Five years later
After a rain in S City, the sky is especially clear.
"Mom, come and see. The plane is on the roof. Is it going to fall?" A chubby little boy about five years old was lying by the window screaming.
With the cry of the little boy, a young woman in red and white plaid home clothes came out. It was Shen Lin who had been away from s city for five years.
She walked quickly to the little boy. Following the direction he pointed out, Shen Lin only saw a white line left by the plane across the sky.
"Mom, did the plane fall?" The little boy opened his big round eyes and asked the woman behind him.
"No Shen Lin gently nodded on the boy's forehead, "don't talk nonsense."
"Mom, really, I just fell when I watched the plane." The boy is very stubborn.
"Well, little grapefruit, tell mom, why do you think the plane fell down?" Shen Lin asked the little boy helplessly.
"You see, that plane, whew, so fast, that house hid it. What about the plane? It's gone. It's falling. When I saw Leddy, the plane it was flying was whew, and it fell down. " Little grapefruit explained it very carefully.
After hearing the boy's explanation, Shen Lin began to laugh and cry: "OK, you can continue to watch the cartoon, mom, the matter is not finished. Darling, don't disturb me any more, OK? "
Shen Lin steps to the room.
"If the plane falls, people will die. If a person dies, it means he is gone. Nothing Said little pomelo suddenly.
When people die, it means that they are gone, and there is no one... The tender words, however, just like a sharp blade, insert into Shen Lin's heart quickly, accurately and ruthlessly. Shen Lin's feet were frozen there, and her hands could not help clenching. After a while, she opened her mouth difficultly: "baby, who told you these words?"
Little pomelo rolled on the sofa: "did you forget? The popular science Island you downloaded for me has a saying on it. Ha ha ha, mom. You are stupid. "
Shen Lin closed her eyes and then moved back to the room step by step. It's just that she no longer has the strength to sit at the desk and finish her previous work. After entering the room, she took a bottle of red wine with trembling hands, poured half a glass of wine and poured it all down in one breath. A burst of hot stomach, she was holding an empty cup, holding the sofa sat down.
Five years, full five years, she thought it was long enough for her to forget all the past. But why? Just a few casual words from little grapefruit, her heart vibrates like this?
Didn't she let him go?
No, it's not. As early as that day five years ago, she told herself that she would live well and become a new self. In the past five years, she has done very well, hasn't she? She has a little grapefruit, a new life, a new circle of friends. It has nothing to do with the people and things in the past.
Shen Lin curled up in the sofa and hugged herself. Heart again and again shouting: Shen Lin, you are no longer five years ago you. Don't think about that man any more. He's dead. All love and hate, because of his death and written off... But, but she really did not want him to die.
Another voice in Shen Lin's heart screamed: admit it, you want him to die. He died as you wish. Don't you care? He died, turned into a handful of ash, a pile of bones, buried in the loess. From then on, there was no day to see each other, never to see again.
Shen Lin thinks that Li Luochen is gone. He completely disappears from the world and becomes a grain of dust, a stone, a gust of wind, a cloud... He may be any object, but he will not be a living person any more. The person who always likes to look at her and make her laugh is gone.
Her heart at this moment, as if by thousands of hands repeatedly rubbing. She felt very difficult to breathe, she wanted to escape, but there was no place to escape. She wanted to hide, but no longer a hug can let her rely on.
What is she going to do?
"Mom, mom, what's the matter with you?" Little pomelo ran into the room. He climbed to the sofa and pushed Shen Lin hard.
"Little grapefruit, mom is a little uncomfortable." Shen Lin kept sucking cold air. She was in a hurry to drink that glass of wine, and now her stomach began to ache.
"Mom, I'll rub your stomach for you, just as you usually do for me." Small grapefruit said with chubby hands to rub Shen Lin's stomach.
Shen Lin looked at the little life lying on her body, at least five minutes so long, she let herself slowly calm down.
"Well, baby, mom's fine. You go to play. Mom will take you to dinner later. " Shen Lin took the grapefruit off the sofa with some difficulty. "Thank you, baby."
"Mom, are you really well?" Small pomelo very worried to look at her, "you always have a stomachache, but you are always reluctant to go to the hospital, you are not good."
"Yes, our grapefruit is the best." Shen Lin, with a pale smile, coaxed the little grapefruit out to watch the cartoon. She nestled in the sofa for a while and then went back to the workbench.
The new life is not as happy as she thought.
Life is slow, life is flat, day after day. It has been more than a month since I returned to s city. Little pomelo has gone to a new kindergarten. Every day after delivering the grapefruit, Shen Lin is the only one left in the big house.
This city, carrying too many memories, she should not come back.
But she came back!
What on earth is she expecting? What else does she want to know?
One month and nine days after she went to the new kindergarten, she was in a daze on the sofa after finishing her work that afternoon. The mobile phone screen on the tea table lights up, and the phone of little pomelo teacher is quietly flashing on the screen.
