Chapter 402

Xie Jingjing and Annie took a taxi and left. Zhuo Feng said hello to them and left.

I stood on the side of the car and looked at him. He leaned on the door and looked at me. The two of them just looked at each other and said nothing.

He drew out a cigarette. Just a little bit. Hesitated or put down, asked me, "this matter. What do you want to do? "

I don't know what I want to do. He has already gone to miss li. Ask me what to do? What else can we do. Salad!

He breathed out, "Li missed going back. She needed to have an abortion because she was in a bad mood and drank a lot. I took a lot of medicine. It's probably the child in danger. "

Children, children

Once upon a time, Zhuo Feng experienced the pain of losing his child, but he knew that the child was not his, but Feng Ke's. He would rather call himself a grassland above his head. Do not want to give up Xu Jiaojiao, this love. It makes me jealous.

Xie Jingjing said that I don't have self-confidence, always holding my own character to get along with Zhuo Feng. I've been careful. Now it seems. She's right.

I just live carefully.

Zhuo Feng is worried about children and women's lives. Worried about everything, but not worried about my unhappiness.

Come back to me. Kissing, hugging, passion, behind is a repeated and powerless apology, my injury seems not important at all.

I am very tired, love is very tired, call me physically and mentally tired.

"Zhuo Feng."

"Yes."

"Let's calm down for a while."

He didn't expect me to do this. He looked at me in surprise and didn't say anything for a long time.

I said, "sometimes I think we need to calm down to deal with each other's heart. We have been together for five years. It seems that we haven't really seen each other's heart in the past five years. Do you understand me, do I understand you?"

He grabbed my hand, very warm, but did not speak.

"I want to calm down. There will be another mid-term exam soon. I need to review well. Isn't there something to do in your company? Let's work on each other for a while, shall we? "

“…… Drow

"I've made up my mind. Don't ask me to change my mind. I want to live for myself once, OK?"

He was shocked and looked at me with wide eyes. "You've been living for yourself all the time."

I shook my head. "No. I've been following your route from the beginning to the end. I know that you will be happy to see my good exam results. I know that you like to sleep late at night. I deliberately do more exercises. I know that you like me to be outstanding, so I will study hard. If you ask me to sign up for ballet, I'll learn it. If you ask me to go home before 9 p.m., I'll do the same. You told me to go to the library more on weekends, and I heard you told me to wear a floral skirt. But you know what? In fact, I prefer to wear shorts, wear suspenders, play games, go shopping, work and meet classmates. Do you know that? "

His face was complicated and his eyes were pale.

I laughed. "You don't know. I always say you don't think of me as a child any more, but you still think of me as a child because we are ten years behind each other. But I am an adult now. I have reached the legal age to get married. I can even go out to work to make money. I can even drink with my friends very late at night and spend the whole night madly. This is what youth should look like. Zhuo Feng, I think the difference between us is not a little bit. "

"Drow, I know all you say."

I shook my head. "You don't know. If you do, will you go on looking for Miss Li without telling me? You know I can't accept you, but you can't forget it. If Miss Li is forced to die, you believe it. If she is pregnant, you are more worried than Gu Luo. What is this? What do you want me to think? "

“…… I'm sorry. I... "

I continue to laugh, but no tears, I think I really grow up, and will not affect my whole life because of him.

"Zhuo Feng, give us a quiet time to think about it. If we can't accept it, we will..."

"No, drow, be obedient and don't make decisions easily, OK? I can combine any of your changes, but don't Leave me

With tears in my eyes and hot tears in my throat, I nodded and said, "OK, I'll go first. Let's calm down and meet again."

I almost forgot how I got back to school. Xie Jingjing and Annie pulled me out and said that they had asked for leave and went to school. I'm sorry for the leave. So the three of us went to undersea world, which I had never been to, and the two bars that were just opened nearby.

Xie Jingjing said that she often comes here and leaves after a glass of juice. She likes the decoration here. It's quiet and not as noisy as other bars.

Annie said that the underwater world is not as good-looking as it used to be. Many animals have died. When she came here before, she could see big jellyfish. Her exaggerated gestures made me feel that I missed the most beautiful thing in the world.

Looking at their youth and sunshine, I really feel that I owe myself too much. I don't have what they have played, seen or experienced.In the words that Liu Wei commented on me in her letter, it's like, "you live a middle-aged life ahead of time. It's actually very good, but it's less fun for our age group. You have to get used to it. "

I think I've learned that by now.

I have been laughing all day, my cheeks are a little painful, but I am very satisfied, my heart is no longer empty, life is no longer boring, I find fun.

Read books, learn to study, hold a mobile phone to fight the king, team up to row, occasionally I also talk dirty words.

In just one week, I felt that I had changed my personality. This kind of life makes my life colorful and wonderful.

This weekend, brother Li came.

He sent me clothes and some books I needed. I looked at the familiar package and felt sad for a long time.

Brother Li handed me some money. It was cash. "Take it. I know you are not short of money, but he gave it. He said he didn't know what you need now."

My heart suddenly a pain, with tears en a sound, nasal very heavy.

"Zhuo Er, it's not brother Li who said that about you. You misunderstood Zhuo Feng."

I don't want to hear it. No matter whether I misunderstand it or not, I don't want to pursue it. The circle of life can really tell two people to go their separate ways. I realize it, but I don't want to hear anything about him now.

I shook my head. "Brother Li, now I can't listen to you. I'd better not talk about it."

"Well, if you don't say it, you're sensible. If you talk too much, you're tired. But it's not easy for two people to be together. It's not a big deal to separate them. Let's go home in a few days."

Home?

I always feel that I have no home. I used to think that where there is Zhuo Feng, there is my home. We can form a family, but now I don't feel at home.

"Brother Li, I don't feel safe, is it because I don't have a home?"

"Yes. But aren't you and Zhuo Feng a small family? "

I shook my head, "no, he's the Zhuo family. He can go back at any time, and even his family can come over at any time. We're not. I'm redundant."

Brother Li wanted to say something more, but it turned into a long sigh, and then said, "don't think about it. Sometimes, it's very simple."

Watching brother Li's car drive away, I put a dozen banknotes in my hand into my schoolbag. I can't use advanced ones in school. When I go out, I brush my brother's gold card. I don't know how to use it when I have more cash.

When she got to the classroom, Xie Jingjing sneaked into her brain bag. "Zhuo Er, did you hear that there are a group of exchange students in our school, all of them are French. It seems that there are some friends of Gu Chengfeng. I saw them just now. They are so handsome. Ah, they are coming. They are very handsome. They should be mixed blood."

I look in the direction of Xie Jingjing's finger. Ah, zhuohan?