his lips and looked away. Raine's chest ached to that and she couldn't help but to cry. Guilt was consuming her, she lied to him for the first time and it really made Jacob mad. She can see it.

"You told me that you don't feel well, that's why I came here to give you this but.."

Jacob showed the box of medicine to her. She didn't expect him to bring her some medicine. Damn it, she's so bad..

"I'm so sorry, Jacob.. I know I lied to you and you feel so furious right now. So I'm allowing you to get mad at me," Raine bit her lips, she thinks that it would make him at least calm if he burst out his anger towards her.

"W-what?"

"I know you're mad at me, Jacob. You don't need to feel pressured nor pity towards me.. You're right, I lied to you and I deserved your anger.."

"You don't mean that.." He shook his head.

"I'm serious." I'll just take responsibility of this. Next time, I'll really hide properly.

The atmosphere cools down but she still find it very uncomfortable, the fact that Noah was just here beside her. She can't even see his face and she's just hoping that he won't get in her way.

With the way she knows Noah, she definitely see what's in him. And what kind of thoughts was running through his mind at this time.

She bit her lower lip and tried to speak to Jacob. She can't back out now. She desperately wants to talk to him even if it means that he had to be angry at her. She just wanted to make up with him.

"You shouldn't treat her like that, bro. She's my woman and she doesn't deserved your asshole behavior,"

"What did you say, bastard?!"

Jacob was going to punch him, thank goodness that I immediately stopped him. Noah just rolled his eyes and it made me feel stress more!

"Noah. Can you please go home first? Let's just talk tomorrow, I'll speak to Jacob first.." Raine made a puppy eyes but Noah just smirked.

"I'm not going to leave until he finally accepted that you lied to him for me,"

"No. Noah. It wasn't you, I-I just wanted to a-apologize.."

"What?!"

Noah's brows furrowed. He slowly shook his head, he don't believed her! He knows what he felt just a while ago. She liked his kisses and she wanted more for that. No just his forgiveness!

"Please, Noah.. I really needed to talk to him.. Please.."

He doesn't want to leave her but damn, Noah can't even handle seeing his woman suffer like this. And with this stupid asshole in front of him.

"Okay. I'll call you later, then."

He pierce his eyes to her before turning his back at them and walk away. He's really determined to stay but he can't even say no to her! She's undeniably irresistible, his heart melted when she made that cute expression.

He cursed for how many times for being attracted to her before turning his engine on. He can't get off his mind on how Jacob was looking at his woman earlier. He wanted to claim her and stop him for looking at her but he respects Raine so much, that he can't lose his chance this time.

"Damn it." He hit the steering wheel before driving.

He hates leaving like this. His day would be perfect, not until that stupid guy came and act in front of her. If look can kill a person, that bastard was probably dead by now.

When Noah got inside his unit, he immediately throw himself to his couch and touched the tip of his nose. Damn, he can't stop thinking about her. He's damn nervous for what they're talking about right now. He wanted to go back but he knows once he go there, it would be the end of his dream.

His dream to have her back..

"You okay?"

He almost jumped in his seat when someone spoke behind him. A man with early 40's walked towards him, holding a cup of tea in his right hand.

"H-how did you g-get in here, d-dad..?" Noah's brows furrowed. He didn't expect to see his dad inside his unit.

"Your brother gave me the password. Sorry, I didn't get to inform you.. I just wanted to talk but then you're not here when I came.."

Noah pursed his lips and let out a sarcastic chuckles..

"Why is everyone obsessed in talking?!" He whispered and simply glared at his father.

He doesn't have an idea why his dad suddenly go there. He's not that kind of person to simply just barged inside into someone else's house. And with that, he finds it very suspicious.

. "If you're gonna ask me to do the modeling, you know what's my answer with that.." Noah crossed his legs and looked at his father directly. "Tell me dad.."

"Y-yeah..?"

"Tell me what's wrong."

Noah can easily get pissed to something that cannot even satisfy him so he really wanted to know the reason. Maybe, he can understand or accept it at least..

His dad sighed and looked at his eyes emotionally. He doesn't know where it came from, but his rock hard heart suddenly melted the moment his father cried in front of him.

And he even bent on his knees! Damn it!

"H-hey, dad.. What are you doing?" He looked down and tried to pull him up but he's too stubborn, damn it!

"Dad! Please, get up."

Anger consumed him as his father acted like he never heard something. Fuck. This is really hard for him. Handling his father also won't be easy!

"I know I can't be forgiven for what I've done, but I'm doing this at least to lessen what I'm feeling son.." His father's voice broke.

Noah felt pain inside his chest, he was angry yes but.. His father was just a person, he's not perfect but has his own limitations. He gave his father a chance for how many times but maybe they're right. Once a jerk is always a jerk.

He doesn't care after all. He admit that he's rude awhile ago but, he didn't regret it. It was his choice to defend his woman with that small creature. He wanted to kiss her but she's not here and it's pissing him more.

She's definitely with that bastard, fuck!

"Want some water?" He stood up and walked towards the kitchen.

He needs to freshen up and be cool with it. Their friends might know it after this.

"S-sure.." His father smiled.

Although, he can see a happiness in his father's eyes which made him feel uncomfortable at the moment. He opened the refrigerator and saw all the stock water inside. He can't believed that they have a lot of water.

He just poured some cold water on a big glass and give it to his father.

"You shouldn't beg on your knees, you'll only hurt it dad.."

Noah checked his phone but still, no response from Raine. He thinks that she's purposely ignoring him or she's just busy right now. Whatever her reason is, he'll just support her with it.

"But I wanted to have your forgiveness son.. I'm begging you.."

Noah can see that his dad was sincere and he just got distracted from it. He never expect that this day would come. That his father will beg in front of him and admit to all of his mistakes.

"Stop wasting your time, dad. It will take some time before I got to forgive you." Noah stared at Raine's face on the instagram.

He even zoom it just to see every inch of her. She's beautiful and feisty. He likes women like that.

"W-what do you m-mean, s-son..?" His dad looked pale.

Well, it's really hard to say harsh words to his dad even if it really describes him as a big trouble.

"I can't forgive you by now.."

"It's okay--"

"But please, don't show up again.."

"I promised I would do better next time son, please.."

"Then, stop begging dad. Just prove it and make sure you act like a good father here.."

"But how?"

"You don't know..?" Noah asked sarcastically. "Oh well.. Besides, you never really acted like a father to me, to us!"

"Noah! You're being too much!" His father shouted but he doesn't care. If he would want to be a father to me, then they should've done it before. They're not just hurting us, but also insulting us.

"I can forgive you in no time. But I can definitely tell you that I'm ready for opening my door for you dad.. Just don't give me a damn reason to decline it, because I won't hesitate disclaiming you as my father."

Noah turned his head to his bedroom. "Just sleep. You can stay here for awhile.."

To be continued..