For five years, her cell phone has been silent. After returning to s City, she changed her number again. This new number can call in. There are only teachers of little pomelo.
"Hello, Mr. Xu." She was steady before she picked up the phone.
"I'm sorry to call you at this time, Miss Shen." Teacher Xu on the other end of the phone was very upset. "Well, when little pomelo went to the toilet at noon, he had a little conflict with a child. It's a very small thing. But the other party's parents insist on seeing you. Miss Shen, could you please come here? "
Shen Lin frowned, she spent so expensive tuition, the teacher even can't deal with such a small problem?
"Miss Shen, I know it's hard for you. I'm really sorry, I..." teacher Xu's voice trembled.
Shen Lin got up and said, "OK, I'm going out now."
"Thank you very much, Miss Shen." Mr. Xu is relieved.
Shen Lin thinks it's the other party's parents who are looking for trouble. She can't lose momentum. So she took a few minutes to clean herself up, and then went out with her bag and car key.
When she drove to the kindergarten, the head of the kindergarten and teacher Xu were waiting there. When Shen Lin walked by, they met her very politely.
"Miss Shen, thank you very much." The director said.
"No Shen Lin's light tone.
Under the leadership of the principal and teacher Xu, Shen Lin came to the office building on the west side of the kindergarten. The parents of the other party are waiting in the meeting room, but the director and Mr. Xu are only at the door of the meeting room, which is enough to see the origin of the other party.
"Miss Shen, the other party's parents are waiting for you." The director knocked on the door, and there was a deep reply. After hearing the response, the director pulled teacher Xu on one side. Two people ran away as if they were running for their lives.
Shen Lin thinks it's really funny. Isn't it normal for children to fight? Is it hard for parents to take her to court because of children's fighting?
Shen Lin reached out and pushed open the door of the conference room. The conference room was very big. Because it was too big and the light was not on, the tall man standing at the conference table was blurry.
Shen Lin took a few steps in her high heels.
The man standing at the conference table picked up his chest and looked at her with a smile: "Shen Lin, it's really you. I haven't seen you for five years. You are still beautiful. "
When Shen Lin heard the voice, she was shocked, but she had to keep calm. In five years, although she has not yet become a Buddha or an immortal, it is enough for her to remain calm on the surface.
"It's you. I said why the parents of the other party must see me." Shen Lin began to pull the chair in front of the conference table and sat down.
"Chen Kefan, let's talk about it. What do you want me to do?"
"Shen Lin, it's too light for you to say that, isn't it?" Chen Kefan supported the table with both hands, "don't you explain first, what's the matter with little grapefruit? I asked the director, the child is four weeks and six months old this year. If I'm not wrong, it's not you, is it
Shen Lin took a look at him: "it has nothing to do with you coming to me?"
"Of course it does." Chen Kefan was angry. He knocked on the table. "Shen Lin, are you worthy of Li Luochen? What about your heart? Made of stone? "
"I don't need you to care whether my heart is made of stone. Chen Kefan, if you come to me to talk nonsense, I'm sorry, I don't have time. I still have a lot to deal with. " Shen Lin stood up, she needs to leave these immediately, otherwise, her efforts to maintain calm will collapse.
"Shen Lin, you have changed." Chen Kefan's tone is very painful, "Li Luochen for you, really not worth it, not worth it at all."
Shen Lin began to walk out, her every step is very heavy.
"For you, he took his own life, Shen Lin, do you have no heart?" Chen Kefan asked angrily.
To save her? Shen Lin feels that she has been beaten by others. What is Chen Kefan talking about? Is Li Luochen trying to save her? He did it for himself.
"Do you think I'll believe it?" Shen Lin clenched her teeth, tone more cold, "Chen Kefan, the past has passed, the dead are dead, let it all end."
"In the past?" Chen Kefan walked up to her and said, "Shen Lin, can you really get by?"
Shen Lin straightened her back. She told herself in her heart: Shen Lin, don't go back to the old days, you are a new self now. You should not come back here, or leave it, leave everything will end.
"Yes, I can." Shen Lin almost squeezed these words out of her teeth, and then she brushed past Chen Kefan. She opened the heavy conference room, and the door slammed shut.
The headmaster and teacher Xu, who were not far away, were scared into silence.
When Shen Lin came to the corner, she paused: "director Zhao, little pomelo has been going to school until today. Please drop him out."
"Miss Shen..."
Shen Lin stepped forward, she did not look back.
Little pomelo heard that he would not go to kindergarten any more. He couldn't understand it. He quarreled with Shen Lin for several days. Shen Lin was so tired that she had to prolong the time of watching cartoons.
Can we just get out of here? Shen Lin asked herself that what happened in those years was what she saw with her own eyes. But why does Chen Kefan say that Li Luochen died to save her.
