Chapter 267

Gu zisong disappeared again, it seems that everything is calm, but I don't know how many things he did.

The news has been removed, including the news in the newspaper. All the posts have disappeared, and even some people have opened posts to reveal Gu zisong's affairs quietly.

He was a fool who liked men. He took all the belongings belonging to Gu zisong's mother. He knew that Gu zisong's mother was pregnant and forced her to marry Gu Songhai by extraordinary means.

Some people even posted Gu zisong's identity on the Internet, the date of his birth, and the specific time of Gu Songhai's marriage.

The previous direction of public opinion was inclined to Gu zisong.

Because of the exposure of Gu Songhai's identity, Gu's shares plunged. However, a strange company was purchasing a large number of shares. Overnight, things that were bad for Gu zisong changed rapidly. Overnight, some people were happy and others were worried.

But Gu zisong still has no news.

I was obedient and didn't ask. I just waited in silence.

I don't know when to start. I like to wait for him so quietly. I imagine that he will appear in front of me one day and tell me that everything has been dealt with. The rest of the time is for us to enjoy each other's happiness quietly.

I don't know how long it will take to wait. Every minute is like suffering.

I thought it was just a few days, but I didn't expect that it would take three months to wait.

I never heard from him. He didn't even show up in any corner. I didn't see him when I went to the company. People in the company were silent and busy. Leaders who used to like meetings were no longer keen on meetings. It seems that they don't all have things they like to do and they are addicted to work You can't extricate yourself.

And I, busy, three companies back and forth, do not know how many times a day to go.

Xiao song called me twice. He just told me to have a rest. He seemed to know everything and didn't ask me a word more.

My parents originally planned to leave early. Because of the family affairs, the sudden disappearance of Gu zisong and my sudden silence, they decided to stay.

No, in the twinkling of an eye, another year passed.

On the evening of new year's Eve, my mother is making dumplings in the dining room. They are all orphans, and a few big and small guys are also at my home. However, in the seemingly lively atmosphere, there are always some ignorant loneliness, who do not know where to come from. They are silent with each other and do not mention any situation of taking care of their family.

Wang Duo asked me before, what do you think, why don't you look for him, in case he cheated me to get married secretly, or leave without saying goodbye, what a pity.

I just smile, although sad in heart, but still comfort to say, "no matter what kind of result, I accept."

I thought I could accept it, but in fact, before the night came, nightmares swept over me, which could torture me to lose half my life.

The nightmares that had long gone before haunted me came back to me on the night when Gu zisong disappeared, but the difference is that the man who had nightmares before my death became Gu zisong.

When I wake up in the morning, I'll sweat all over my body and turn pale in amazement.

My mother invited a psychologist for me. I haven't been there once, but on New Year's Eve, I especially want to go and have a look.

On the night of new year's Eve, there are few cars on the road, but the lights are very bright, and lights are everywhere. But when the emperor is in the capital, there are very few people on holidays, like an empty city, desolate everywhere.

When the wind blows, there is death everywhere.

My car was driving very fast. The passing traffic police waved to me and looked at me. They just reminded me not to drive too fast and let me go. I said thank you to them and said, "Happy New Year!"

They smile at me and wave their hands to let me go. I smoothly turn over the traffic post and enter the viaduct. After opening along the viaduct for a long time, I finally arrive at the psychological clinic. I stare at the closed door and feel flustered.

On New Year's Eve, why do people wait for me? Doctors are also people who need to celebrate the new year.

I cried, squatting on the ground crying very loud.

Three months of grievances were finally released at this moment.

The grievance in the heart, can't say sad.

I scolded Gu zisong for his ruthlessness and coldness in a deserted place. He left me like this without saying a word or saying goodbye, and then disappeared. It seems that he didn't think about what I should do.

I wait foolishly until I don't know when to go.

But I'm still waiting, as if I won't stop until he says he'll make up or break up, but the farther the time is, the more I can realize the alienation between us.

What was he doing, what was he doing, why everything didn't seem to have happened, and he was calm. The family affairs subsided, and the family members went to work step by step. No one mentioned it again. Only some people would give me a bad look, such as warning, threat and pity.

I don't know what position and identity I am in in the whole thing.I thought I could hold what I care about and what I don't care about in my hand, but in fact, it's all vulnerable, just because Gu zisong's "waiting" is castrated.

I cry, the distant sky echoes up the sound of firecrackers, my heart, desolate, cold as if the winter cold.

In the past, it seldom snowed on New Year's Eve in the imperial capital. Maybe this year's snow had come earlier. Today, the snowflakes were scattered. After a while, it covered the world. It was white everywhere, just like my heart and my face at this time.

This feeling is like a needle that has taken away all my Qi and blood. It stabs me in and draws blood all the time. It turns me into a corpse and will never turn over.

