Chapter 41 - My bad

Their entangled bodies intensely burn with need. Kang Si An loses himself in her familiar scent. Whispering sweet nothings in her ears, he sees her blush more underneath him. He traces her curves with his hands. She gasps in pain when he shoves his pulsating member inside her cave. Her bust presses against his hard ċhėst. He stops moving when he sees the tears.

"Should we stop?" He asks her.

She bites her lower lip and shakes her head.

"Are you sure?" He is worried. This is the first time when he is sleeping with a vɨrġɨn. Was he too hasty? She is too tight. He should have fingered her more.

She inhales sharply. "Kang Si An, you are asking me this question when your pėnɨs is inside my vȧġɨnȧ?"

He chortles. "My bad."

With another hard shove, the obstacle is cleared away. She cries out in pain. His hip slowly moves against hers. Their tongues are entwined, almost becoming one. She digs her nails on her back when he fastens his pace. She shuts her eyes in bliss and mȯȧns as she wraps her legs around him.

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He embraces me and asks, "Was I gentle enough?"

It's too late to regret. Let's blame hormones. I was the one who made the move first. "Yes."

"Kyuri, don't leave me alone." He whispers in my ear. "Do anything to live and be with me. When you go back, tell me honestly. I love you. I will accept and do anything to save you. Even if I have to give up my life, I will do it gladly. Please. Trust me."

I can't tell him that it's him. Either he will kill himself or he will live the rest of his life with guilt. "Tell me about you and your family."

"My father left my mother when I was seven. My younger brother was born after he left. She raised me and my younger brother by herself. I had a good childhood. When I was in middle school, I joined the band. I dropped out of the band because I slept with the guitarist who turned out to be the girlfriend of another member."

I frown at him. This guy! He was acting so jealous of Li Jun. He has been sleeping around at such a young age. "Seriously?"

"I didn't know." He looks at me apologetically. "I did a lot of mistakes when I was young."

"Was that your first time?" I can't resist asking.

"Um... yes." He looks away nervously. "She wasn't as pretty as you. It didn't mean anything. I don't even remember her name."

"Models. Actresses. Guitarist." I smile at him. "How many were there before me?"

He doesn't meet my eyes. "Not many. I don't remember the number. The past is the past. Besides, you also had a lover from hundreds of years ago. You even got married to him."

"Honey, I married your previous reincarnation. I doubt that the models, actresses, and your first-time guitarist were my reincarnations."

"He is still another guy." He scowls at me. "How come he got to marry you before I did?"

I turn my back on him. "You have been with numerous women."

He snuggles closer. "After I met you, it was only you while you were seeing someone else."

"He looks like you. He even has your soul." I grumble to him. "Technically, you two are same."

"I am still jealous." He lips brush on my shoulder. "Kyuri, tell me how to change the past."

I turn around to face him. He still wants to know. "You can help me. There's a way."

"Really?" He smiles widely. "I will do anything. Say it."

"My second ability is that I can walk into someone else's dreams. Through the dreams, I can access the mind for memories," I tell him my second secret.

Traveling into someone's dreams and mind is more dangerous than traveling in time. The risk is losing oneself or breaking the person's mind. I once tried it on my brother and I was stuck inside his head for a week. My brother and I were unconscious for that entire period. God knows how freaked out my parents were. After that time, I didn't try this again.

Nobody likes to share their intimate memories and secrets with someone else. I wonder if he would deny it. I could walk into his dream fȯrċɨbŀƴ, but it might cause harm to him. I don't like the idea. He might hate me for invading his mind.

I wonder if he thinks that I am a freak.

"You need my memories to know the future." He closes his eyes. "You should run your fingers through my hair. I will fall asleep faster."

"Kang Si An, are you okay with it?" I put my palm on his cheek. "If I make a mistake, you might never wake up. For me, you don't have to do this. I will find another way."

I don't want to risk his future for mine. If I could, I would remove my memories from his mind. However, I don't have that ability.

"Kyuri." He doesn't open his eyes. "Do it. Change the future. I don't want to spend my life without you."

This man will do anything for me. I don't say anything. I don't run my fingers through his hair. A part of me doesn't want him to sleep. His breathing becomes light. I realize that he has fallen asleep anyway. I am scared of entering his dream.

To change his and my future, I need to know the future. I don't know how much of it will help. I have to find the time crystal. I unwillingly touch his temple with my first finger and close my eyes. Falling into someone's dream is faster than falling asleep.