Well, let's go and make it clear. Shen Lin shivered. She just thought of those people, those faces and the pain she would never touch again. She would rather let all the past die in her heart.
Shen Lin retreated, but she could escape herself, but she could not escape the torture of the devil. She began to repeatedly do messy dream, dream is a mess of people, those faces flash too fast, so fast that she can not catch a.
"Mom, you haven't taken me to the park for a long time." I'm tired of watching cartoons. He ran to make trouble with Shen Lin again.
Shen Lin has a headache. Maybe she shouldn't drop out of school for little pomelo. Chen Kefan can find her through kindergarten. It's not difficult to find her here.
Why did she hide from him? Is it because she's guilty?
"Mom, you're in a daze again." Little grapefruit shakes her a little unhappy.
"Sorry, baby." Shen Lin has some apologies.
"Can you take me to play?" Asked little pomelo.
"I'll call my aunt and ask her to accompany me, OK?" Shen Lin asked that she was in such a bad mood these days that she had to hire a housewife. Aunt housekeeping is very nice, and little pomelo is very close to her.
"Well, call your aunt now." Small grapefruit said to bump bump bump bump ran to the workbench there took Shen Lin's mobile phone.
The housekeeper went out to play with the grapefruit, and Shen Lin poured a glass of wine to anesthetize herself. It is said that wine is a good medicine to soothe the heart, but I don't know why. The more she drinks, the clearer she is.
She thought maybe it was wrong from the beginning, everything was wrong. She shouldn't meet Li Luochen, she shouldn't love him, and she shouldn't hate him. She shouldn't have left and she shouldn't have come back. The last thing she should do is... Leave the grapefruit.
She can't even manage her own business. Why do you think you can take charge of a child?
Shen Lin's heart ached. She sat up and poured herself a glass of wine. Alcohol began to burn in her body, and she was lying on the sofa, indulging herself.
Sleep, sleep, you can think nothing.
Shen Lin had a long dream. She dreamed of Li Luochen. He was as good-looking as he used to be, or he liked to rub her body with his slender fingers. He said in her ear, Shen Lin, you are mine and mine.
Shen Lin wanted to tell him that she missed him very much. All these years, she has been missing him very much. However, looking at his eyebrows, she did not have the courage to say those words.
Chen Kefan said that he died to save her.
But in the past five years, she has been able to support herself by hatred.
Love will disappear, only hate will last forever. Now, Chen Kefan easily smashes the hatred in her heart. The person she hates most died in order to save her
How is she going to survive?
In the dream, Shen Lin cried very sad, Li Luochen holding her, he so gently patted her back, soft voice to coax her, he said, it's OK, I have, you don't cry, you cry my heart is confused.
Shen Lin cried more sad, she wanted to hold him more tightly, she wanted to tell him that she no longer hated him, everything in the past was her fault. But something terrible happened, and little by little his body began to scatter in her hands. It's like sand. She grabs hard, and his body drains faster.
"Luochen, no, no, no, don't leave me. I don't want to be alone." Shen Lin broke down and knelt down crying. In her hand, there was only a handful of air left.
She woke up from crying in her dream. She was still lying on the sofa, on the coffee table, and the screen flickered from time to time. Shen Lin sat up on the sofa. She took her cell phone. The housekeeper called her three times. Seeing that she never came back, she sent a text message saying that she would bring the grapefruit back after dinner.
Shen Lin put down her cell phone after a good word. She had a bad headache. She staggered into the bathroom and put in a bathtub of hot water. She soaked in the warm water.
Took a hot bath. Shen Lin felt much more comfortable after changing her home clothes. She went to the kitchen for some food and warmed up a glass of milk. Her stomach was no longer empty, so she felt that she had some popularity.
What should we do in the future? Take the grapefruit back to the original city? Thinking of little grapefruit, Shen Lin is a little tangled. When she comes back to s City, although some of her selfishness is for her own sake, more of it is for her children. After all, there are the best resources here, and the city is more conducive to the growth of children's hardware facilities. Shen Lin thought about this, but she couldn't help laughing bitterly. Who could have thought that one day, she would do so many things for a child, a child without blood relationship? After that nightmare five years ago, she fled the city. In the constant escape, she saw a little grapefruit in the welfare home one day. Her eyes looked like a person. She took care of him with great difficulty. In the past five years, she has brought up the grapefruit from a baby. It's hard to be humane. Fortunately, there is a small grapefruit, she can have the motivation to live. Looking at his smiling face, she can feel the warmth of sunshine every day. Shen Lin thought, in another world, is Li Luochen OK? Will he take in a little life like her. Once upon a time, she and he thought that they would grow old together and have many children. One day, when they were gray, the children would be able to sit beside them and listen to their stories. However, there has never been a if in this world. You can search Baidu for the latest chapter of "my husband's routine today is my nine peach novel "! This novel has been translated by www.novelhall.com and if you are reading this somewhere, they have stolen our translation.