I don't know how to get home. Li Yi and his parents went to bed early. When they came back, they threw away their playing cards and stood up, looking at me one by one.

Li Yi began to say, "we told sunspot to check the monitoring before we knew you were OK, otherwise uncle and aunt would not go to bed so early, but they just went to bed. Maybe they didn't fall asleep. Go to have a look, sister Lou. Uncle and aunt are worried about you."

I nodded, turned a direction to go, thought about it, and stopped in the middle of the way, "no, I'm not suitable to meet them now, you continue to play, I'll be fine later."

Li Yi stares at me with a nervous face.

I asked in surprise, "what's the matter?"

Li Long sighed and said, "Mr. Lou, you are really bad now. You Look at yourself and you'll see what's going on. "

I turned around, and in my mirror behind me, my white down jacket did not know when a large black patch was over, and the makeup of my face was covered. The half face was all the faint eye liner, the mascara stuck down, and the half eyelid swelled, as if it had been punched by someone, and it had been snowing heavily outside. I walked back for a long time, and the car stopped halfway, and I didn't know what to stop. Where is it? My face is red and swollen, and my ears are cold.

At this time, I am in a mess.

I take a deep breath, and the nasal sound is still very strong.

"I, I should be OK."

Li Yi said, "if it's OK, I'll help you put the bath water. Go to bed early after you take a bath."

I shake my head and throw the bag in my hand. Now I'm haunted by nightmares when I sleep. I've rejected sleep.

I rolled up my sleeve, "I'll wash my face. If you don't want to go back, you can stay and have a drink with me. Li long, you can get the wine. There are still a lot of wine in the cellar, right?"

The master and the apprentice looked at each other, and Li Long said, "well, I'll take it. Let's go back first. We'll just stay here."

Five people, and finally left three, master and apprentice Li long, and sunspot.

It seems that I've been missing for many days. No, it's exactly three months.

After that time, he never went to my home again. I knew his fear of me and separated a door in his heart, so he was not so close to me.

I smile, nodded at them, washed my face, and wiped my face with a hot towel, which made me feel more comfortable.

I rubbed my hands and watched Li Long ironing wine over there, sunspot warming vegetables in the kitchen and Li Yi cutting fruit.

Li Yi shows up and jumps. He is always so optimistic and smiles. He sits down to remove a few toothpicks and put them on the fruit. He takes a bite of pineapple first.

"Sister Lou, you eat and see, delicious and frozen."

Frozen pineapple? It's really fresh. I try it. It's cold. I ice my teeth. But I still put down my toothpick after eating several pieces. I take a breath and say, "it's so cold."

Sunspot came over with fried vegetables, and put them in plates. "These dishes can still be eaten. The fish couldn't be hot before, so I didn't take them."

I said, "well, that's enough. Sit down!"

Li Long also came out with hot wine, and three pot of Baijiu, the fragrance was scattered away, not drunk and drunk.

I poured a cup and drank it up. Tears came out with the spicy wine.

My heart aches. It stings me like hot wine, but the wine burns my throat, but Gu zisong hurts my whole body, including my heart.

I choked, touched off the tears on my face, and continued to fill it. For five cups in a row, Li Yi pressed my hand, "sister Lou, you can't drink by yourself. You have to take us. You've drunk five. Wait for us, we'll drink five too."

Three people together looked up to drink five, I smile with tears, and then did not raise a glass, grateful to say, "thank you, there are people with me at the critical moment, at least I am not so helpless."

Li Yi is not a good drinker. Five of them are drunk. He laughs and says, "who are we? If it's not for sister Lou, we are still worms in the gutter. Now we can buy a house in the imperial capital with a monthly salary of 20000 or 30000. We used to be outlaws and live in a village in the city. Now we have our own home in the ring. It's all because of you, sister Lou. We can't forget our roots 。”

Li Long also said, "yes, I should accompany you. Anyway, we are all orphans. This is our second home. I'll have another one. "

After Li Long finished drinking, the sunspot over there said, "sister, I I'm sorry. I always blame you for that. I don't think you should do that. "I said, "you mean I shouldn't be that vicious?"

Sunspot guilt droop, "sorry."

I shook my head and said, "it's useless to apologize. I don't accept it. My loutong is such a vicious person. But it depends on who he is. It can only be like this to Jiang Lin. now the evidence is enough. As long as I want to, I can ask him to go in and squat for a few years. But I'm not reconciled to what he did to me and what he did to his parents. He can't just live a good life. I'm not reconciled, I'm not reconciled. "

I took a hard breath and looked at their heads. As soon as I opened my voice, I couldn't stop it. Some people listened and I talked endlessly. I don't know why I finally mentioned Gu zisong, whom I didn't want to mention.

At the thought of this name, I want to die.

I cover my heart, poke, mercilessly poke, numb, what is the pain, I don't know.

"I want to drink more so that I can remember him more clearly, or I will not be able to revenge him later."