Chapter 819

Xu Yan is getting closer and closer to Hou Qingqing.

Hou Qingqing closed her eyes. No matter how she tried to persuade herself, she couldn't let her body relax, and her tight body was stiff.

But she still closed her eyes and waited. She could feel that Xu Yan had come above her, and his breath sprayed on her face.

Xu Yan looked at Hou Qingqing, saw her body tensed like that, saw her involuntary expression as if she had been tortured, looked gloomy, and his eyes were full of irresistible injuries. He looked at her like this for a long time, a long time

Hou Qingqing has been unable to wait, the whole world is too quiet, quiet let her some heart hair, can't help but open her eyes.

Seeing Xu Yan looking at her like that, "what's the matter?"

Why are you looking at her like this?

"Qingqing, you don't love me, you can't even accept me." Xu Yan said sadly.

"I just don't get used to it. I'll get used to it later." Hou Qingqing is in a hurry. She knows that her reaction is very bad, but she really can't control her instinctive reaction.

"You make me feel strong and violent." Xu Yan smiles bitterly.

"I'm sorry." Hou Qingqing is very sorry. She really doesn't want to.

"No, you shouldn't say sorry to me. It's not your fault. It's my fault." They had been together for so long, and they didn't make her fall in love with him. She tried so hard to fall in love with him.

"No, there's nothing wrong with you. It's my fault!" Hou Qingqing is in a hurry. How could it be his fault! It's all her fault!

"Let's not argue about whose fault it is." Xu Yan smiles bitterly.

"I'm really sorry..." Hou Qingqing hasn't owed others anything in her life, but she owes Xu Yan so much that she really feels guilty and sorry for him.

"You've worked hard." Xu Yan doesn't blame Hou Qingqing for her hard work.

This does not blame her, the sentiment is really cannot force the matter, the love also is not able to raise.

Yesterday, Nangong Yi came to him and said that he would not pester Hou Qingqing any more, hoping that he could give her happiness.

He asked why he gave up, because he was in bed with Qingqing, did he dislike her?

He said no, Nangong Yi is not so vulgar. He just knows Hou Qingqing too well. If she follows him, she is determined to follow him and will not look back. He doesn't want to pester them and make them all miserable.

He said that before, he always thought that to love someone is to let go and let her be happy is nonsense. He thought that love is to be given by himself, but now he knows that she doesn't want to be with him. No matter how much happiness he gives, it's not happiness for her.

So he let go.

Hearing what he said, he felt that it was more his saying than his mood

She doesn't love him, no matter how much she wants to be with him, how hard she tries, no matter how good he is to her, how good the future and how much happiness he can give her, that's not the happiness she wants.

Let him feel before very bullshit is not that sentence, love a person is to let her happy, such words, unexpectedly is the truth.

Love a person, she also loves you, you do not let go, you stick to, that is happiness, you love her, she does not love you, you do not let go, that is a cage, is a prison, if true love, how willing to look at her uncomfortable.

So

He can only let go, and it's him who should let go.

"Give me more time! Just a little time! " Hou Qingqing vowed that she would change her attitude!

"I don't want to. I'm tired." Xu Yan said.

Hou Qingqing was stunned.

"Qingqing, I'm sorry, before I thought I had a lifetime to wait for you, but now I find that I overestimate myself, I don't have so much time to wait for you, I don't have so infatuated heart, I don't want to work hard for a person who doesn't love me, I'm tired, I don't want to pay endless without regrets, I want to find a person who loves me and live a relaxed and happy life Life. " Xu Yan looks tired.

Hou Qingqing looked at him, not knowing what to say.

"As you know, my parents' health is getting worse and worse because of me and you. Especially my mother's health is just right, and people are hospitalized because of mental illness. I can't figure out why I have to sacrifice so much for you who don't love me. Even my parents don't care." That's one of the important reasons why he made up his mind.

People live in this world, can not only love, take care of themselves.

His parents have paid for him all their lives. How can he bear to see them like this.

"Sorry..." Hou Qingqing can only say sorry, she knows his parents' health is very bad, this is because of her.

"You don't have to say I'm sorry. It's not your fault not to love me. It's just that I'm smart now. I know I'm going back. I don't want to work hard and get nothing." Xu Yan laughed at himself.

What does Hou Qingqing want to say, but what can she say? She can't give him any promise now, and she can't bet her parents' body on whether she will fall in love with him in the future.Xu Yan looked at her, then looked at her for a long time, and finally said, "Qingqing, let's separate!"

They are really not suitable to go on, people really want fate.

Hou Qingqing looked at him and couldn't speak for a long time.

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"Muzi, didn't you say there was a way? Why don't you act! I'm going to be crazy here! " Song Qianying really can't stand it! The old woman ignored her existence before, but now she doesn't know how to draw wind. She always troubles her every day and takes out her dead son's things. She's really sick to death!

"Don't worry. You have to calm down. It's very important." Muzi Li let her calm down.

"I know it's very important, but when should we take action for such an important thing?" Song Qianying really can't calm down.

"Right away."

"How? What do you need me to do? " Song Qianying immediately worried.

"You don't have a bag of Medicine on your desk." Muzi Li showed her the table.

"This bag?" Song Qianying takes it up.

"Yes."

"What for?"

"Find a chance to give Pei Xiuyuan a drink."

Song Qianying was stunned, and then said, "give him a drink? What kind of medicine is this

"Why don't you worry?" Muzi Li Tiaomei, if song Qianying does not say, how can he not expect that she would be Pei Xiuyuan's mother!

"No, I'm not willing to. I just want to ask what this medicine is for and whether it will take his life. If it takes his life, they doubt me, then I'm not very dangerous." Song Qianying is afraid that she can't escape.

"You think too much, you are my wife, how can I let you take the risk." Muzi said with a smile.